The Hardest Part Is Letting Go Of Your Dreams

A month later I go back to work after being given the all clear from the doctor. My first day back William wraps his arns around me and says "I'm glad you're back." I smile when we pull apart and we go on with our day, serving customers and clearing tables. An hour before my shift is over I go into the back room for more napkins and when I turn around to leave William is in the room, standing infront of the open door. I smile at him and cross the room to leave but when I reach him
he doesn't move, he steps towards me and seals his lips to mine. I don't kiss back, my mind racing wondering what's going on and William pulls away looking hurt. "Sorry" he mumbles before turning to leave but I reach out and grab his wrist, stopping him and when he turns around the look of pure hurt and rejection on his face tugs at my heart and I pull him back in and this time I initiate the kiss. We kiss for a few seconds just a press of lips before I gently swipe my tongue across his bottom lip and he opens up, allowing me access to his mouth and I deepen the kiss by sliding my tongue inside. The kiss quickly turns heated and I drop the packet of napkins in my hand as I slide both hands up and tangle them in Williams hair, tugging softly as he moves closer and presses his body against mine, his hands sliding around to rest on my
lower back, holding me against him. We kiss for so long that when we pull apart we are panting for breath and our lips are swollen, Williams hair a mess from my tugging on it. We pull our mouths apart but not out bodies, still pressed together as we pant into each other's mouths. I smile and William smiles back before reaching one hand up and gently stroking his long calloused fingers down my cheek. "You're beautiful you know that?" He whispers out and I feel myself blush as I smile and shake my head. He smiles and nods before leaning in and pecking my lips again before he says "We better get back out there" and I realise we have been in here for a while. We go back out into the front and I fill the napkins as William serves another customer and before I know it my shift is over and as I go back to the back room to get my coat William follows me and says "Wanna go get some food?" I think about it for a moment and I know Frank works two hours later than me today so I smile and nod. Guilt tugs at my brain at the thought of Frank but kissing William felt so right and I just want to feel good for a change. Over the past month Frank and I have fought a lot, frustration over different things causing a lot of arguments and I have spent a few nights on the couch, just wanting some space from him. When William has his jacket on we leave the store and start walking towards the diner William wants to go to and we make it half a block before I feel his hand slip into mine and I allow it, sliding my fingers between his and gripping his hand tightly. "Your hands are so warm" William says and I smile as he moves closer to me, seeking warmth. We quicken our pace a little, walking toward the diner holding hands and when we get there we slide into a booth and when we pull our jackets off I slide over and wrap my arm around Williams waist, pulling him into my side and then sliding my arm up, rubbing his arm with my hand. "Warmer now?" I ask after a minute, his head now resting on my shoulder and he nods and says "Yeah you're so warm and you smell really good." I chuckle and don't say anything, unsure what I'm meant to say but feeling the happiest I've felt in a while. We pull apart to order and when the food comes we start to eat and pick off each other's plates, talking and laughing. Once we've finished eating I turn to William to ask if he's ready to leave but when I turn my body towards him I don't get a word out before his lips are on mine again. I melt into the kiss and soon we are practically making out in the booth. When I manage to finally tear my mouth from his I pant out "Maybe we should get out of here." William smirks and nods before sliding out of the booth and pulling his jacket back on, grabbing my hand and tugging me out the door. We stumble onto the street and we make it four steps before William shoves me back against the wall next to the diner and attacks my mouth with his again, his hands sliding up the front of my shirt. I shiver at the touch of his cold hands but I find myself craving more as I kiss back so I lightly push him off and when our lips part William pants out "Come with me" grabbing my hand and pulling me off the wall, dragging me down the street. We walk for a few minutes until we reach an apartment building where William drags me inside and into the elevator. Once the doors close we launch at each other, me shoving William back against the wall and gripping his thighs, picking him up and pinning him against the wall as his legs wrap around my waist and we kiss like we don't need air. When the elevator stops I don't bother putting him down, instead I pull him off the wall, carrying him from the elevator and gasping out "Which number?" He tells me and I carry him over, slamming his back into his door as my lips trail down to bite and suck at his neck and he groans out as he throws his head back, banging it against the door as his hips push forward, grinding his hard dick into mine through our jeans. I pull off his neck and mumble out "Fuck" before putting him down so he can open the door. He turns around on wobbly legs so I wrap my arms around his waist to hold him up, pressing my erection against his ass causing him to push back into me and fumble with the keys. While he shakily slides the key into the lock I slip my hands down and cup his dick with one hand while I work on his belt with the other. William groans out before pushing the door open and I push him inside before scooping him up bridal style and carrying him in, kicking the door shut behind me. I don't know his apartment so he directs me to the bedroom and when we get there I throw him on the bed before climbing ontop of him and tearing at his clothes, actually ripping his shirt in my haste to get him naked but he doesn't mind, the sound of ripping fabric seeming to turn him on more. Once we're fully naked William flips us over and straddles my hips, grinding our hard leaking dicks together as he leans over to the beside drawer for a condom. When he gets it he drops it on the bed before settling back over me and sealing his mouth to mine. While we kiss I flip us back over and break the kiss, sliding down his body and taking his dick in my mouth, sliding the whole way down and taking him into my throat as he screams out in pleasure above me and tangles his fingers in my hair, tugging hard and causing me to groan around him, the vibrations sending him wild. I pull off his dick and slide further down, gripping his thighs and forcing them apart before diving in and sliding the tip of my tongue into his ass. He tenses up before a very slutty moan escapes him and I start licking and sucking and teasing his hole with my tongue until he begs me to stop before he cums. I remove my mouth after pressing one last gentle kiss to his hole and he sits up and pushes me back onto the bed, straddling my thighs and grabbing the condom, ripping open the packet and rolling it onto my dick before climbing up further and sliding down onto me. I grip his hips hard and when he starts moving I can't hold back and I thrust up too, fucking him hard, reducing him to a moaning mess above me. "Oh fuck Gerard you're so big, know how to fuck me just how I like it" he groans out and I take his words of encouragement and let them spur me on and a few seconds later I grip his hips hard and roll us over, staying inside him and when his back hits the bed I grip the back of his thighs, pushing them up and bending him in half as I kneel up and drive down into his hole hard and fast. "Ahhh fuck Gerard" he screams out as I continue to fuck him deep before I ease off a little feeling close but not wanting this to end and when I shift back William lowers his legs and wraps them around my waist. I lean down over him in this new position, slowing my thrusts as I brace my arms either side of his head as we lean towards each other to kiss. When we pull apart William pants for breath before he groans out "Shift slightly to the right" and when I do he screams out in pleasure before he moans "Fuck I'm so close baby" and I thrust even harder into his prostate, causing him to tense up around me and as soon as my hand touches his dick he explodes, cumming hard and clenching around my dick so hard is milks the cum from me and I groan out "Ahh William holy shit" as I cum in his ass. When we both come down I slowly slide out of him and ease his legs back onto the bed. I climb off and slide the condom off, tying the end before walking over and dropping it into the bin beside the desk. When I walk back over to the bed I climb on and sit, sliding up so my back is resting against the headboard and William climbs over, straddling my lap as he sits and we press our chests together, kissing again. I slide my tongue into his mouth and he tangles his fingers in my hair as we kiss for what seems like hours. By the time we pull apart our lips are swollen and bruised and we both look the very definition of fucked. William stays in my lap and hunches down, resting his head on my shoulder as I tighten my grip around his waist and we just sit like that, regaining our breath while the room grows darker and darker around us. "Smells like sex in here" William slurs out on the edge of sleep and I chuckle as I slowly roll him off me and settle him on the bed beside me, tucking a pillow under his head. I go to slide off the bed when he grabs my wrist slurring out in a sleep laced voice "Please don't leave." I frown as I struggle to decide what to do. My head is screaming at me to go home to Frank but my heart is telling me to climb under the covers and cuddle up to William where it's warm. I sigh as I know the right thing to do isn't stay here and I lean over and whisper "I'm sorry baby but I have to go. I'll see you at work tomorrow" before kissing his forehead gently and tugging the blanket higher up over him and by the time I'm dressed again William is softly snoring. I quietly leave the apartment and once I'm back on the street and the fresh air hits me the guilt does too and I panic and wonder what the fuck I'm gonna do now.

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