You Only Hear The Music When Your Heart Begins To Break

The day after the wedding we head back to the city. Before we leave Gerard and I take Trick, William, Mikey and Donna out for breakfast. Once we are all at the diner we tell them the news. All of them look shocked before they erupt into congratulations and Trick pulls me close, crushing me in a giant hug. After they all settle down we order and while we wait for the food to come I ask Gerard for the photo. Ever since I gave it to him last night he has looked at it a million times and refused to give it back. He pulls it out of his wallet and I pass it around the table.
After we eat it is time for us to go home and Trick and William
to leave on their honeymoon. We have the slowest, most lingering goodbye ever and both Trick and William tell Gerard that he better look after me. When we finally break away from each other we set off.

When we get home I am exhausted and Gerard kisses my forehead and tells me to take a nap. I go into the bedroom and lay down but find that I can't get comfortable and I feel lonely being in there alone. I grab my pillow and head back into the living room to find Gerard in the corner of the room, standing infront of the easel holding his latest work for school. I try to stay quiet as I walk in and lay on the couch so I don't break his concentration. Once I'm comfortable he turns his head and looks at me smiling before saying "I missed you in the last ten seconds" before poking his tongue out at me. I poke mine out in return before he turns back to his work and picks up a paintbrush and I watch him paint until my eyelids are too heavy to hold up anymore and I fall asleep.
When I wake up I'm still on the couch and there is a blanket over me. I snuggle under it and smile at how caring and thoughtful Gerard can be. I can smell something mouthwatering being cooked in the kitchen and I slowly stand up and make my way to the doorway. Gerard is in the kitchen wearing an apron and it looks like a bomb went off. There are dirty dishes and bits of food everywhere and he looks frantic which makes me giggle. The sound makes his head snap up in my direction and I see he has what looks like pasta sauce smeared across his cheek which makes me giggle even more. "What's so funny" he asks as he pokes his tongue out at me and I shake my head and say "Nothing."
"I thought I would make you dinner. I called my mom for the recipe" he tells me and I smile wide and tell him it smells great. When dinner is ready he brings it to the table and I see a delicious looking lasagne in the pan. He dishes us out some before sitting down across from me. I take the first bite and moan quietly while I chew it. "This is really good baby" I tell him once I've swallowed it and he beams at me before saying "I'm glad you like it. It's intimidating cooking for a chef" causing me to laugh and kick him playfully. We finish the meal making small talk before tidying the kitchen and making our way to the bedroom where we lay in bed and watch a movie.
The next morning I go back to work and tell Shaun I'm pregnant. He congratulates me and I ask him not to tell anyone else as I don't want to be treated differently. He agrees and I leave the office to head into the kitchen when I'm stopped by Zack. Things have been awkward between us since the night we had the threesome and I tell him I need to get to work when he says "I heard what you told Shaun." I stop walking and look at him, furious that he was eavesdropping on me. "What business is it of yours?" I snap and he smirks at me and says "Well we fucked so it could be mine for all I know." I feel the anger bubbling inside me and I tell him that there is no way in hell it's his and I know that for a fact because I'm too far along for that. His smirk spreads wider before he says "So you fucked me when you were pregnant with another guys baby, classy."
"Fuck you Zack what is your problem?" I yell feeling closer and closer to tears. "My problem is that I'm fucking in love with you and you lead me on for weeks and then as soon as we got close you pushed me out of your life. I am so much better for you than Gerard and deep down you know it too. I've seen the way you come in here sometimes, so fucking depressed and angry, I would never make you feel that way EVER" he tells me his voice raising until he is yelling at me. My breath hitches and I run for the bathroom before he can see me cry.
Once I calm down I go back out and into the kitchen washing my hands and getting straight into my prep wanting to distract
myself from all the thoughts racing around in my head.
After work I sneak out the back door to avoid Zack. Gerard is at school so as I turn the corner out of the alleyway onto the street I am shocked to see him standing there talking to Zack. I stop walking for a second before taking a deep breath and walking towards them. When I reach them Gerard tells me Zack is coming over to hang out and my heart sinks, just wanting to be away from him after our conversation earlier.

Once we're home I walk into the bedroom and close the door. I'm halfway through changing out of my dirty clothes when I hear a knock at the door and I call out that it's ok to come in. I turn around, in my underwear, expecting to see Gerard but it is Zack coming into the room closing the door behind him. "What are you doing in here? Where is Gerard?" I demand pulling the comforter off the bed and wrapping it around myself. "He's in the bathroom" he tells me before marching across the room and grabbing my face in his hands forcing his lips into mine. I bring my hands up and push against his chest to get him off me as I hiss out "What the fuck are you doing?" Before he steps towards me again and leans in for another kiss. I turn my head away so he attaches his lips to my neck starting to suck when I start to cry and scream for Gerard. Zack pushes me down onto the bed and starts to climb over me when Gerard comes running into the room and immediately marches over to us grabbing Zack and pulling him off me. He takes a quick glance at me and seeing the state I'm in immediately figures out what was happening. The next few seconds are a blur as Gerard turns around and grabs Zacks shirt with one hand while pulling the other back in a fist and driving it into Zacks face. I hear the sickening crack his jaw makes and the next thing I know they are laying into each other. I sit on the bed trying to collect myself before I get off the bed to get between the two of them, trying to break up the fight. They break apart before Zack takes one last swing at Gerard but I turn at the last second and his fist connects with my jaw instead. I clutch my face as I drop to the floor and Gerard lets out a string of curses as he launches himself at Zack knocking him to the floor and pounding his fist into his face again. I sit up and scream at them to stop before they pull apart and I scream at Zack to get out. He scrambles up off the floor turning to yell "Fuck you Z you fucking cockteasing bitch" and then tuns and runs out slamming the front door behind him. Gerard crawls to my side and cups my face in his hands asking if I'm ok and if the baby is ok before pulling me into his arms as I break down into sobs that shake my whole body.

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