You Only Hear The Music When Your Heart Begins To Break

I wake up with a smile on my face. I slept with Gerard and it was perfect. I open my eyes and come face to face with him. Our faces are only an inch apart and he's staring into my eyes smiling back at me. "Hey beautiful" he greets me as his hand comes up to stroke my hair back from my face. I feel a little cold being still naked so I snuggle closer to him and steal his body heat. Gerard wraps his arms around me and plants kisses in my hair. My nose skims his neck as I take in his scent, 'he smells so good' I think to myself. After cuddling for a few minutes I pull back from him and leave the bed to get dressed again. He does the same as I wander over to the mirror in his room to make sure I look ok. I glance over at the clock and see it is 7pm and realise we slept most of the afternoon away. "I think I better get home before Trick freaks out again." I tell Gerard and he looks a little disappointed. "Ok then. I'll walk you home" he says as he takes my hand and we start up the stairs to leave the basement.
When we get back to my house Gerard pulls me close and presses a sweet kiss to my lips. "I'll miss you" he whispers in my ear before he pulls away. "I'll miss you too, come over tomorrow" I tell him before we part and he starts back towards his house. I let myself in and immediately hear lots of talking and laughing coming from the living room. I walk to the doorway and see Trick surrounded by five other guys that I don't know. There are pizza boxes and beer bottles everywhere and some of the guys are smoking, the place is a mess. I cough after inhaling the cigarette smoke drawing attention to myself. All six of them look over at me and Trick gets up and stumbles over to me. "Hey Z. These are some of the guys from work. This is Brendon, William, Ryan, Gabe and Ray." He points at each one as he says their names. "Guys this is my sister, Z." I wave at all of them and turn to leave the room when I run straight into someone coming into the room behind me. I step back and start to apologise when I look up at his face and see it is the jock I punched my first day of school. "Z, this is Frank. I think he goes to your school. He just started at the store." Trick tells me and I am lost for words. Frank breaks out into a huge grin and says "Nice to meet you. I don't think we've met yet" and holds out his hand for me to shake. I shake it and excuse myself from the room and make my way upstairs to my bedroom. I gather clothes and go into my bathroom to shower.
After my shower I lay on my bed and think about Frank being in my house. After that first day where he threatened me he has done nothing but him being here makes me very uneasy. The noise from downstairs gets louder as the night goes on. I figure it's in relation to how drunk they all are. I can hear they are having a Guitar Hero battle and as much as I would love to sleep I know it won't come to me with that amount of noise. I turn the main light off and watch tv with my lamp on low. I think I hear my door open on the other side of the room but with the noise downstairs and the low light from the lamp I can't be sure until a moment later when it opens fully and Frank walks into my room closing and locking the door. I sit up and go to yell out for Trick feeling terrified but Frank leaps onto the bed and sticks his hand over my mouth. "Well well what do we have here" he chuckles softly. "I told you I would get you back." My eyes widen and I wonder what he plans to do to me. His free hand pushes me hard so I fall back into the bed. He moves to straddle me and pin me down, stopping my efforts of struggling. "You think its fun to hit me in the dick. Well now you're gonna make nice with it and kiss it better" he tells me as his free hand starts to unzip his fly. I trash around trying to free one of my arms to defend myself but he's got too strong a hold on me. I move my face slightly and his hand slips on my mouth so I bite at it to try and get it off me so I can scream for Trick but before I can breathe in to make a noise he backhands me across the face, snapping my head harshly to the side. I immediately feel the blood oozing from my lip running down my face. "You fucking bitch" he hisses at me as his fist connects with the side of my face and I can tell I'm going to have one hell of a black eye tomorrow. Tears stream down my face as he roughly grabs my jaw and turns my head back toward him and his other hand guides his hard dick to my lips. He starts rubbing the head of his dick over my lips leaving a trail of precum all over them while he tells me "Keep quiet or I will hurt you twice as bad. If you bite me I will kill you." He then proceeds to forcefully shove his dick into my mouth and begins thrusting in and out. I cry and gag the whole time he's violating my mouth. "Oh you're so good at his baby, you have the perfect little whore mouth. Knew you'd be great at this from the moment I saw you, more than just a hot piece of ass" he moans out as he gets close to his orgasm. Without warning he cums in my mouth and I try to move my head away to stop him but he grabs my head and holds me still, making me take it. "Remember, you tell anyone about this I'll kill you" he says as he climbs off me and does up his pants. I lean over the side of the bed and immediately empty the contents of my mouth and stomach all over the floor inbetween violent sobs. I curl into a ball on my bed and weep for what seems like hours after he leaves the room. I can still hear the drunken party going on downstairs. Without thinking I drag myself out of bed and towards my closet. I dig in the bottom and pull out my razor blades that I've kept hidden. I pull my pants down and begin slicing into my legs while I sob. I pull my pants back up after making three new cuts on each leg and walk to the window. I climb down the trellis and start walking to Gerard's without worrying about the fact that I have no shoes on or that I'm covered in blood and vomit.
When I reach Gerard's I'm still crying and my lip is still bleeding. 'If I'm lucky I'll bleed to death' I think as I drop to my knees infront of the basement window. The light is still on and when I tap both Gerard and Mikey come into view. Upon seeing me they both run toward the stairs to come outside to me. I collapse back onto the grass and sob violently again. Gerard comes into view looking terrified and kneels beside me. "Z oh my god what happened" he asks as he scoops me up into his arms and carries me inside. Once inside he takes me into the dining room and lays me on the table infront of Donna. "I'm a nurse honey I need you to tell me what happened, where are you hurt?" I can't bring myself to answer her because then I'll have to admit to it. I sit up clutching my stomach as a second wave of nausea hits and Mikey runs from the room and comes back with a bucket which I empty my stomach into for a second time. My head starts to spin and I slump forward, Gerard's concerned face being the last thing I see before the darkness overtakes me and I pass out.

Notes

Sorry if I upset/offended anyone with this chapter