The Hardest Part Is Letting Go Of Your Dreams

Bert slowly pulls away and shakes his head and I scream out, feeling my heart shatter into a million pieces. "Gee, his pulse is so weak. I don't think he's gonna make it" Bert says but I can't listen to that as I yell at him to call an ambulance. I grab a nearby shirt and bunch it up, pressing it to his temple to try and stop the bleeding as I sob and beg Frank to open his eyes. He remains limp and unmoving in my arms and when we hear sirens in the distance Bert flees from the room, leaving me clutching onto Frank and sobbing uncontrollably. When the paramedics come in the door they have to fight me to let go of Frank and as they put him on a stretcher and examine his head his eyes flutter open for a few seconds, his gaze locking with mine before they roll back into his head and he passes out again. I follow the paramedics into the ambulance and the whole ride to the hospital I clutch onto Franks hand, like he'll disappear if I let him go. When we get to the hospital the doctor tells me I can't go with them and I lose it, screaming out and clenching my fists, taking a step towards the doctor when I am tackled to the floor by an orderly. While I'm pinned to the floor Frank is taken away from me and I lose all the fight I had in me, sobbing into the floor as my whole reason for living is taken away from me, possibly for the last time. When the orderly helps me up I am sat in a chair in the hallway and a nurse comes over and sits beside me, gently rubbing my back as she asks if she can call anyone for me. I beg her to get Mikey and give her his phone number and ten minutes later she comes back and tells me he's on his way. I nod and tuck my legs up, curling up in the chair as she promises that she will go check on Frank for me and let me know if he's ok before she walks off through the doors that separate me from where they took him. About fifteen minutes later she comes back and says "They stopped the bleeding hun and he looks like he'll be ok. The doctor is just finishing up with him now and he was awake for a few minutes and asking for you so as soon as they're done someone will come for you." I smile in thanks and she reaches out and strokes my hair before pulling away and walking off down the hall. Five minutes later another nurse comes and stands infront of me before saying "Gerard?" I nod and she smiles and says "Your boyfriend is in his own room now sweetie. If you'd like to come with me..." "Fiancé" I say, cutting her off and she smiles and apologises before I stand up and follow her down the hall, through the doors and into a room with an observation window. Frank is laying in the bed with his eyes closed, looking terrifyingly frail with no colour in his face and when I look back at the nurse she says "He'll be perfectly fine I promise sweetie. He just needs some time to rest" before leaving the room, closing the door behind her. I cautiously walk over to the bed and sit in the chair next to it, grabbing Franks hand and feeling how freezing it is. I stand up and take off my jacket that I put on before leaving the motel, laying it out over the top of his body and the movement causes him to stir and open his eyes. "Baby" I choke out as tears start to fall again and he whispers out "Don't cry babe." I lean over and wrap my arms around him gently before pulling away and going to sit down again but he grabs my arm and stops me, motioning for me to get on the bed with him. He shuffles over and I climb up, settling beside him and he snuggles closer looking for warmth. I wrap my arm around him and try my best to warm him up, willing to do whatever I can for him. "I love you so much, I thought I lost you. Don't ever scare me like that again." Frank cracks a small smile as he says "Sorry baby." I smile back and relax back onto the bed, pulling Frank tighter against me as we both drift to sleep.

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