The Personal Assistant - COMPLETED

It was two days until my birthday, Matt had been gone for a little over a week. He left the day after the rainstorm, that night when I got home he didn't hit me for being late. He said because I texted him and let him know, I would get off with a warning. So as long as I didn't do anything wrong according to him, I wouldn't be punished.

However these days with him gone has been amazing, I have been sleeping every night and staying as long as I wanted at Gerard's. Gerard has even let me stay over almost every night, I didn't want to be alone in the apartment. Zacky spent most of his nights at his girlfriend's place.

I truly felt happy, there was no awkwardness between Gee and I after we kissed again. Instead it felt like a tension had lifted, we went back to how we were. Playful with a tad bit flirty in there, and Bandit loved having me there. Everything seemed to be going well, but then Lindsey came home earlier then we thought.

She wasn't due to come back until late June, sometime after my birthday. Gerard and I talked about their problems and everything going on, and he said he wanted to try to make things work out. He did love her, there may be feelings for me too but she is his wife. Of course there were mistakes from both parties, and I didn't help the situation.

We were all sitting down for dinner, cheese pizza, when we heard the door shut. "Gerard, I'm home early! Look I think we really need to just sit down and....." She entered the kitchen and saw us, she stared right at me. Lindsey didn't say another word, she just went upstairs, and Gerard followed her.

"Just stay and continue to eat." He kissed Bandit and went up. I don't consider Lindsey a bitch, she has every right to be pissed. Her husband kissed another girl, I just really wish it wasn't me. I've messed up their marriage, even though I said I wouldn't.
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"Lynz? Baby?" I slowly entered the bedroom, she was in the closet grabbing her clothes. There was a suitcase on the bed, already being filled. "Lynz, what are you doing?" She came out with a pile of clothes in her arms.

"I'm leaving Gerard, you want to play house with little slut down there fine."

"How is she a slut?"

"She has a boyfriend? How would he feel to know you two have been kissing?" I really didn't want to think about what he would do, I still wasn't convinced he didn't cause that first bruise.

"I'm the one that kissed her, and that's all that has happened. I know kissing her was wrong but it's not like I slept with her. Lynz, I still love you and want to try to go back to the way things were."

"I would love nothing more then that. Gerard, you are my husband, my partner, the father of our child and I love you. We can work things out on one condition."

"Anything, I don't want to lose you." I still love my wife, she has been with me through a lot. My head started to hurt, one side screamed Lindsey and the other screamed Shiloh.

"Fire Shiloh, she has to leave. She's the temptation for you, if she doesn't leave, I will." Somehow I knew that's what was going to be said. I didn't want Shy to leave me either, but maybe my feelings weren't real. What if this is just a midlife crisis? I'd be throwing my wife away for a fling with my assistant. "Gerard?"

"Okay, I'll do it. I'll fire Shiloh." Lindsey came running over to me and wrapped her self around me.

"Oh Gerard, I've missed you for so long." Things started to get heated after not seeing my wife for so long. I basically threw her on the bed not wanting to waste any time. I swear I heard a noise come from outside the door but was too engulfed in what I was doing to be sure.
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Bandit and I sat at the kitchen table for what seemed like forever, but we didn't hear any yelling. After "B" had finished we went into the TV room and I put on one of her movies. "Hey I'm going to go check on them, okay?" She nodded and smiled at me.

As quietly as I could I headed upstairs and snuck next to the master bedroom. I could hear their conversation perfectly.

".....play house with little slut down there....." I don't think I'm a slut, I've only slept with one guy.

".....I still love you and want to try to go back....." We had talked about him getting her back, he did still love her.

".....work things out on one condition....." This wasn't going to be good, it would have to deal with me.

".....she has to leave.....she's the temptation....." There it was, Lindsey wanted me gone. Gerard wouldn't fire me though, I mean we could still be friends.

".....I'll do it....." What? He just said he would fire me, suddenly I felt this sharp pain in my chest. I didn't really think I was having a heart attack so what was this? Was my heart actually breaking?

There was no reason for my heart to break, Gerard is not my husband. He's not boyfriend, Matthew is my boyfriend and I love him. Gerard is just my boss, well I guess he's not even that anymore. I could feel my eyes start to swell up, I even let out a tiny whimper.

The talking had stopped but I soon could hear other noises. They were having sex, I had to move. There was no way I could stand there anymore and listen to any of that, it was bad enough I heard their conversation. Somehow I managed to make my feet move me downstairs.

Bandit was still on the couch watching her movie, but she saw I had been crying. "Shy? What's wrong?"

"Nothing "B", everything's fine. Your mommy and daddy are not fighting anymore."

"Yay!" She hugged me and started watching again. At some point she fell asleep, so I went into the kitchen to clean up. I heard footsteps coming downstairs, I turned to see Gerard putting a blanket on Bandit.

I quickly turned back to the sink, making it seem I didn't see him yet. He put his hand on my shoulder, "Shy? Can we talk?"

I turned around he was wearing only his pajama pants, they had the batman symbol on them. His hair was messy and his chest was a bit sweaty, the only evidence of what I knew he just did.

His eyes looked sadden, he was trying to find the words. Just so there wasn't any awkward tension I blurted out, "I already know. I'm fired."

Now his eyes looked confused, "how?"

"Bandit was worried so I went to check on you guys. I heard everything, even the whole I'm a slut part. I also started to hear the beginning of something else so I decided that was a good time to leave."

"You heard us.....uhh....."

"No, just the start of it. Look, I told you I didn't want to be the cause of your fights. So I'll leave, you can call me if you ever want to meet up for coffee."

I was trying desperately not to start crying, but it wasn't working. A few tears started to fall, he took notice of them. "Shy, please don't cry." He moved his hand to my cheek but I quickly got up.

"I'm sorry, I'm going to go. I guess this is goodbye, tell Bandit I said bye." I moved fast to the door, I just needed to get the Hell out of here. However Gee was quicker then me, he grabbed my wrist.

"Wait, I still want to take you out for your birthday dinner. We had that planned already, so be here at eight so we can go to dinner."

"I don't think that's a good idea."

"Either you come here or I will pick you up and force you to eat."

"Fine, eight it is. Goodbye Gerard." He wrapped his arms around me as squeezed me tight. I pushed him away and left. Now I didn't have a job, I wouldn't see Bandit and I wouldn't see Gerard. I felt alone and completely heartbroken.

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