Don’t get to close it’s dark inside.
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Gerard’s POV
I woke up and found myself alone in my room which made me frown as I remember falling asleep with Frank in my room so I got up and went downstairs where I heard someone singing in the kitchen so I headed towards the kitchen where Finn was cooking someone and was singing to herself.
I walked over to her and put the kettle on which made her jump.
“Jesus Gerard.” Finn said under her breath and I looked down as I made myself a drink and went to sit as the table.
“You okay sweetie, you seem quieter than normal.” Finn said and I looked at her.
“Where’s Frank?” I asked quietly and Finn frowned slightly.
“I don’t know Gee, he’s either at school or somewhere around town.” Finn said and I nodded as I stood up and walked out the room and went to the sitting room.
“Gee, is there anything wrong?” Finn asked sounding a bit more concerned than before as she followed me to the sitting room.
Finn sat next to me on the sofa and she sighed quietly.
“Having a bad day?” Finn asked and I nodded.
“Have you taken your medication this morning?” Finn asked and again I nodded.
“Was it because of those people?” Finn asked and I nodded.
“Do you have anything which could help you feel a bit better?” Finn asked and I shook my head because I only had my hat but it was now way to hot to be wearing my hat around so it was in a safe place in my room so I had nothing else which would help me settle a little.
“Stay there a second sweetie.” Finn said as she got up and I heard her go upstairs and a couple of minutes she came down stairs with a box in her arms.
“So before I found Don, I was a sex worker and I had a lot of stuff happened to me from where I was younger and from when I was doing.” Finn said and I looked at her as she removed the lid of the box.
“I always hated what I did as a job and I still hate what I had to do and anything before I met Don. So when I found Don I struggled badly so he made me this box and inside of this box is things which would distract me while I was in hospital.” Finn said and I looked inside the box and picked up some items.
“I was thinking that maybe me and you could make you a box because my box is completely different.” Finn said which made me smile as I found a rubber band in the box which made me look at Finn and she smiled at me sadly.
“They was dark times, but I have you, Frank and Arya to keep me busy and very happy.” Finn said and I nodded as Finn got up and she kissed the top of my head which confused me slightly.
“Get dressed and we will get you some stuff.” Finn said and I nodded as I moved off the sofa and went to my room and got dressed and once I got dressed I looked at a hoodie and I took a deep breath and just picked it up but I didn’t put it on and I met Finn by the stairs who was smiling proudly since I always wore a hoodie.
“You’re doing good Gee.” Finn said and I nodded and she opened the door and that for me was a huge no go without my hoodie so I put it on which made Finn chuckle.
“You’ll get hot in that.” Finn said and I just shrugged my shoulders which made Finn smile as she shook her head and waited for me to walk out the door and she followed behind me locking it and we both got in the car and went to the shops.
Since I was having a really bad day I had my arm linked with Finns arm and I was refusing to let go.
“Okay so we need to find a box. Have a look to see what they have a pick one out.” Finn said and I reluctantly let go of her arm and looked at the boxes and I found this box I liked so I picked it up and looked at Finn.
“Follow me.” Finn said as she offered me her arm and I linked mine with hers and we went to a load of colouring book and pencils.
“Choose a book and pencils.” Finn said and I found the pencils I wanted but it took a bit longer with the book and I found one which had animals in it and I looked round and found a sketch book and looked a Finn for permission and she smiled as she nodded and I walked back over.
“Do you want a book to read?” Finn asked.
“Can’t read and I can’t write.” I said quietly and Finn smiled as she squeezed my hand as I looked at her.
“Would you like to learn?” Finn asked and I smiled widely as I nodded.
“Yeah please. Daddy said he would teach me but he never did in the end.” I said quietly as I looked down.
“Well everyone at home can teach you, now let’s pay for this and we move to another shop.” Finn said as we went to pay for the stuff.
We got home and I was sat in the sitting room sorting this box out when Frank and Arya came home.
“Mum got you into having a box as well?” Arya asked as she sat next to me and looked at the stuff and picked up the candle and sniffed it.
“This smells so good. I need to take you candle shopping.” Arya said which made me smile which she returned.
“Love The Teddy, it’s cute. But the important question here is does little elephant have a name.” Arya said and I shook my head as I picked the elephant up and messed with it’s ears.
“Boris.” I said quietly and Arya chuckled softly which made me look at her.
“It’s a good name.” Arya said and I looked up and saw Finn walk into the room with a small book in her hands and she sat with me and Arya.
“So we managed to find some pictures and letters your parents wrote when you was missing and Arya found this photo album so that when you want to feel close to them you can look at this and if you want someone to read the letters to you then we’ll read them to you.” Finn said as she handed me the photo album and I started to look through it and I felt myself cry.
I looked up to Finn and smiled at her as I moved and hugged her which took her by surprise but she returned my hug.
“Thank you.” I whispered and Finn tightened the hug.
I let her go and I picked up Boris and the blanket I got and I went upstairs to my room and looked through the photo album.
I was sat in the window wrapped in the blanket and messing with Boris ear as I looked at the photo album when someone knocked on the door which made me look up and I saw Frank who had my box.
“May I come in?” Frank asked and I nodded as Frank walked into my room and put my box on the bed frame since I still refused to sleep on it.
“Mum gave you the photo album?” Frank asked as he sat on the window sill with me.
“Yeah.” I said quietly as I looked at the photo.
“I miss them Frank.” I whispered as I felt a tear roll down my cheek.
“I’m sure you do.” Frank said quietly.
“Do you know where they are buried?” I asked as I looked at Frank and he shook his head.
“I’m sorry Gee but I don’t.” Frank said softly and I nodded as I looked back down at the photo.
“Hey, come down and watch a film with us.” Frank said and I looked at him.
“Friday night tradition, we sit in the sitting room as a family where we pig out on food and we watch films until we fall asleep.” Frank said and I nodded slightly.
Frank got out the window and I followed him and I walked over to my bed and put the photo album under my pillow and I followed Frank downstairs where we found our spots and watched films.
I was sat on the sofa next to Frank and I didn’t like this film and I think Frank noticed.
“Come here you.” Frank said and I looked at him and moved so I was close to him and I hid my face in Frank’s arm refusing to watch the film.
Once the film finished Frank chuckled softly.
“I don’t think Gee liked the film.” Frank said and I moved my face from his arm.
“It was scary.” I said quietly and Frank chuckled as I felt a arm wrap round me which made me tense slightly but I just reminded myself that it was Frank and that he would never hurt me which made me relax.
“Let’s put another one on, but one which won’t scare Gee shitless.” Frank said and I looked over to Finn who smiled at me and I returned it shyly as I looked down at Frank’s arm since I had latched myself onto him.
“This looks good, also it’s not that bad as my mates little sister watched this and she was fine.” Arya said and put this series on and we all started to watch it.
After a while I was fall asleep and I quietly moved and went upstairs to my room.
I was looking through my box when I looked up and saw Arya stood by my door.
“Can I come in?” Arya asked and I nodded as Arya walked in my room and she looked at my mattress and the bed frame.
“You know Having the mattress on the frame is more comfortable than it being on the floor.” Arya said as she walked over and sat on the mattress.
“Used to a mattress on the floor.” I said quietly as I looked at her.
“Have you even tried to sleep on the frame.” Arya said quietly and I shook my head as I looked at the bed frame.
“Bad things happened on the bed.” I whispered and Arya smiled softly and she touched my knee which made me look at her.
“You know nothing bad will happen in this house, we all love you to bits.” Arya said which made me smile.
“You need something else in that box, hold up.” Arya said as she got up and walked out my room and came back a couple of seconds later with a pot.
“Okay so I find that if I can’t sleep, I put this on and it calms me down and sends me of to sleep quicker than anything. Also your skin will feel amazing as well.” Arya said and I smiled as she stood up and walked out my room.
I put it in my box and smiled at the photo album as I gently put it on the top and I stood up and put the box in its special place and I walked over to my bed when I heard someone walk into my room and I looked round and saw Frank.
“Are you okay?” Frank asked and I nodded.
“Arya wasn’t a bitch was she?” Frank asked and I shook my head.
“No she was nice.” I said quietly which made Frank smile.
“So you want me in here or you all good tonight?” Frank asked and I thought about it slightly and I smiled.
“I’m good tonight. But can I still come if it gets bad?” I said and Frank smiled.
“Your always welcomed.” Frank said as he walked out the room and left me alone and I got into bed and settled down for the night and hoped that the nightmares didn’t come.
I sat but up right and was panting heavily as I looked around me and the dark room was creepy me out more than what this nightmare did.
I carefully got out of bed and walked out my room and went to Frank’s room and I walked over and I carefully touched his arm.
“Frank.” I whispered and Frank sighed loudly as he rolled over to face me since he was facing the wall.
“What?” Frank asked sleepily.
“I had a nightmare.” I whispered and Frank smiled in his sleep as he moved over and pathetically patted the space.
“You know the drill.” Frank said sleepily and I climbed into the bed and pulled the covers over me and I looked at Frank.
“Does this annoy you?” I asked quietly.
“Nope.” Frank sighed which made me smile as I felt Frank feel around for something and he lifted his hand up which made me flinch as the tv remote found its way to my hand.
“Find something to watch, now I’m going back to sleep.” Frank said and with that he went back to softly snoring and I went looking for something to watch to try and get me back to sleep.
