You Only Hear The Music When Your Heart Begins To Break

The next morning I wake up and Gerard is sitting on the floor infront of the couch stroking my hair back off my face and watching me sleep. I open my eyes to look at him and he looks really upset and I want to tell him to get away from me but I just don't have the energy to fight anymore so I slump back into the couch and sigh in defeat. He continues to card his fingers through my hair as he tells me he loves me. I close my eyes again and push my head into his touch and we stay like that in comfortable silence for a few minutes.
When I get up Gerard tells me to get in the shower and he'll make me some breakfast. When I come out there is a plate of waffles and fresh strawberries on the table and I smile to myself as I sit down to eat. Gerard sits beside me and strokes my back the whole time I eat and when I'm finished I turn and plant a kiss on his lips. I am so deeply hurt by what he's done but I can't deny that I love him and I don't think I can live without him. "Please stop doing this to me" I plead when we pull apart and he looks so sad as he says "Baby I am so sorry and I never wanted to hurt you. I love you so much and I know how lucky I am to have you in my life and I promise I'll never do anything to cause you sadness ever again." I lean over and nuzzle my face into his neck as he wraps his arms around me. "Go get dressed baby and then we'll head to your doctors appointment" he tells me and I nod and stand, walking into the bedroom.

At the doctors office we go in and the doctor takes my blood pressure, weight and height. Then he asks questions about any medication I'm on and pre existing medical conditions and I tell him about my depression and what medication I take. He nods and says I will be fine to continue taking them and that my vitals look really good. He then performs another ultrasound and Gerard grips my hand so tight when he gets to see it for himself as a few tears slip down his face. "This is incredible" he whispers and when we make eye contact we smile the widest we have in a while.
After the appointment the doctor organises when he would like to do another checkup and we leave hand in hand. As we walk down the street we are blissful and start discussing if we hope for a boy or girl and then moving onto names we like. I am the happiest I've felt since learning I am pregnant and Gerard tells me I look so beautiful when I smile.
When we get home I lay down on the bed while Gerard tidies the kitchen. When he comes into the bedroom he sits at the end of the bed and picks up one of my sock covered feet, resting it in his lap before starting to gently rub it. "Mmm that feels really good baby" I tell him and he continues for a few minutes before moving onto the other one. When he's done he gently starts kissing up my legs starting at my ankles and when he reaches the bottom of my skirt he gently pushes it up and continues his path before licking at my panties making them even more wet. I shift my hips so he can pull them down and he immediately attaches his mouth to my vagina, licking and kissing causing me to writhe in pleasure. He continues for a few minutes before slipping a finger inside me and slowly twirling it around inside me causing me to buck my hips increasing the pressure of his mouth on me until he pushes them down with his free hand, pinning me to the bed. A low tingling starts in my lower stomach and before I know it I am screaming Gerard's name as I have the most intense orgasm I've had in a while. After Gerard climbs up my body and presses soft kisses to my lips I reach out for his dick which is straining against his pants but he grabs my hand and tells me that this was just for me and not to worry about him. "But baby I don't want to leave you like that" I tell him and he tells me he can take care of himself. "Can I watch" I ask and he blushes slightly before saying yes and unzipping his pants, freeing his hard leaking dick from it's confines. He starts to stroke himself and before long he lets out a small groan of pleasure. I can see a bead of precum leaking from the head and I can't help myself as I lunge forward and attach my lips to the head of his dick suckling softly as I lap up the precum moaning at the taste. I slide my way down and back up sucking hard and swirling my tongue around before sliding down again and taking him all the way in sucking for a few seconds before pulling off and sitting back looking up at him and see that his pupils are blown with arousal. "God you look so good when you suck my dick with your lips all swollen and wet like that" he groans out and I smile before sliding back onto his dick and suck hard and fast reducing him to a moaning mess above me before I feel the telltale sign of his dick twitching against my tongue before he cums hard as I take him into my throat again swallowing it all down. When I pull off again I lay back and catch my breath as Gerard does the same, pulling his pants up and snuggling into my side.

A few weeks go by and mine and Gerard's relationship is back on track and stronger than ever. Trick and William are coming to stay for a few days and I am so excited to see them. I have started to show a little and every morning before we get up Gerard rubs my small bump and lays soft kisses all over it while having secret whispered conversations with the baby. When Trick and William arrive they pull me into a big group hug before stepping back and looking at my bump. "Wow this is amazing" William exclaims as he rubs his hand over it.
We spend the afternoon catching up and when Gerard gets home from his classes we get ready and go out to dinner.

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