The Hardest Part Is Letting Go Of Your Dreams

I walk into the diner ten minutes late to find William sitting in a booth, fiddling with a napkin. "Hey baby" I say as I sit beside him and he looks over and smiles wide. "Hey" he says before leaning in and kissing me. When we pull apart a waitress comes over and takes our order. While we wait I say "So, I..." "I love you Gerard" William cuts me off. "Sorry I just needed to actually say it." I smile at him and reach out to take his hand. "Babe, I have really strong feelings for you but I don't think I'm quite there yet, I'm sorry." William smiles and shakes his head slightly "No baby it's ok." I smile back and lean in to kiss him again.
After lunch we leave the diner hand in hand and William says "Wanna come hang out at mine for a while?" I nod and we walk to his apartment, where we settle on the couch and watch tv. I wrap my arm around his waist and pull him into my chest, him laying against me while I cuddle him. After a while William starts to play with the hand I have resting on his hip and when I look down at him he tilts his head up and kisses me. I kiss back and he climbs over to straddle my lap, slowly unbuttoning my shirt. As he pulls it off my shoulders he freezes and I pull back to look at him, seeing the look on his face and remembering about my neck. "Baby" I start but he shakes his head and says "No it's ok. Let's go to the bedroom" getting up and tugging me behind him, leading me to the bedroom and climbing onto the bed with me. I lay back as he works my pants off and he lubes up two fingers, sliding them inside me as he kisses up my thighs. I groan out and push against his fingers when I feel a sharp stinging on my inner thigh and I flinch away before sitting up and seeing the very red mark of a forming bruise on my leg. I freak out for a second, William just gave me a hickie. He pushes me back on the bed and tugs his own pants off before climbing up inbetween my legs and kissing me as he slowly slides his way inside me. I groan out and get lost in the pleasure as he thrusts in and out of me. We work together and all too soon I feel the pressure in my lower stomach and I groan out as I cum. As I lay there coming down my mind wanders to the new hickie on my thigh and William smirks and rubs his fingers over it like he can read my mind and says "It's hot that you have my mark on you." I smile but inside I'm panicking. "That was hot baby." After another few minutes I drag myself off the bed and redress. "I gotta get going baby. See you tomorrow." I lean down and kiss him again and he says "Can't wait. Bye baby." I leave the apartment and go straight home, getting in the bath and letting myself break down, the mental freak out I was having before nothing compared to this. I cry in big ugly sobs that shake my whole body and make me unable to breathe as I tug on my hair and bring my knees up to my chest, resting my forehead on them and whimpering. What the fuck am I doing? I sit in the water until it goes cold and just as I'm about to get out I hear Frank come in the front door and I climb out, wrapping a towel around myself. I walk out of the bathroom and find Frank in the bedroom where he gasps upon seeing me and my red swollen eyes. "Oh my god baby what's wrong?" I shake my head and say "Just having a bad day I guess." Frank walks over and wraps me in his arms and I break, sobbing into his neck as I desperately cling to him. He gently eases me down onto the bed and lays with me, holding me tight and stroking my hair, remaining silent and letting me
cry it out until I run out of tears and fall asleep.

When I wake up Frank is sitting beside me and when I reach out to grab his hand he pulls it away. "Well now I know" he says and I feel my heart stop momentarily before I say "Know what?" "I know about William Gerard, I saw it on your phone." I sit up and turn to face him, "Baby" I say and he cuts me off "No, not baby. My name is Frank or can you not remember that seeing as you're fucking two people?" I swallow hard as he says "Not even going to deny it are you?" I drop my gaze from his face to the bed as I shake my head and I feel the tears start again. "How could you do this to me? I know I've done some pretty fucking shitty things to you before but I never went and got a fucking boyfriend on the side behind your fucking back." I slide off the bed, seeing the Frank I know and love fade, his eyes hardening as his anger takes over. "Frank" I stutter out and he snaps, getting off the bed and shoving me back into the wall. "Fuck" he screams out as he lays his fists into me over and over. I cry out in pain before he wraps his hand around my throat and I desperately claw at his hand, desperate to escape his grip. In the struggle my towel falls off and the hickie on my thigh becomes fully visible. Frank spots it from the corner of his eye and he spits out "You fucked him earlier didn't you" as his grip tightens and I can no longer breathe at all. I wheeze, trying to plead with him again but I can't get in enough air to speak. My vision starts to blur before black spots dance in my eyes and the last thing I register is his fist connecting with my face again.

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