The Hardest Part Is Letting Go Of Your Dreams

Over the next few days I look for new apartments in the paper and Frank starts acting stranger and stranger, like he's hiding something from me. I decide to confront him about it but he tells me it must just be the stress I'm under because he's not acting different. I decide he's probably right and forget the whole thing. I have been having terrible nightmares every night and not getting much sleep so Frank takes the day off to watch Ruby while I rest. I am laying in bed on the verge of sleep when I hear Franks voice drifting through the door, "Is it all set? Yeah I tracked him down and he's gonna fucking pay, just make sure your guys are there..." Before I drift off finally falling into a dreamless sleep. When I wake up Frank and Ruby are layed out on the couch together watching tv and when Frank spots me he smiles warmly at me and pulls himself off the couch, crossing the room and wrapping me in his arms. "Hey gorgeous. How are you feeling now?" I smile and nuzzle into his neck as I say "Better. What's that delicious smell?" Frank smiles and says "Ruby and I made lasagna, it's in the oven." I smile back and say "I love lasagna" and Frank nods saying "I know baby I just wanted to do something to help you feel better." I lean in and give him a kiss as Ruby chants out "Eww" from the couch, her hand covering her eyes and I pull away and laugh for the first time in days. After dinner Frank tells me about a party some of the guys from his work are having and I smile and tell him to go and have fun. He smiles wide and kisses my cheek before getting ready and leaving. FRANKS POV I feel terrible lying to Gee but if this goes badly I would never want to risk him getting in trouble too so the less he knows the better, and if he did know where I was really going he wouldn't let me go but Bert deserves everything coming to him and I plan to make him pay. The last week since we got back from Mikey's I have spent a large chunk of my savings paying someone to track down that piece of shit and the coked out whore of a woman and I finally know where they are. Matt has some very powerful gang connections and when I approached him with my plan he was more than happy to help. I meet up with the guys and get in their car, travelling across the city to the very shady neighbourhood they live in. I climb out of the car and the guys go down into the alley beside the building we are at and I lean against the front, knowing Bert's not home from work just yet but it won't be long. I lean against the building smoking a cigarette and waiting when I hear footsteps, turning my head and seeing him approaching, not paying attention to where he's going. I clear my throat and he looks up, freezing before his face turns into a foul smirk. "Hey Frankie, how's it going?" He spits at me and I take a step towards him. "Oh you know, pretty good, got a daughter with Gee now." "Oh that's fucking fabulous" he snaps and I smile wide as I say "Yeah it was, until some low life piece of shit broke into my apartment and stabbed him in an attempt to kidnap her. But you wouldn't know anything about that would you?" Bert smirks as he says "That's awful Frankie, can't imagine why anyone would do that." I shake my head, having had enough of this shit and I lunge at him, throwing my fist into his face, catching him off guard. He groans, stumbling back a few steps before charging forward and swinging at me while I back up, making it seem like I'm afraid but really luring him into the alley. Once we're in my guys jump out and grab him, holding him in place while I let my rage take over and I pound my fist into his face over and over again. "You fucking sick fuck, you almost killed my husband twice now and I'm not letting you get away with it again. If I ever see you or your coked out girlfriend near my family again I will kill the both of you, you fucking hear me?" I scream at him as I continue to bash him. He lets out a low whine and I nod to the guys, ceasing my hits and they let him go, Bert dropping to the ground. I kneel down next to him and grip a fistful of his hair, pulling his head up so he's looking at me. "So let this be a warning Bert, you fuck with my family again and I will end you, but speaking of fucking there has always been one thing I wanted to do to you for a long fucking time now and I think you've really really earned it, I think you deserve to know what it feels like." I drop his head, slamming it into the pavement a little as I walk around and grip his pants, yanking them down and at this point he attempts to get away but my guys are on it, standing over him and pinning him down. I grab the gun from my back pocket and line it up, shoving it inside him with no warning, causing him to scream out in agony but I don't care, consumed by the need to avenge the only person in my life who's ever mattered to me, twisting the gun as I pull it out before shoving it back in. Bert screams again and one of the guys kicks him in the face, silencing his screams and when I pull the gun from him again I stand and walk around him, crouching beside his face to see he's still conscious. "Open wide baby" I tell him before gripping his chin and pulling his face up at an awkward angle, sliding the gun into his mouth and fucking his mouth with it for a few seconds. "You touch my family again and I'll kill you" I remind him as I throw his head back onto the ground and we stand and walk to the edge of the alley, two of the guys going first, scanning for witnesses on the darkened street before signalling for the rest of us. We all climb into the car and leave. When I get home the apartment is silent and only the kitchen light is on so I tiptoe through, checking on Ruby before silently walking to the bedroom door and peeking in, seeing my reason for life laying on his side, softly whimpering in his sleep before he rolls over and goes silent. I sneak back out and into the bathroom, stripping off my clothes and shoving them in the bottom of the hamper, climbing into the shower and washing the small traces of blood off me before climbing out and drying off, pulling on pyjama pants and going back into the bedroom, finding Gee having a nightmare again. I feel my heart crack, wishing I could take all the pain away from him, as I wrap my arms around him, pulling him into my chest and gently shushing him, waking him up slowly.

Notes

@ThanksForTheCoffee and @GeesGirl! I apologise for the lack of rabid unicorns...I tried but it just didn't fit somehow : )