You Only Hear The Music When Your Heart Begins To Break

We reach Gerard's house and go inside to find Mikey in the living room watching cartoons. "Hey Mikes, wanna play some games?" Gerard asks and Mikey smiles wide as he nods and moves off the couch to set up the game. I don't feel like playing at first so I just sit back and watch the boys fight each other in Tekken and then begin to get distracted by shoving each other in real life and laughing before the game is forgotten completely and they are wrestling on the floor. Watching this just makes me smile wide. The boys eventually break apart when the laughter overtakes them. After a few minutes Gerard gets up off the floor and takes my hand, leading me into the kitchen to get a drink. His mother, Donna, is in there and when she sees me she smiles and asks how I am. "Fine thanks" I respond before she turns to Gerard and says "I hope you boys didn't break anything in the living room."
"No it's fine ma" Gerard responds before handing me a glass of water. We finish our drinks and Donna tells us she is taking Mikey shopping and they'll be back later. "That's fine, we're just gonna watch a movie" Gerard tells her before taking my hand again and leading me from the kitchen towards the door to his room. "Have a good time" Donna calls after us.

Down in his room Gerard asks me to pick a movie. "I don't mind what we watch, you pick" I tell him as I make my way over to his bed and lay down. He puts on the first Nightmare on Elm Street movie and climbs over me to lay behind me and we start to watch the movie. He wraps his arm around my waist and pulls me back against him so my back is pressed against his chest. I smile at the safe and calm feeling that washes over me from the closeness we now share. After a few minutes I shift slightly to look back at him and he immediately attaches his lips to mine. I move around so I am now facing him and continue to kiss him. We kiss for a few minutes before I feel his hand on my hip, slowly sliding up my side under my shirt. I flinch slightly as his fingers tickle my side but relax into his touch. He leans over so I move onto my back and he climbs on top of me and his hand continues its path up under my shirt. The other grips my hip and stays there. We break apart momentarily for air before Gerard moves his mouth from my mouth trailing light kisses down my jaw continuing down my neck. As he makes his way back up my neck his hands grip the bottom of my shirt and slowly start pulling it up. He pulls away for air again and gives me a look to ask if its ok. I nod slightly and sit up a little so he can slide my shirt off. Once it's off I lay back down and his eyes drift down my body before his mouth reattaches to mine. "So beautiful" he murmurs against my lips as his hands continue to explore my body and I melt into his touch. I slide my hands down and grip the bottom of his shirt and pull it up and off him. I run my hands up and down his back when I feel his hands stop at the top of my jeans for a moment before he undoes the button and unzips them. I tense up momentarily and Gerard notices straight away. He pulls back and removes his hands from my jeans. "Is everything ok" he asks looking worried, like he's pushed it too far. I smile to reassure him he didn't and sit up slightly. "I have something to tell you before we go any further. I have a problem with self harm. After my mom died I tried to kill myself. I have ugly scars on my thighs and I understand if you don't want to do this anymore." I look into his eyes and he kisses me again before telling me "No part of you could ever be ugly" before reattaching his lips to mine and lowering me onto the bed again. I feel his hands slowly slide back down my sides to the top of my jeans where he begins to push them down and off me. I cringe inside at what his reaction will be now that he can see them. He sits back staring at my legs for a second before he lowers his face down and starts gently kissing over my scars. "Beautiful, all of you is beautiful" I hear him murmur against the skin as he kisses. Shivers run up my spine from the kisses he's planting on my legs that is getting closer and closer to my panties. He slowly brings his hands to the top of my panties and pauses for a second while we make eye contact, giving me the opportunity to back out. I meet his gaze evenly and he continues to slide them down my legs and discards them on the floor. He kneels between my parted legs and continues to plant kisses up my thighs until the reaches the top and very slowly runs the end of his tongue over my clit. I moan and fist my hands in the sheets. He smiles to himself and then continues to rub his tongue around my vagina focusing on my clit. I continue to moan loudly, glad we are alone in the house. I feel one of his fingers slowly join his tongue and he gently rubs me to wet his finger before slowly sliding it inside. He slides it in and out slowly a few times before picking up the pace when I show no signs of discomfort. He starts to kiss his way back up my body while his finger still works its way in and out of me. He attaches his lips to my neck and starts to suck and nibble gently at the skin. I moan and reach down to undo his pants. He gently pulls his finger from me and sits back so I can remove his pants. Once I slide his pants and boxers down I wrap my fingers around his throbbing erection and give it a few strokes feeling it warm and heavy in my hand. "Do you have any condoms" I whisper into his ear as I continue to stroke him. "Yeah just a second" he replies before sliding to the side of the bed and rummaging around in his draw. He comes back with a condom and he opens it and slides it on. I kneel up on the bed and climb to the head of the bed and he follows me. I sit him so his back is against the bed head and climb over to straddle his lap. I reach down to grab his dick as I slowly start to lower myself onto it. When he's in all the way we both let out a light moan and I slowly begin to slide up and down on his dick and attach his lips to mine. He grips my hips tightly and starts to thrust up meeting me as I slide down onto him. We moan into each other's mouths occasionally breaking the kiss to breathe but never move apart, our noses still brushing and panting into each other's mouths. I feel his dick start to twitch and pulse inside me and I know he is close. I feel a low tingling feeling in my lower stomach and thighs right before Gerard groans signalling him coming into the condom. The feeling of the pulsing in his dick tips me over the edge and I feel overwhelming pleasure spread throughout my entire body. I moan loudly and slump down into his chest while he holds me tight. After a few minutes we pull apart and I slide up and off his dick and move away so he can get up. He moves off the bed to discard the condom before coming back over and pulling me under the covers on the bed and holding me tight to his chest. We lay chest to chest sharing light soft kisses until we fall asleep in each other's arms.

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