"What the hell does that mean?"

"It means... It means.." I mumble.

He bites his lip, and waits. Waits for my impossible response.

"We'll try to ease the pain, but some how we'll feel the same. Well no one knows where our secrets go."

"Mayoniase?.. Why?"

"I send a heart to all my dearies, when your life is so dreary. Dream."

"Frankie please an explanation" a single tear once more flows down his ivory skin.

"Gerard, I am poison. If we try this.. this thing out, I'll break your heart.."

He sniffles, and laughs a bit. "And I fail, but when I can I will try to understand. That when I can I will"

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I lightly touch the side of his pale face. He gives me a sad smile. God its so beautiful... But I have to restrain myself. I can't be seen as an actual gay. I mean, he can love me but I can't ever love him. I look back into his eyes, and I melt all over again.
Before I can stop myself, I tighten my grip on him and pull him into a.. ..kiss.
As I start to forcefully pull away, Gerard places his hands on my hips and starts to kiss back. He's less shy now... I guess it's because of the whole me taking his virginity thing. I'm so stupid.
Gerard pulls away, but keeps his hands on my hips.

"Frank, you're a mess. And you've already broken my heart. And we haven't even known each other for a month. I know you're toxic, but I'm so helpless."

"I.. don't know Gerard. I want to say no, oh god how I want to say no. But every time I look into your fucking eyes. I don't know if I wanna hug you or kill you for making me feel this way. I'm confused."

"I've never had this type of effect on anyone. At all."

I groan and reach in to kiss him again, his lips are soft and small.

"I'll be your.. -I barley whisper it-... Friend with benefits "

"Baby steps"

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No more promise no more sorrow, no longer will i follow. Can anybody hear me? I just want to be me. When can, i will try to understand. That when i can, i will.

Notes

Wrote this on a phone sorry if it has shitty mistakes
Please comment your thoughts, or if you want to select a song thats meaning can work into a chapter.
Right nowf if you are confused, Frank is reluctant against his feelings for Gerard. He doesn't want to accept his sudden stance. His love.
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Peace out fuckbois -DIO-