You Only Hear The Music When Your Heart Begins To Break

I wake up feeling like I'm a million degrees. I'm covered in a layer of sweat, stuck to Gerard's bare chest with the covers kicked off me. I peel myself from Gerard and glance at the clock. It's 7.30am and I know Trick will be up now so I gently climb out of bed and make my way downstairs. When I reach the kitchen I see Trick and William doing dishes from their breakfast. I open my mouth to speak but what comes out sounds more like a noise a dying animal would make. They both turn to look at me and Trick walks over and feels my forehead. "Z you're burning up. What's wrong ?" I hear him ask but his voice sounds distorted and far away and that's my last coherent thought before the floor comes rushing towards my face.
The next time I wake up I feel slightly cooler but still on fire. I am layed out on the couch wrapped in a blanket but with a cold wash cloth on my forehead and Gerard has another gently wiping the rest of my face as my head rests in his lap. I turn my head and snuggle my face into his stomach as my body starts to shiver. "Thank god you're awake. How are you feeling?" He asks while setting the wash cloths aside and stroking my hair instead. "Not good I'm really hot but cold" I tell him and he nods in understanding. "Z you have the flu and I think you're dehydrated. I called mom and told her what happened and she's pretty sure thats what's wrong." Gerard tells me and I nod to show I'm listening. I lay awake for a little while just listening to the tv the boys are watching and drink a glass of water before I begin to feel sleep pulling me under again.
When I wake up I am back in my bed again, alone. I sit up and look around the room for Gerard but he's not there and my head spins violently. I slump back down and the effort of moving draws long heavy coughs from my throat and I feel like I'm suffocating. The door flies open and William rushes in to see if I'm ok. Once I catch my breath and have a sip of water I ask where Trick and Gerard are. "Trick had to work and Gerard had to go home. I had the day off so I offered to stay with you" he tells me and picks up some cough syrup off the bedside table. "Have some of this" he tells me as he measures some out and hands me the cup. I turn my nose up at it but drink it quickly before handing him back the cup. I cough a few more sharp short coughs before slumping back against the pillows. "Wanna watch a movie with me?" I ask and he nods and gets up to put one on. While it's starting he moves to sit on the couch but I catch his eye and pat the bed next to me. He makes his way over and lays down on the other side of the bed as we settle in to watch the movie. After a while I feel myself drifting to sleep again and the last thing I remember is snuggling into Williams side for warmth.

Gerard is mad at me. When I woke up William was gone and Gerard was back but sitting on the couch away from me. I groan to get his attention not feeling up to the task of speaking. His head snaps over in my direction and his eyes soften for a second in concern before hardening again and I wonder what happened to upset him while I was asleep. "What's wrong baby" I start to croak out when he cuts me off and bluntly asks "What's going on with you and William?" I stare at him completely confused for a second before answering "Nothing. What are you talking about?"
"Yeah it sure looked like nothing. I came back here to find you two tangled around each other asleep in your bed. You're supposed to be my girlfriend Z and you go and do that?" He spits out and stands up from the couch to pace. "What the hell Gerard?! I'm sick incase you hadn't realised. I woke up and you had fucked off home leaving me alone and Trick had gone to work so William was here to look after me. I was cold and alone and fucking miserable and I just wanted my boyfriend to comfort me but you weren't here. We were watching a movie and I guess we fell asleep. The only reason we would have even been touching each other is because I WAS FUCKING COLD." I snap at him, in disbelief he is accusing me of cheating on him. He stops pacing and his expression immediately softens as he says "I'm sorry babe, I didn't really think. I just got so mad seeing that when I came in here and I was so worried you would leave me." I shake my head signalling that I don't accept his apology. "Maybe you should go home Gerard" I tell him and he looks scared. "No I wanna stay here. Baby I'm sorry, please forgive me" he pleads as he crosses the room to kneel beside the bed. I let out a long breath and decide I am too exhausted to fight anymore. "Fine, you can stay" I tell him as a wave of shivers wrack my body. Gerard's hand goes straight to my forehead and he tells me I'm still really hot. "I feel gross and sticky" I tell him and he nods before getting up and leaving the room. On his way out the door he says "Hang on baby I'll be back in a second" before disappearing into the hall.

After the bubble bath that Gerard ran for me I feel a lot better. I'm dressed in comfy sweatpants and one of Gerard's t shirts which smells like him and wrapped in a blanket laying on the couch in the living room. My head is resting in his lap again and his fingers carding through my hair is very relaxing. I am comfortable enough to sleep but having slept so much already it isn't coming easy, despite how lousy I still feel. I turn my head to face up and Gerard looks down to meet my gaze and we smile at each other, our earlier fight forgotten. The lights are turned off, the only source of light in the room coming from the tv. I turn over so I am facing Gerard and tilt my head to glance over at Trick and William on the other couch to see they are fully occupied by the movie that's on. I tilt my head back and turn it downwards and start gently mouthing at Gerard's dick through the sweatpants he's wearing. I feel him tense up before relaxing again as I keep going. He is starting to get aroused when he grabs a handful of my hair and pulls my head back slightly. I have to bite my lip to keep in the moan that wants to escape from him being forceful and pulling my hair like that. We make eye contact and I know we are about to have really hot sex when we get upstairs. "I'm really tired guys. I'm gonna go to bed" I tell Trick and William as I stand and wrap the blanket around my shoulders before walking towards the door. "Ok night Z" Trick says back and I feel Gerard take my hand and lead me from the room, eager to get upstairs.

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