I awoke in my bed, confused to how i had got there.

Memories of last night came flooding back to me and i sat there thinking for a while.

Why would he do that to himself? It all added up now, at school at lunch time he'd never eat, he was stick thin and he always had chewing gum.

Then i remembered it was a Monday.

"Shit!" I got up and looked at my phone.

'10:33'. "Double shit!" I sprinted to my closet and picked out my pink skinnies with ripped knees (through wear and tear not fashion) and a grey top with a pink band logo. (A/N like the MCR band tee but not MCR because it wouldn't work)

Once dressed i ran to the kitchen to grab something to eat before heading to school where Mikey and Gerard supposedly are.

Why didn't they wake me?

Once i entered the kitchen i saw Gerard there sitting with someone i didn't know.

"Hello Helena" He said smiling at me, like nothing happened last night. That made me a tiny bit angry.

"Hi" i said confused by the fact he isn't at school either.

"This is Ray" I turned to look at the guy named Ray. He had an afro which i found extremely cool

"Hi Helena" He smiled before turning back to reading something.

I looked back at Gerard whilst Ray was occupied and gave him a look but he completely ignored it.

"Hungry?" He smiled. I looked at him angrily, how could he just be so calm. I found out he has an eating disorder and yet he is asking me about food?

I decided to ignore him as well.

"Why aren't you at school?" I said accusingly. His smiled faulted a little but he regained it so quick that i hardly noticed.

"Why aren't you at school?" At this point i noticed Ray looked up to see what was going on.

Me and Gerard were staring at each other, emotions running through each of our eyes. Mine was anger and accusation and his was like he was pleading me to drop the subject and ... regret?

"I don't know, why don't you ask yourself you are the responsible one after all" I stated whilst pulling away from his eyes to the fridge where i got a bottle of water.

"I called us both in sick, you didn't wake up like normal, slept right through your alarm."

"I wonder why" I muttered.

"I'm going to go down to the studio, this is good Gee, i'll start making riffs" Ray said suddenly making me remember he is still here.

"You don't have to go man, we can work down in the basement." Gerard said like he didn't want to be left alone with me.

He cleared his throat "No no, it looks like you two have some unresolved problem and so i'll leave you to it."

Gerard followed him out to the door.

I moved to the kitchen door as Ray was walking out so i could keep on hearing there conversation.

"Don't go man" He tried one last time.

"She looks upset dude and as her guardian you need to find out why"

Gerard was quiet and then i heard the door shut so i moved away and leaned against the counter.

Gerard walked back into the kitchen and sat back down starting to jot down stuff in his note pad.

"Maybe he's right, maybe you should find out why" I made him jump.

"Helena.."

"You know after all you are meant to be looking after me"

"Not now Helena"

I cracked. "When then? In a weeks time when i catch you shoving two fingers down your throat again?" I shouted.

He flinched at my words making him look like a lost child and it almost made me want to stop being angry, but that wasn't gonna save either him or me from this mess.

"Helena" He paused. "What happened last night, it shouldn't have, i'm your teacher. Christ i'm your legal parent, i should never had said what i did, but i was in a state. I'm sorry i truly am, i understand if you don't want to live here anymore."

He said all of that with his eyes locked on to mine. He truly regretted what happened last night.

But what was there to regret? I caught him and hugged him, maybe it was the hug?

Then it dawned on me

He liked me.

I looked at him, he'd gone back to his note pad, this time however he was staring at it intensely instead of writing.

"Gerard." He looked up. "I don't want to leave" He looked relieved. "But you said it last night, i know you meant it, i know you did. I don't care how wrong it is you like me and i like you too"

I said waiting for his reaction. This is the first time I've ever said my feelings out loud to anyone and i was scared for the reaction.

He got up and walked over to me. I thought he was going to kiss me again, oh how i'd love that. But i was wrong.

He held my arms and said flatly "I care, i'm in a position of trust and i am not going to go to jail for pedophilia. No matter how much i like you"

With that he walked off and i heard his room door shut.

I slid to the floor. Well at least he admitted to liking me I thought bitterly.

Notes

Okay so i wrote this several days ago before I got all your comments and suggestions. I will defiantly include all of your suggestions at some point (not telling you when because then you'll know what is going to happen)

I write this story on Mibba before i post on here so I'm sorry if I don't update as often as I should, i just forget :(

but thank you guys your comments make me smile so much it means a lot to meee :)

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