The Hardest Part Is Letting Go Of Your Dreams

Frank smiles widely before he leans over and presses his lips to mine. I reach out and tangle my fingers in his hair, trapping him there and sliding my tongue into his mouth. We kiss for a few minutes before pulling away and Frank has tears rolling down his cheeks as he chokes out "I thought I would never get that with you again." I reach out and cup his cheek and he nuzzles into it and smiles through the tears. "I love you so much and I would never leave you" I whisper and Franks smile widens as he says "I love you too, more than you'll ever know." I smile back before I pucker my lips, asking for another kiss. When we pull apart again I say "You taste really good, like sweet coffee." Frank smiles and reaches out to pick up his paper cup from the table and offering it to me. I shift very slowly but pain still rips through me and I wince so Frank puts the cup down and helps me sit up, propping the pillows behind my back before sitting on the edge of the bed and offering me the cup again. I take a sip and moan out in contentment before handing Frank the cup back and we pass it back and forth, sharing the coffee and smiling at each other. Once it's all gone Frank gets up and crosses the room to throw the cup in the bin and I slide myself over to one side of the bed and lay back against the pillows and when he comes back I pat the space beside me and turn my puppy eyes on him and Frank melts and climbs up with me, laying down so I can snuggle into his side. I lay with my head on his shoulder and my arm over him, my hand resting over his heart while he wraps one arm around me and rests the other over my hand on his chest and I sigh in contentment again. After a few minutes Frank leans over and presses a loving kiss to my forehead making me smile and nuzzle further into his shoulder. We lay in comfortable silence for a few minutes, just holding each other before I break the silence by asking "What happened?" Frank tenses up before relaxing again and says "Do you really want to talk about this?" I nod my head and he sighs before saying "What do you remember?" I start to tell him about going to the house and Bob was there with Bert and being held at gunpoint and forced to do what they wanted to protect him and Mikey. "Oh babe" Frank chokes out and I shake my head and say "I would do anything to keep you safe." I then continue on to tell him how they tore my clothes off and at this point I start to cry. "He raped me with a gun" I choke out between tears and I feel Franks arms tighten around me before he sobs and his own tears start to fall. I slowly choke out the rest of the story until the point where I passed out and Frank chokes out "Baby I'm so sorry you went through that. I would do anything to take back what happened to you." I reach up and gently cup Franks cheek as I prop myself up to look at him and we just stare into each other's eyes through our tears. After a few minutes I say "So what happened next?" Frank takes a deep breath before resting his hand on my head and stroking my hair, easing my head back down onto his shoulder as he says "When I saw what was happening Bob came at me and I just lost it and charged at him, I tackled him to the floor and he dropped his gun. Mikey heard the scuffle and yelling so he ran back outside and called the cops. I fought with Bob and Bert put the gun to my head and I thought that was it but Mikey came back in and hit Bert's arm with the fire poker from near the door. When he dropped the gun I grabbed it and used it to protect us until the cops got there. Mikey and I crouched over you and held them off because they were threatening to kill you until Bob made a run for it but the cops got him on the front lawn. He wouldn't stop so they shot him and then you started screaming and everything after that is just a blur to me. The cops came in and arrested Bert and took the gun and I picked you up and carried you into the bedroom until the ambulance arrived." I feel myself shaking in terror at the knowledge that Frank could have been killed trying to save me.

Later that afternoon a doctor and a nurse come in and tell me they need to perform another exam to make sure I have no infections and that I'm healing ok. I nod my head unsure what they mean and when they ask Frank to leave the room I feel panic set it. The nurse pulls the blankets back on the bed and they ask me to bend my legs and plant my feet on the bed with my legs apart. Realisation hits that they want to touch me, there, and I can't contain the screams that rip from my throat as I thrash around trying to get their hands off me. Flashbacks run through my mind and they are no longer some random doctor and nurse standing before me, they are Bert and Bob and I am back in that living room. I keep screaming until I feel hands cup my cheeks, holding me still and a familiar voice is shushing me and telling me I'm alright. I open my eyes and come face to face with Frank and I shoot up into his arms as I sob into his neck and tell him they want to hurt me. Frank tightens his grip on me before saying "Shh babe it's ok. They won't hurt you I promise, they just need to see if you're ok. I'll stay right here if you like, you know id never let anyone hurt you." I feel myself calm down slightly and I pull back and nod slightly and Frank grips my hand tight and says "Will you let them have a look?" I slowly nod my head, tightening my grip on his hand to the point where I have to be hurting him but he doesn't show any signs of discomfort. "Ok babe just focus on me and take big deep breaths and I promise it will all be over soon." I nod and lock my gaze with his and we stare into each other's eyes as I feel the doctor grip my ankles and position my legs how he wants them before I feel his cold hands touch my inner thighs pushing them further apart and I tense up and my breathing stops. "Breathe baby" Frank croons out as he reaches up his free hand to stroke my hair comfortingly. I let out a shaky breath and try to relax again but when the doctors finger touches my hole I freeze and start to scream again. "Shh Shh babe you're ok I promise" Frank whispers to me while the doctors lubed up finger slides inside me and I can't take it anymore and I kick out, trying to get him off me, striking the nurse with my foot and the shift causes the doctors finger inside me to feel like it's tearing me apart. I scream out and start to cry again and when the doctor pulls his finger out it is covered in blood and at the sight I feel myself passing out again.

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