You Only Hear The Music When Your Heart Begins To Break

A few weeks later I've settled into therapy and now feel comfortable around Dr. Wentz. Some sessions we find ourselves laughing together and the mood is light while others, when I'm having a bad few days, I spend crying for most of the hour needing a comforting touch that Dr. Wentz can't provide me as it would be inappropriate. I tell him things that I can't tell Gerard and Trick and it helps get me out of my mind. Today when I go in he takes one look at me and asks what's bothering me. I slump into the arm chair I have come to claim as mine and immediately launch into a rant about everything that's bothering me. "The guys at work are sexist assholes who objectify me behind my back and think I don't know, Gerard is pressuring me to pick a date for the wedding and I'm not ready yet especially since Tricks is coming up in a few weeks. I'm tired all the time and I can't sleep. My whole body hurts and I just want to cry all the time but I know that will worry Gerard and I don't want that but then at times I just feel so angry towards him for making me bottle it all up until I feel like I'm going to explode so I push him away and he looks like a hurt puppy which makes me feel like a bad person which just makes me angrier at him."
Dr. Wentz nods in understanding and begins asking me questions about the relationship I have with Gerard. After answering a few I break down into tears sobbing out "I love him. I really do but sometimes I just need it to be less intense. And I feel bad that I feel that way and I would never tell him because I know it would crush him."

When my appointment is over I leave the building, breathing still a little shaky and my eyes red and swollen. I am about to hail a cab to go home when someone calls out my name. I lower my arm and look over my shoulder to see Zack, the waiter from work who asked me out. He walks over to me smiling and upon seeing my red swollen eyes asks me if I'm ok. "Yeah just got done with a tough therapy session" I tell him and he is silent for a moment, unsure of what to say before asking if I'd like to get coffee with him. I think for a moment before saying yes and walking toward the nearby diner with him while in the back of my mind knowing that Gerard will be at home waiting for me. Zack and I sit in a booth after we order our coffee and start talking about our lives. I learn that he is two years older than me and lives in a building two buildings away from mine.
An hour later it's getting dark and we decide we should head home. Living so close to each other we decide to share a cab and when we arrive home he pays refusing to accept my offer of half the fare. I invite him over to watch a movie later that night and he smiles and says he would love to. I give him a hug and we part ways after me telling him which number my apartment is. When I get upstairs Gerard comes charging out of the living room towards me, pulling me to him and telling me how worried he has been because I wasn't home on time. I explain that I had coffee with a work friend that I ran into on my way to get a cab and that he is coming over to watch a movie later. Gerard looks angry so I snap "So I can't have a friend now? You have friends from art school over here all the time so don't look at me like that" and storm off towards the bedroom slamming the door behind me. A few minutes later Gerard knocks softly on the door before coming in and sitting on the edge of the bed. "Z, baby I'm sorry. I just got insecure about you hanging out with another guy but I trust you and I'm sorry. I'm so happy for you that you made a friend and I'm looking forward to meeting him." He tells me and I decide to just let it go and crawl over to wrap my arms around him. "I love you" I tell him and he smiles before leaning in for a lingering kiss.
When Zack shows up Gerard answers the door and invites him in, both of them introducing themselves before making their way into the living room taking a seat on the couch before I put in a movie and sit between them. Gerard turns the light off and we settle in the watch the movie, me leaning into Gerard's side until halfway through the movie Zack starts gently rubbing the back of his fingers up and down my thigh. I shift slightly and he stops before starting again a few minutes later . I don't say anything because I don't want to start a fight between him and Gerard.
After that night the three of us hang out a lot more. Sometimes me and Zack hang out alone while Gerard is out and we spend all the time we can at work hanging out and joking around. Zack comes over one night while Gerard has other friends over and we all drink and have a good time. At the end of the night Gerard and Zack are a lot drunker than I am and the rest of Gerard's friends leave to go home. I offer for Zack to sleep in the spare room and he accepts and stumbles after me as I show him the room. When we come back out Gerard backs me against the wall and starts sucking on my neck. I moan and close my eyes before remembering that Zack is here watching and I try to push him off. "Come on baby I'm so horny and you look so fucking hot right now" he slurs slightly and I blush and tell him that we shouldn't because Zack is still here. He turns his head to look at Zack with a smirk on his face and says "I'm sure he won't mind. I've seen how he looks at you, he wants to fuck you too" before walking over to him and resting his hands on Zacks shoulders "Don't you Zacky boy" he says before leaning in and attaching his lips to Zacks. Zack flails his arms for a second before relaxing and tangling his fingers in Gerard's hair and making out with him. I stand there in shock as I watch them kiss before Gerard whispers in Zacks ear and they both look at me. Gerard comes back over to me and takes my hand dragging me to the bedroom, Zack following us.
Once we're in the bedroom it's like a tornado. Hands and lips wander all over as clothes are torn off and thrown all around the room. I am pushed back on the bed as Zack climbs between my legs and leans down to stick his face between my legs when he sees my scars. He pauses and looks up at me and I shoot him a pleading look to not ask and he nods slightly before diving between my legs and nibbling on my clit. I moan out and look over at Gerard who is kneeling on the bed jacking himself to the sight of Zack eating me out. I reach out for him and he walks on his knees closer to me before I lean up and stick my tongue out lapping at the head of his dick. He throws his head back and moans which causes Zack to sit back to see what's going on. Gerard reaches for him and they meet in another kiss and I shift to properly suck Gerard's dick. I hear Gerard moan into the kiss before saying "Mmm she tastes so good" referring to the taste in Zacks mouth. Zack hums in agreement before I pull back and they both look down at me. I grab Gerard's hips and guide him down to lay on his back before kneeling to one side of his hips, taking Zacks hand and guiding him to kneel on the other side before taking the head of Gerard's dick in my mouth again. Zack takes the hint and as I bob up and down shallowly he leans in and licks all around the base. Gerard throws his head back and moans louder than I've ever heard before I release his dick and move to lick up one side as Zack licks up the other. When we reach the head we both lap at it, our tongues brushing together tasting the precum leaking from him. I glance over and Gerard is leaning up on his elbows watching us, his pupils blown before we lick down before trailing our tongues back up again. When we meet at the head this time we come together in a hot kiss, sliding our tongues together for a moment before Gerard whines and we break the kiss. Zack sucks Gerard into his mouth so I lean down and start lapping at his balls, slowly sucking one into my mouth which causes him to buck his hips. "I'm gonna cum if you guys keep going" he pants out so we pull back and slide up his body attaching ourselves to his neck sucking hickies on both sides. Gerard sits up causing Zack and I to pull back from his throat and he leans over forcing me onto my back on the bed. "I need to fuck you, now" he tells me as he reaches over to the bedside drawer for a condom. He throws the box on the bed before rolling one onto himself and flipping me over, pulling me up on my hands and knees before thrusting in. I moan loudly at the feeling of being stretched around him and he quickly works up a rhythm. Zack is sitting back on the other side of the bed lazily stroking himself while he watches Gerard fuck me hard so I catch his eye and open my mouth wide so he takes the hint and crawls over infront of me kneeling and sliding his dick into my mouth. I immediately start bobbing up and down sucking and working him with my tongue as he tangles his fingers in my hair moaning loudly before I slide all the way down, taking him into my throat and he chokes on the moan and makes quite possibly the sexiest noise I've ever heard. "Holy shit Gee you lucky bastard" he groans out as I continue to deep throat him and I hear Gerard reply with a "Hell yeah" before he cuts himself off with a moan and I feel him twitching inside me as he cums. Once he's pulled out he slumps back on the bed and throws the box of condoms at Zack. Zack pulls out of my mouth and raises an eyebrow at me and I show no objection so he slides one on and moves around beside me, touching my hip and asking me softly to turn over. I move around so I'm laying on my back and Zack moves himself between my legs and slowly slides his way in. He begins slow thrusts and lowers himself down to kiss me. We kiss for a few seconds before he pulls back groaning out "Oh you're still so tight even after getting fucked already." After a few more thrusts he slides one hand down and starts to rub at my clit, slowly increasing the speed of his thrusts. I moan loudly as I feel my orgasm building and look over to Gerard who is watching us, his pupils still blown. I reach out my hand and link fingers with him, just staring into his eyes before Zack reaches down and grips my chin, turning my face back towards him so he can kiss me again. When we break apart he increases the pressure on my clit and this tips me over the edge causing me to arch my back and scream out, squeezing Gerard's hand tight. As I slump back onto the bed I feel Zack pulsing inside me signally that he is cumming too. After he pulls out he gets up to discard his condom and when he comes back I am cuddled into Gerard's side, both of us on the edge of sleep. I feel the bed dip signalling his return and I reach my hand out linking fingers with him before sleep overtakes me.

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