The Hardest Part Is Letting Go Of Your Dreams

"He's fucking done Gerard. I'll make sure he gets locked up for good now" Bert spits out at me and I burst into tears as I plead with him again not to tell anyone what happened. "I love him, please. We'll move away if you want just please, don't take him away from me." Bert shakes his head and says "No. It's done Gerard. I can finally have you back all to myself and you won't get hurt anymore. What's to say he won't kill you next time?" "I would never intentionally hurt him" I hear Frank snap and when I turn around he is standing in the doorway fully dressed and looking terrified. "I know baby" I tell him as I stand back up and cross the room to him. He wraps his arms around me and tells me not to cry as I bury my face in his neck before he turns his attention to Bert and says "You report me and I'll tell the cops you raped Gerard. Won't be hard to convince them, you were fucking him bareback so a rape test will prove your DNA is in him and have you seen how much he was bleeding? If I go down you sick fuck you're going down too." I tense up at the mention of blood and when I look back around I can see the trail of blood on the bench from where I slid across it and the back of my legs feel sticky and uncomfortable. "I'm bleeding" I choke out and Frank cups my cheeks saying "Shh you'll be ok babe. Just calm down." Bert pulls himself off the floor and I say "We need to get you to the hospital Bert. You need stitches." Bert nods and says "He needs to stay the fuck away from me." I nod and step away from Frank and towards Bert and I say "I'll take you. Frank will stay here." Frank starts to protest but I shoot him a look to stop and he shuts up immediately. I help Bert back into his jeans and we decide to leave him shirtless as I go into the bedroom and pull my own clothes on and we leave the house, getting in my car and driving to the hospital.
When I help Bert out of the car he stops me and says "Gee I love you." "I love you too babe" I say as I lean in and press my lips to his. "Please don't take away my other half" I plead as we pull away and he reaches up his non injured arm to gently stroke his fingers down my cheek. I take his hand in mine and link our fingers as we walk into the hospital and then we are bombarded with nurses and doctors and they try to take Bert away but I protest and refuse to let go of his hand. Bert squeezes harder and says "Please doctor let my boyfriend come with me" and the doctor sighs before leading us both into an exam room where he examines the wound before cleaning it up and stitching it shut. "Please wait here I'll be back in a moment" the doctor says and ten minutes later when he comes back he has two police officers with him. My breath catches in my throat when I see them and Bert reaches out and squeezes my hand again as they ask him what happened. Bert hesitates for a second and when he opens his mouth I fear that my life is about to end and that Frank is going to be taken from me. "I got jumped on my walk home from work, these punk kids dragged me into an alley and one of them pulled a knife and as I was getting out my wallet he thought I was taking too long and stabbed me. Once they got what they wanted they took off and I ran home and my boyfriend tried to help and then brought me here." The police officers look over at me warily for a moment before one of them steps over and says "Are you ok sir?" And I feel the room start to spin right before I hit the floor.

When I wake up again I am in a hospital bed and Bert is in a chair beside me. When he sees I'm awake he smiles and stands up, leaning over and pressing a kiss to my lips. When we break apart he strokes my hair and says "Babe you frightened the fuck out of me." I smile apologetically before saying "Sorry. So what happened?" "Well after you passed out they asked a few more questions, I made up a description of the kids and then they left." I nod and launch myself off the bed, wrapping my arms around him as I say "Thank you thank you thank you." He pulls back and cups my cheek with one hand and says "I love you. I would never do anything that I knew would really hurt you and I'm sorry for before, I got carried away in the moment and I really do regret it." "I forgive you" I tell him before leaning in and sealing our lips together. When we pull apart again Bert says "We can go now babe" and I ease myself off the bed, taking his hand in mine and we go back to the car.
When we get home I take Bert into his room and settle him in bed, giving him some of the pain killers the doctor gave him and pulling off his pants before pulling the blanket over him and pressing soft kisses to his forehead. When I leave the room I go into the bedroom and Frank isn't there. I turn and walk back towards the kitchen, checking the living room and seeing he's not there and when I get to the kitchen it's been cleaned up and there's a note on the bench with my name on it. 'Gee, I love you so much and I know I have fucked up beyond repair this time. I'll be staying at Mikey's for a few days until my next session and I am going to have myself recommited so I can't hurt you any longer. Love Frank' I drop the note to the floor and run to the door, grabbing my keys on the way out and driving towards Mikey's, tears streaming down my face at the thought of losing Frank from my life.

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