The Personal Assistant - COMPLETED

When I woke up it was early, about three in the morning and yet I felt well rested. I was still naked from the events of last night, Matt was lying next to me. We were face to face, he was still sound asleep and he looked so handsome. Quietly I got out of bed, took a shower and got dressed. I decided to see if I had any replies on my message board, I doubted it but worth a see.

The responses were unbelievable, so many in just a day. There were comments from username kissthemethanesky, carleykilljoy1129, mychemicaltardislover, FridayNightHigh, teachergerard, AdriannaGee7991, Bethany Anthony Iero Way, teapartypoison, scarlette-chimera, MCRmyQueenMia and Name of Misery. They all had something to say about my situation. Some were helpful, some were kind of rude and some were showing support. Then there were some comments that had me think about what was going on, and my relationship.

Monster Riot asked "Matt why you do this?" funsized said, "Shiloh better tell Gee, you need to tell someone." JacquelineRiha really stated her opinion, "So light him up, so his ass is on fire." One_Of_The_Fabulous_Killjoys had this to say, "If you don't tell Gee, he won't be a happy camper. Matt is not what you need, it will get worse."

KxssMyBattery, "If you don't tell Gerard I swear to God." Adrenaline Roulette stated I should be with Gee, if only they knew who Gerard was. xKaylee made me giggle when she commented, "OH SHIT! MATT NO STOP!" If Matthew ever saw I post this, I doubt he would stop doing what he does. Although last night was pretty amazing.

McrGirl said that, "Matt seemed nice." Which he was, still is, but then he's not. ayvajade also made me laugh, "Matt you dipshit, screw you Matt." Gerard No Way actually suggested this could be a "Stockholm Syndrome" and I decided I would have to look more into that.

fangoria agreed with the others and commented, "you better fucking tell Gerard or I will." I imagined her finding out it was Gerard Way and she tweets him, he would have a fit. Really didn't want him finding out like that, don't want him finding out at all. Another_Reckless_Killjoy sounded very supporting and caring towards me. "Poor Shy, Matt isn't good for you. Shiloh you need to tell Gerard." Finally the last comments were from username Blood Splatter-Killjoy. She said, "oh Shy speak up, what if Gerard finds this message board?"

That got me thinking, what if Gerard or Matt found this message board? Gerard would be angry with me and with Matt. Matthew, God I didn't even want to think about what he would do to me if he found this. I decided I should reply to them.

'First I want to thank you all for your comments and replies. I know I should tell Gerard but he has his own life with a beautiful wife and an amazing daughter. Matthew may be the only guy who ever loves me, I'm not pretty or beautiful. I'm going to look into Stockholm Syndrome, maybe there's something I can do.'

I checked the time it was close to five, I'd have to leave for work soon.

'As much as I would love to be with my close friend Gerard, it just will not happen. I think things are going to get better with Matt and I, last night he was so romantic and we ended up being very passionate. Maybe I will reply again with any updates but as for now I should stay away, I don't want Gerard or Matthew finding this. Goodbye.'

Well that's that, I got up to leave, checking on Matt once more. He was still out of it, so I left him a note and left for work. It was raining outside, I love the thunderstorms. Something about them were just beautiful. I got to Gerard's, started the coffee and waited for Bandit to wake up.

The work day went by fast, too fast and before I knew, it was four. It was still raining, pouring down really. Bandit and I were watching Yo Gabba Gabba and coloring, but suddenly we heard Gerard shouting. "Bandit, I'm going to go check on your dad." She looked sad, I kissed her forehead and headed for Gerard's office. The yelling was louder and I could hear Lindsey yelling as well.
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"I want her fired! You kissed her and didn't tell me until now! Gerard, when we met and married you said no girl ever made you feel the way I made you feel. You said we were meant for each other, and now you're throwing it away for a stupid little bitch!"

"Shiloh is not a bitch! She's amazing, caring and she understands me!"

"No she doesn't understand you, all she wants is to have her little fangirl fantasies come true! I swear to God Gerard, you have changed so much! You started drinking again....."

"I had one relapse! It was because I made Shiloh hate me, but she still helped me through the night!"

"I can't do this Gerard, you're a grown man and can make big boy decisions. Your loving and supporting wife of six years or this fan you've known for almost a year. Goodbye."

The computer screen went blank, what am I going to do? Everything I told Lynz was true, Shiloh made me feel like I could be myself. We had a lot in common, sometimes we were in sync with each other. I heard a squeak come from the door, it was Shy. How much had she heard?

"Shy?"

"I'm sorry, Bandit and I heard shouting so I came to make sure you were okay."

"How much did you hear?"

"Well you find me amazing and caring." Her voice had a nervous shake but she tried to smile.

"I meant everything I said by the way."

"Gerard, I don't want to be the cause of you and Lindsey fighting. Maybe I should leave."

"We've been fighting before you came along. I don't want to lose you." She bit her bottom lip, "let's go make dinner."

We headed into the area where she left Bandit to find Bandit wasn't there. "Bandit!" Shiloh started shouting her name, but she never answered.

"Gerard, check around the house and I'll check outside." I nodded and started running around, with no luck. I almost called the police before I heard Shy shouting my name. I ran quickly downstairs to see Shiloh carrying Bandit. Both were soaking wet from the downpour. I took Bandit and brought her into the bathroom, changed her out of her wet clothes.

Once I had her I'm warm and dry clothes I put her to bed, she was tired. If she woke up I'd give her a snack since she was missing dinner. I found Shiloh standing in the kitchen, she was still soaking wet. Water dripped from her hair onto her face, she was shivering.

"Come on we need to dry those clothes before you get sick." I got her a towel and left her alone in the bathroom. She came out towel wrapped around her, she carried her wet clothes to the dryer. I knew she felt awkward, standing in only a towel in front of me. "You're still shivering, here wrap yourself with this blanket." The blanket was bigger and covered her up entirely.

We sat on the couch in silence, I noticed her hair was on her face. I moved closer to her, brushing her hair back behind her ear. "Gerard, can you kiss me?" Did she ask me to kiss her? I couldn't hold back, I leaned in and kissed her deeply.
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"Bandit!" I was running around outside in the rain hoping Bandit was here. My mind was racing, then I remembered her playhouse. I ran to it, climbed the small ladder and saw her sitting there. "Bandit, what are you doing here? It's raining and your dad and I were scared."

"I don't like hearing mommy and daddy fighting. So I come out here to get away."

"The fighting is done, come on let's go inside." I picked her up in my arms and carried her inside. Gerard came running down and took Bandit to get into dry clothes and then into bed. I stood in the kitchen not wanting to get the carpet wet.

Gerard came back, he told me to change so we could dry my clothes, but all he gave me was a towel. A flipping towel, noticing I was embarrassed and cold he wrapped me in a big blanket. We sat on the couch in silence, this was so awkward. Gee moved in closer to me, my heart started racing when he brushed my hair back.

I couldn't take this anymore, I wanted to feel his kiss again. So I took a shot, "Gerard, can you kiss me?" Thinking he was going to tell me no or ask me to leave I prepared myself for his answer. Instead he took the moment to his advantage and kissed me deeply. I found myself leaning back on the couch and pulling him with me. My arms wrapped around his neck, what was I doing?

"Daddy? Shiloh?" Crap, we stood up quickly to see Bandit coming down the stairs. "It's not bedtime and I'm hungry."

"I think we'll order out, Shy you'll be joining us." Well where else would I go, I needed to wait for my clothes to dry. I was going to be late getting home so I texted Matt to let him know.

Expecting a negative response when actually he texted back, "I love you, please drive safely. It's still raining pretty hard. Last night was amazing." I don't know what has changed in him but as long as I didn't do anything wrong, things would be okay. Right?

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