The Hardest Part Is Letting Go Of Your Dreams

After the excruciating pain I welcome the nothingness that follows. I cling to it like a safety blanket and when it starts to fade and lighten I try desperately to stay in the dark but all
too soon my eyes flicker open on their own, my body not listening to me and the white room is blindingly bright, the annoying beeping sounding from the monitor next to me increasing to the point where nurses and doctors rush into the room and crowd around me, telling me to calm down and I scream the only word that comes to mind "Frankie." My heart rate is causing the machine to rapidly beep and a nurse cups my face in her hands and says "Mr Way you need to calm down or you will have another attack." I hear the words but they don't mean anything to me. I breathe heavily as the pain flares up in my chest again and the monitor sets off an alarm. "Frankie" I scream before I pass out again.

I wake up panting for breath and covered in sweat, the monitor still beeping and my whole body aches. "Gee" Frank screams before launching himself on me and I groan in pain. "Oh shit I'm sorry" he says before backing off and I smile weakly clutching at his hand. "What happened?" I croak out and Frank tears up as he says "You had a seizure and I didn't know what to do and then you stopped breathing and by the time the ambulance got there I couldn't feel your pulse and I thought you were dead. You scared me so bad baby, you had a major heart attack and they almost couldn't save you. Don't ever do this to me again." I chuckle softly as I say "I'm sorry baby." I slowly shift over and let Frank crawl up with me, him gently wrapping his arms around me and I bury my face in his neck as we cuddle. I'm very tired and before I know it I fall back to sleep while Frank holds me tight. When I wake up again Frank is still holding me and gently stroking my hair. I nuzzle further into his neck and sigh in contentment and Frank starts softly singing to me, bringing a smile to my face. "Love you" I murmur out and Frank smiles and says "I love you too and when I thought I lost you I didn't know how I could live without you." "Thought id never get to tell you again" I tell him and he tightens his hold on me and I sigh again.

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