The Hardest Part Is Letting Go Of Your Dreams

We pull apart gasping for air and Frank cups my face in his hands, staring into my eyes. "Come home baby" he whispers and I swallow hard before saying "I don't think I'm ready just yet, we need to work on this a little." He hangs his head, staring at the floor before looking back up into my eyes and says "I miss you so bad baby, it's not even a home anymore, nothing there makes me happy." I sigh before saying "I need time Frankie but we'll get there I promise." At my words he smiles and says "Ok, I can be patient." I smile back and lean in to kiss him again. When we pull apart I say "Well we better get back to the party" and he nods. We fix up the party food I have made on trays and take it in to the living room, sitting it on the table and Ruby's eyes light up when she sees her new favourite treat. "Yay daddy" she squeals as she grabs a piece of fairy bread and I smile at her as she starts to eat. Everyone picks at the food and Frank and I sit on the couch together, his arm wrapped around my waist keeping me squashed against his side. We look around the room before catching each other's glances and we smile at each other, Frank leaning in and kissing me. I kiss back before pulling away, not wanting to do this infront of everyone and when I look back around the room Mikey looks concerned and William looks the definition of pure rage. The smile quickly drops from my face and I excuse myself to go to the kitchen for a drink. Just as I reach into the fridge with a shaky hand for a bottle of water Williams voice hisses out "So you're back together now? How fucking stupid can you be Gee? How long until you call me in tears begging for my help again cause he beat and raped you?" I shake my head and say "We're working on things, it's not like I'm moving back in with him yet." "Yeah give it a day Gee, he's got your head so fucking twisted..." "Just shut up William, you're meant to be my friend, what's your problem?" I ask cutting him off. "I love you you fucking idiot. How can you not see it?" "So you only helped me to try and get in my pants again?" I snap and his face pales. "No Gee of course not, I fucking love you, I care about you so much and to be honest I love Ruby too, she's like a daughter to me and that's how it should have been baby, it should have been you and me and her, a happy family. I want to spend the rest of my life with you so badly it hurts and it fucking kills me to know someone who doesn't deserve you, isn't fucking worthy of you, gets what I want so badly and he doesn't even know how lucky he is. I would never hurt you Gee, your smile is too insanely beautiful to ever take away." "I do know how lucky I am to have him and I agree, I don't deserve him with all the shitty things I've done but I love him and if he's willing to be with me then I'm not letting him go" Frank says, startling us both as he comes into the room. "William I get how you feel but he's my husband and I'm not letting him go without one hell of a fight." I shake my head, "Stop ok, I made my decision and I'm sorry not everyone wins but fuck, can't I just have what I want and be happy for a change? And everyone can be happy for me and support me and I don't have to feel like shit all the time knowing I'm hurting someone else by being happy. If you're truly my friend William you'll respect my decision and be happy for me." William hangs his head before looking up into my eyes again as he chokes out "I'm sorry but it's too hard" tears falling down his cheeks. He leans in and kisses my cheek before turning and leaving the room, going back into the living room and grabbing his jacket, giving Ruby a kiss and cuddle and wishing her happy birthday before leaving the apartment. I stand there in shock having just lost my best friend and I feel my own eyes prick with tears. "Shh babe it's ok" Frank says softly, cupping my face in his hands and staring into my eyes. I nod slightly before stepping back and wiping my eyes. "Ok we have a party to get back to."

Later that night after Mikey and Kristin have gone back to their hotel and Ruby is winding down from all the sugar she's eaten today the three of us cuddle up on the couch and watch Finding Nemo which has fast become her favourite movie. Halfway through Ruby falls asleep in Franks lap and he holds her close for a few minutes before getting up and taking her to her room. When he comes back I am layed out on the couch, stretching myself out and he says "Where am I gonna sit now?" I shoot him a cheeky smile as I say "The floor looks comfy," poking my tongue out at him. He shakes his head, smiling wide before flopping down onto me, laying ontop of me and nuzzling his head into my neck. "Mmm this is comfy" he groans out and I try to shove him off. Frank digs his fingers into my sides and it turns into a war of trying to push the other off the couch, me shoving and Frank tickling me and making me laugh and squirm. We both get too close to the edge and suddenly we are falling, both of us hitting the floor and I laugh before rolling us over and tickling Frank aswell. We roll around on the living room floor, trying to gain the upper hand before Frank pins me down on my back and dives in, sealing his lips over mine. I immediately kiss back, the stupid play fight forgotten and my hands slide up to tangle in his hair. Things turn heated and once both our shirts are removed Franks hands go for my belt. "Uh Frankie I don't know" I stutter out, panting for breath. His eyes widen and he pulls back immediately. "Fuck sorry baby I didn't even think about it, of course, whatever you want I won't rush you." He starts to climb off me but I grip his hips, stopping him and he looks down at me confused. "Kiss me" I demand and he smiles again and leans down, pressing our bare chests together as his tongue slides into my mouth. We spend what feels like hours laying shirtless on the living room floor just kissing, our hands gently trailing over each other's naked chests and backs. After a while I let out a yawn into his mouth and Frank chuckles and says "Come on" standing up and dragging me off the floor before grabbing my around the thighs and throwing me over his shoulder, carrying me to the bedroom. Once we get there he lays me on the bed and I sit up, working on getting my jeans off before pulling them off, leaving me in just my boxers. I climb under the blankets and wait for Frank, watching him take his jeans off too and climb in next to me. I reach out and grab his hand, linking our fingers as I lay on my side facing him, just staring at him and his red kiss swollen lips until I fall asleep.

Notes

Wow so chapter 100. When I first started writing this fic I didn't think anyone would like it so I never even thought I would get to chapter 10 let alone 100 and when I first started the "sequel" introducing Ruby and decided to just post it here as one story I thought I would end it at chapter 100 if it even made it this far but I think I have quite a bit more to tell so if you guys are still happy to read I will still write. To everyone who has been reading this from the start and to everyone who joined me part way through and are still reading now, thanks for giving me a chance and thanks for all the comments.
Special thanks to @elyMCR, @GeesGirl!, @One_Of_The_Fabulous_Killjoys, @aslee way and @Magical flying unicrorn for all the comments and support you have given me the whole way through this especially when I doubted myself so much and to everyone else who has taken time from their day to comment, thank you, these comments mean more to me than you would think, so keep them coming : )