You Only Hear The Music When Your Heart Begins To Break

We make our way upstairs and find Donna in the kitchen making breakfast. Mikey is sitting at the table reading a comic and he looks up when we enter. Gerard sits down as Mikey gets up and moves towards me with his arms open. I move into them and meet him in a light hug. "I'm glad you're ok Z" he tells me before we take our seats. I smile as much as I can at him and Donna turns around and sits our breakfast on the table. The three of them have waffles and a smoothie with a straw is sat infront of me. "Thank you so much, for everything" I tell Donna and she rests her hand on top of my head. "Anything you need, I'm here honey" she tells me before taking her seat and we start on our breakfast.
After we are done Gerard offers to walk me home if I'm ready and I nod before saying goodbye to Mikey and Donna. When we get back to the house I'm surprised to find it spotless. I hear the shower running so Gerard and I make our way to my room where I hesitate by the door before walking in. The room has been cleaned, all traces of blood and vomit gone and the sheets have been changed which I'm grateful for. I look around and notice things have been moved. Gerard notices my inspection and slight confusion and tells me "After we saw the blood on your pants last night mom and I found the cuts. When I came here to get Trick we found your blades on the floor and searched your room for any more."
"I'm sorry we went through your stuff but I can't let you hurt yourself anymore Z" I hear Tricks voice coming from behind me. I turn around to face him and he enters the room and pulls me into a hug being careful of my face.
The three of us spend the afternoon watching movies in the living room. I leave to use the bathroom at one point and when I come back the mood of the room seems off. I think nothing of it until the movie ends and Trick tells me he has something to do and asks Gerard if he'd mind staying with me for a while longer. "I wasn't planning on leaving yet" he tells Trick and we start another movie and snuggle on the couch while Trick puts on his shoes and leaves. Halfway through the movie I feel Gerard's hands begin to wander up and down my side and his nose skims my neck as he breathes in my scent. It tickles and I shudder so he moves away, thinking I'm uncomfortable. I look over at him and tell him it just tickled. He moves back over next to me and wraps his arm around me while his lips attach to my neck. He presses light teasing kisses up and down my neck and shivers run down my spine. I whine lightly and it just encourages him to keep going, the kisses getting harder and more lingering. I can't deny that I'm turned on and I wonder if that's weird after what happened yesterday. I badly want to kiss Gerard but know I can't so I whine again and press myself against him. He lowers me down onto the couch and climbs over me while his hands trace up and down my sides and onto my breasts. He squeezes lightly before sliding his hands down again and grips my hips. I bend my leg up slightly so my thigh makes contact with the growing bulge in his pants. I move it back and forth causing him to moan due to the friction. He starts to rock against my leg while he bites and sucks on my neck. I
moan and he takes that as a sign that it's ok and starts to slide his hand into his loose sweatpants that I'm still wearing. His fingers reach the top of my panties and slide down into them. His fingers softly stroke over me a few times before pushing a little harder and stoking up and down teasing at my clit. "You're so wet" he whispers in my ear while he continues to tease me. I pant harshly feeling so turned on when he pulls his hand out and licks his fingers. He gives me a sexy wink before picking me up and carrying me up to my room. He gently lays me on the bed and things turn frantic. Hands tear at clothes until we are both fully naked with Gerard between my legs. He quickly rolls on the condom he pulled from his wallet before sliding into me. After he's fully in he begins thrusting in and out hard and fast pulling moans and broken pleas from my lips. He links his fingers with mine and slides my hands above my head, pinning me down as he thrusts faster and faster. This drags louder moans and whines from me which spurs him on and he thrusts harder as he leans down to bite and suck at my neck again. Pleasure washes through my body as my orgasm hits and I scream out his name. He follows a few thrusts later and then collapses down next to me. "I love you babe" he pants out. "I love you too" I smile back as I catch my breath. I hear the front door open and close and realise Trick is home. I pull the blanket over us and hope Trick isn't going to come in. I hear him walk past the door and into another room and close the door. "Wanna shower?" I ask Gerard and he smiles and stands up to pull his pants on. I grab clean clothes and wrap the blanket around me and lead him to my bathroom. Once in I lock the door and turn on the water. Steam fills the room as I drop the blanket on the floor and step in. Gerard soon joins me and our hands trail each others bodies under the hot water. We soap each other up when I notice Gerard is hard again. I slide my hand down his stomach slicking it with soap before wrapping my fingers around his dick. He moans lowly while I start to pump him gaining speed as I go. His head drops to my shoulder as I continue and when I reach the head of his dick I swipe my thumb over it before stroking down again which pulls another moan from him. His legs start to shake right before he lets out a final moan and comes all over my hand. He steps back and I rinse my hand off under the hot spray.

Two hours later Gerard says its time for him to go home. I don't want him to leave but I know he has to go. "I'll be here in the morning to walk you to school babe" he tells me to try and ease my sadness. I smile slightly at him and he turns and leaves. I go into the living room and Trick is watching tv. He reaches for his drink on the table and I notice his knuckles are busted and bruised. "What happened to your hand?" I ask and he shrugs and says he must have scraped it on something. I say goodnight to him and make my way to bed. In my room I walk to the mirror and look at myself for the first time since what happened. My eye is incredibly swollen and black and my lip is swollen and looks horrible. I look like someone stomped on my face. My stomach turns and tears fill my eyes and I can't look anymore. I turn the light off and climb into bed inhaling Gerard's scent on the sheets as I fall to sleep.

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