You Only Hear The Music When Your Heart Begins To Break

I wake the next morning to a wet tickling feeling on my stomach. My eyes shoot open and all I see is someone kneeling over my waist and a mass of dark hair making its way towards me, laying a trail of kisses up my stomach. I panic for a second until the head turns up and I see Gerard's face smiling up at me. I immediately relax but his face crumples in concern that he scared me and says "I'm sorry baby I didn't mean to scare you. I just thought it would be a fun way to wake you up."
"It's ok" I smile up at him. "It was nice I guess I'm just a little jumpy after everything." His face crumples even more so I reach out and stroke his cheek and smile at him. He relaxes and then climbs off to lay beside me. "How was your night beautiful?" he asks as we roll onto our sides to face each other. "Good. I missed you, but I slept ok cause you tired me out before you left" I wink at him. He chuckles before leaning over to press a kiss to my nose. "Come on, it's time to get ready for school" he tells me as he slides off the bed and offers his hand to help me up. I get out of bed and walk to the closet for my clothes. I turn to leave the room but realise its pointless now, we've already seen each other naked. I pull off my singlet and tights that I slept in and stand there in my bra and panties when I hear a wolf whistle from behind me. I turn my head to look over my shoulder at Gerard and poke my tongue out at him. He laughs and I turn around and get dressed. Once I'm dressed he follows me to the bathroom where I look in the mirror for a second before I can't take it anymore and turn my back on it and brush my hair. It's totally unmanageable today so I pull it into a loose messy bun on top of my head and hope it looks ok. Gerard smiles and tells me it looks good. We go downstairs and I pull my boots on and grab my bag and call a goodbye to Trick. He comes out of the kitchen and asks if I plan on having breakfast. "I don't think I could stomach anything right now" I tell him and head out the door. Gerard grabs his bag and follows behind me.
As we approach the school Gerard starts fidgeting with his tie which I notice for the first time looks very strange. "Do you even know how to tie that" I ask poking fun at him. "Uh no not really" he smiles sheepishly so I step infront of him and undo it completely. I retie it and smooth down his collar before gently pressing my lips against his but being unable to actually kiss due to my stitches. I pull away and he smiles wide and grabs my hand. "Fatass Way found a girlfriend. I never thought I'd see the day. Although she is just as fucking weird as he is" we hear a bitchy girl saying to her friends. They all look over so I flip them off as we walk past. "Oh my god look at her face. What a freak as if you'd come to school like that" I hear another girl say and that's the comment that gets to me. I lower my head as we continue our way inside and Gerard squeezes my hand and leans down to whisper in my ear "You're still more beautiful than them." We split up to head to our lockers and head off to our first classes.

When I enter the Chemistry classroom I sit at a desk towards the back by myself. I doodle on the front of my book waiting for class to start when I hear loud gasping and girls making a fuss over something. I look up and see Frank has just entered the classroom and immediately see the cause of the fuss. His face is black and blue and his wrist is bandaged. Someone beat the hell out of him. He appears to be scanning the room and when his eyes meet mine his face changes into the most scary expression that has ever been directed at me and I know Trick did it. I swallow down the sudden lump in my throat and feel terrified about what he's going to do to me now and betrayed that Gerard went behind my back and told Trick. I feel tears well in my eyes and breathe deeply trying to stop them from falling. Frank walks in my direction and I start to panic until the teacher enters the room and he takes the seat infront of mine. Once the lesson starts he throws a note over his shoulder into my desk. I open it with shaking hands and read the message. 'I told you what would happen if you told you little slut. You better watch your back because I will get you'. I start to shake all over and my breath comes out short and sharp. The bell rings and I practically run from the room trying to get lost in the crowd swarming for the lunch room so Frank can't find me. When I get there I search for Gerard and he's just sitting down at our usual table. I rush over to him, tears in my eyes, and he looks up at me worried. "How could you tell? I trusted you not to say anything and you told and have you seen Frank today? Did you see what happened because you told? And now something really bad is going to happen to me."
"Babe calm down. Yeah I told but I did it to protect you. I can't just see you get hurt like that and do nothing. I love you and I needed you to be safe so I told Trick and yeah I saw what happened to Frank but he deserves it and more and if I thought I could win I would go over there and do it to him again. I'm not going to let anyone hurt you again." I shake my head at him. "You can't watch me every second of the day. Just stay out of my business ok" I spit at him as I walk away from the table feeling deeply betrayed. I run to the girls bathroom and hide out until the bell rings for class. Once I'm sure everyone is out of the hallway I sneak out and leave school. I walk home as quick as I can and when I get there Tricks car is gone meaning he is still at work. I sigh in relief and let myself in locking the door behind me and running around the house making sure every door and window is locked. Once I'm satisfied I go into my bathroom and run a scalding hot bubble bath. I peel off my uniform and step into the water. It stings slightly due to the heat but I enjoy it and lean back to relax. I close my eyes and try to block out my racing thoughts when I hear the front door open and close. I freeze up and panic at the thought that it might not be Trick. I hold my breath and try to keep silent as I hear footsteps coming up the stairs. "Z, are you here?" I hear a voice call and immediately relax knowing its Trick. "Yeah I'm in the bath. I have bubbles so you can come in" I call back and he slowly opens the door and sticks his head in making sure it's ok. He walks in and sits in the closed toilet and averts his gaze "What are you doing home? School doesn't end for another hour."
"I saw what you did to Frank" I tell him and he looks over at me. "I can't believe you would do that and I can't believe Gerard would go behind my back like that. I can't trust either one of you. How could you possibly think that this is what I wanted?"
"Z are you crazy? Of course you can trust us. Gerard told me because he is terrified about what happened and he doesn't think he could protect you and once I knew how could I not do that. I actually wanted to do worse but Gabe pulled me off. How dare he do that to you. If he even so much as looks at you again he'll regret it and I made that very clear." I swallow hard and think about the note today and make the decision not to say anything. I don't want Trick in trouble for me. "He still betrayed my trust and if he shows up here I don't want to see him" I tell him and make it clear I'm done with the conversation. Trick leaves the bathroom and I get out of the bath, not in the mood to soak any longer.
After I dry off I make my way to my room and get dressed. I'm on my way downstairs for a drink when I hear the doorbell ring and I stop at the top step out of sight of the front door and wait for Trick to answer it. "Is Z here? She ran off at lunch and I waited after school but I couldn't find her." I hear Gerard say. "Yeah she's here. Look Gerard I've been told she doesn't want to see you right now but don't take it personally. She tore me a new one aswell. Maybe I didn't handle it right, I don't know. But don't worry about it she'll come around soon."
"I saw his face and he deserves worse. Are you sure cause the last thing I wanted was to hurt her?" Trick chuckles and says "Yeah I'm sure. Just give her time." With that Gerard asks Trick to tell me he came by and that he'll see me tomorrow and leaves. Once the door is closed Trick calls out "You can come out now. I know you heard all that." I walk downstairs and brush past him to get to the kitchen. "Don't punish that boy Z. He really cares about you."
"Don't tell me what to do" I snap back and make my way back upstairs to my room. I lay on my bed and feel nothing but hurt as I start to cry. After a while the tears stop and I lay in my darkened room as the light isn't on. Memories of the other night flood by mind and I find it hard to breathe. I start to hyperventilate when I hear a soft knocking at my door before it opens and someone walks in and turns the light on. I look over and see that its William and he hesitantly crosses the room and holds his arms out to me. I fling myself into them needing the comfort and he soothingly strokes my back while I catch my breath again. Once I've calmed down he sits me on the bed again and kneels infront of me. "Hey you're ok now. Wanna talk about it?" He asks as he rests his hand on my knee. I shrug my shoulders and then thank him for comforting me. "It's no problem sweetie" he tells me. "If you need someone to talk to that's not your brother I'm here ok."
"Thanks." I tell him. He smiles at me before standing back up and leaving the room. I feel calmer now having been comforted. I start to think about it and realise I owe Gerard an apology. I make my way downstairs to tell Trick where I'm going when I walk into the living room and see him and William kissing. I freeze and start to back out of the room when I bang my elbow on the doorframe. The noise draws attention to me and they break apart to look at me. William smiles and Trick looks sheepish as he says "So William and I are kinda together." I smile at them and say "Yeah I see that" before crossing the room to hug Trick. "I'm sorry for before and I think I owe Gerard an apology too. I'm gonna go over there." Trick just nods and I turn and leave the room. "That went well" I hear Trick tell William before I walk out the front door.
When I get to Gerard's I knock on the front door for a change. Mikey answers and pulls me inside and into a hug. "How are you?" He asks and I shrug before asking if Gerard is here. "Yeah he's in his room. He's been moping all afternoon. I don't know what's wrong with him." I nod in understanding and make my way to the basement door. "See you later Mikey" I say as I open the door and start down the stairs, closing it behind me. When I reach the bottom step I see Gerard hunched over his desk drawing. I make my way over and peer over his shoulder to see it is a picture of me. "That is really good, you're really talented" I tell him and he jumps. "Oh my god you scared the hell out of me" he says as he turns around in the chair to face me. "Sorry" I smile at him sheepishly. "And I'm sorry for today. You didn't deserve that."
"It's fine babe. I understand." I straddle his lap and sit down wrapping my arms around his neck. "I love you" I tell him and he smiles and says it back. "Do you want to stay the night?" He asks and I nod adding "I think that's for the best. Tricks new boyfriend is over right now." Gerard smiles at me and leans in for a kiss. My lip has stated to heal really well so I
can finally kiss back. I part my lips slightly and his tongue gently slides into my mouth. After a few minutes of kissing we pull apart and Gerard stands carrying me to the bed. Once he lays me down he climbs over me and starts to tickle me. I laugh and squirm trying to get away as he continues this torture. He joins in the laughter before stopping and we both lay there panting. Gerard gets up to put on a movie and turns the light off before coming back and getting in bed with me. We cuddle and watch the movie until he falls asleep and I lay there in the dark as sleep abandons me yet again.

Notes

That was a long one. Hope you guys are still enjoying this. I think the story is gonna take a turn for the better/happier within the next few chapters.