Longing

Gerard’s POV

I woke up with Frank cuddled into my side and he looked peaceful for the first time since he’s been here.
“I’m not going in there, he will fucking kill me.” I heard Patrick say from the other side of the door.
“I don’t want to walk in to see my brother naked.” I heard Mikey say.
“Who said he would be naked?” I heard Ryan say.
“Didn’t you hear them, they was fucking for most of the night.” Mikey said.
“That’s only because Gee threw Ray out for the night.” Patrick said and I didn’t hear what Mikey said.
“Why can’t people just fuck off.” Frank muttered as he rolled away from me which made me chuckle.
I kissed Frank’s cheek softly and I got out of bed and pulled on some clothes and walked to the door and opened it and there was Mikey, Patrick and Ryan stood by the door.
“And Why are all you stood at my door?” I asked as I shut the door behind me.
“We was wondering when you was going to let Ray back in. He’s been on the porch since you made spend the night outside.” Patrick said.
“And do you all forget that I can hear every single thing you say and that I heard you just a minute ago.” I said as I lent against the door frame and I felt Ryan’s eyes on my body since I didn’t have a hoodie on.
“We’re Sorry Gee. We was just wondering where you were as. You are never in bed this late before, so we was worried.” Mikey said.
“Well maybe I had a good night last night, but of course you all heard so I hope you all enjoyed what you heard. Now I need a coffee.” I said as I walked past everyone and headed towards the kitchen.

“So you and Frank?” Mikey said as he lent against the side next to me.
“Yes we are together.” I said and sipped on my coffee.
“I’m happy for you Gee, you can finally move on.” Mikey said and put his hand on top of mine and I look at him.
“Jack will always have that special place in my heart.” I said and Mikey smiled.
“I know he will.” Mikey said quietly and I smiled as I looked towards the door and saw Frank standing there wrapped in the duvet.
“You okay babe?” I asked and Frank nodded.
“Yeah, just really hungry now though.” Frank said quietly as he walked more into the kitchen where he walked over to me and cuddled into my side without letting go of the duvet and I wrapped my arm round him and kissed the top of his head.
“I’ll leave you two be. But when can Ray come back in? I’m worried about him.” Mikey said and I looked at him.
“After I’ve cooked Frank something to eat then Ray can come back inside.” I said and Mikey smiled and nodded and he walked out the kitchen leaving me and Frank alone.
“You wearing anything under there?” I asked and Frank smirked at me as he bit his lip and stood away from me a little.
“I could be but then again I might not be wearing anything.” Frank said and I chuckled and got hold of the duvet and pulled Frank towards me and I peeled the duvet back a little and Frank was still naked under the cover.
“Naughty.” I said as I moved and pinned Frank to the side which made him giggle and he lent forwards a little and kissed me.
“Only for you.” Frank said in a flirty way which made me chuckle and I kissed Frank a bit harder.
“Better be only for me.” I said and Frank smirked at me and I smiled as Frank wrapped the duvet round me with a giggle.
“What would you like to eat?” I asked quietly and Frank smiled.
“Beans on toast.” Frank said with a smile and I nodded.
“Go and have a shower and get dressed and I’ll make you food in the mean time.” I said and Frank nodded and he moved the duvet from me and wrapped it back round himself and he went to walk off but I got hold of the duvet and pulled him towards me which made Frank giggle.
“Stop.” Frank giggle but he soon stopped when I kissed him and we began to make out until someone cleared their throat.
Frank pulled away and looked down with a blush on his face which made me chuckle as I pulled him close to me and kissed the top of his head and Frank smiled as he walked out the kitchen and went upstairs to get dressed.

“Oh your cooking breakfast?” Elliot said as he walked in the kitchen.
“Fuck off, you got Ryan to cook for you.” I said and Elliot chuckled.
“You and the human, a messed up human. Would of thought you learnt you lesson by now especially after Jack.” Elliot said and I looked at him.
“What the fuck did you say?” I challenged and Elliot chuckled.
“You and the human. Jack would be very disappointed in you if he found out you are taken on yet another broken soul.” Elliot said.
“You have no fucking clue on the way Jack thought about things in life. If Jack was still here then he would be happy that I have moved on and that someone can love me like how Jack loved me. Frank isn’t a broken soul, Yeah to begin with me might of been a broken soul but he isn’t now. So you will shut your mouth and keep you thoughts and opinions about Frank to yourself.” I said seriously as I went looking for some food for Frank.
“Jesus you’ve really fallen for him haven’t you.” Elliot said a bit more softer which meant what he said before was his way on working out on how I really felt for Frank.
“What’s it got to do with you anyway?” I asked as I looked at him.
“Look, none of us want to see you get hurt, especially after Jack. We all know how much Jack meant to you and after he killed himself we all thought that we was going to lose you too. We thought that if the alcohol or the drugs didn’t kill you then you would be killing yourself.” Elliot said and I looked down and sighed.
“I don’t want to be reminded of the past. I’m happy to be in a relationship with Frank and I want to move on from when I was with Jack.” I said quietly.
“As much as you loved Jack and we all know that you loved him a lot, you Where never as happy as what you are now.” Elliot said and I looked at him again.
“I had a lot of worry with Jack.” I said quietly as I looked down and Elliot was by my side quickly.
“We know you did Gee, which is why we are all thankful that Frank has walked into your life and help you be the Gerard that I hear everyone talk about.” Elliot said and I didn’t hear Frank walk in until I felt a pair of arms wrap around me and I looked down and saw Frank’s tattooed hands which made me smile.
“He’s a good one Gee.” Elliot whispered as he he walked off and Frank took his place.

“What was that all about?” Frank asked and I looked at him and smiled at him.
“It’s nothing.” I said quietly and Frank frowned at me.
“Hey, you can talk to me you know. It’s not all just about me, you can open up to me.” Frank said with a hint of seriousness in voice as he put his hand on top of mine.
“I know, but at the moment the focus is on you getting better.” I said and Frank rolled his eyes at me.
“I’m fine Gee, I haven’t felt this good or happy in years.” Frank said and I smiled and kissed his forehead.
“Anyway, I think it’ll do you some good to open up to someone who isn’t Mike’s.” Frank said and I chuckled softly.
“I understand your brothers and all that but there is only so much you can talk about to your brother.” Frank said and I nodded.
“Tell you what, cook me breakfast and go and sort Ray out and we will spend the day talking about stuff.” Frank said and I smiled and nodded.
“I’d like that.” I said quietly and Frank smiled as he lent forward and kissed my cheek.
“Good because we was going to talk wether you wanted to or not.” Frank said and kissed my cheek again.
“Now cook me something as I’m starving.” Frank said as he slapped my ass and I just rolled my eyes at him and went to cook something for Frank.

After I sorted Ray out and reunited him with Mikes I went looking for Frank where I found him in the garden sat in the swing chair we got ages ago.
I walked over and stood in front of Frank who looked at me and smiled softly at me.
“It’s not easy for me to open up to people. I tend to keep everything in my past a secret unless it involves you in my past.” I said as I still stood in front of Frank.
Frank caught hold of my hand and gently pulled me towards him where I was now stood between his legs.
“I’m here for you to talk to, you can vent to me if you wanted as well. I don’t care, as long as I can be with you I don’t care about your past as long as I can be in your future.” Frank said as he looked at me and I smiled at him.
I moved so I was sat closely next to him and I sat sideways as I put my legs on top of Frank’s legs.
“Where would you like me to start?” I asked quietly and Frank looked at me.
“What was you like as a human?” Frank asked and I chuckled.
“I was fat to start off, I was awkward around people, I loved art and I still love art. Comic books are just amazing and I was there when the first comic book ever came out and I spent all my pocket money on this comic book.” I said as I looked down.
“Being a human wasn’t a nice time for me.” I said quietly and I felt Frank’s arm wrap round my leg which made me look at him.
“We don’t have to talk about that now.” Frank said quietly and I smiled and lent over and kissed Frank on the cheek.
“I know you are dying for me to tell you more about Jack.” I said and Frank chuckled slightly as he looked at me.
“Only if you want to.” Frank said and I nodded at him.
“Think you should know how high my standards are of you because of Jack.” I said and Frank looked at me scared.
“It’s not a bad thing.” I whispered in his ear.
“So tell me then.” Frank said quietly.
“I found Jack in Canada when it was a really bad winter and I was going home when I found Jack nearly frozen to death in a door way. I decided to take Jack home with me and me, Mikes and Patrick could all nurse him back to health again.” I said and Frank frowned in confusion.
“I’ve known Patrick a lot longer than what everyone thinks. Patrick had decided that he wanted to live under my set of rules after trying out 8 different covens. He said he felt more free with me than with the others and he knew I would help him with his problem, and that’s what I did and now he’s a really close friend of mine.” I said and Frank smiled.
“Jack took a while to settle in and it took us a while to settle in with a human around. He was fucked up, I give Jack that. I mean that kid had more problems longer than my arm.” I said and I looked down and sighed loudly and Frank rubbed my leg.
“I can’t talk about it anymore.” I whispered and Frank kissed my cheek.
“I understand.” Frank said and I smiled at him.
“You self harmed?” Frank asked carefully and I looked down and nodded.
“The scar down your back?” Frank asked quietly.
“I was with someone who enjoyed blood play and they went too far and stuck the knife too deep into my back and that’s how the scar got there.” I said and Frank frowned at me which made me chuckle.
“It wasn’t from a fight, don’t exactly want to explain my sex life to other people.” I said and Frank nodded.
The wind picked up and Frank shivered and I moved my legs off Frank and pulled him to my side and wrapped my coat round him.
Frank moved his legs so they was on top of mine and I kissed the top of his head.
“Let’s go inside, somewhere warmer.” I said quietly and Frank nodded and I wrapped my arms round him and stood up with him in my arms and I walked us towards the house and when we got to the porch I stood Frank up.
“I have feet you know.” Frank giggled as he wrapped his arms round my neck and my hands automatically went to his lower back.
“I know but I like carrying you.” I said as Frank pecked me on the lips.
“I’m not a baby and I can walk, but just not as fast as you as I only have little legs.” Frank said and I chuckled and the back door opened and we both looked and saw Patrick.
“So everyone wants to have a movie afternoon, You two joining?” Patrick said and Frank looked at me.
“Don’t need to ask me for permission.” I said and Frank smiled as he looked at Patrick.
“I would like to watch a film.” Frank said quietly as he looked at me and I smiled at him and kissed the top of his head.
“Go inside and I’ll be with you in a second.” I said and Frank nodded as he moved and walked off and I just stared at his ass the whole time he walked off.
“Eye fuck him later Gee.” Patrick said and I chuckled as I looked at Patrick.
“I can fuck him whenever I want to fuck him.” I said as I stood up.
“You like him a lot don’t you.” Patrick said and I sighed as I rolled my eyes.
“Wish you guys would stop saying that.” I said and Patrick chuckled.
“But we can see how happy you are, you are only like this when you really like somebody and you really like him.” Patrick said and I sighed and walked off towards the house and went inside.

I walked to the sitting room where I heard raised voices so I picked my pace up a little and stood in the sitting room and realized that Mikey and Elliot was playing on the Xbox and Mikey was losing like normal.
“You know, you’re not meant to kill Elliot he’s on your team.” Frank said and Mikey looked at Frank.
“You want to play it then?” Mikey asked in a sarcastic way.
“Thought You was never going to ask.” Frank said as he lent forward and took the control from Mikey.
“Your a babe.” Frank said as he winked at Mikey.
“Don’t Let Gee year you say that.” Mikey said as he sat on Ray and I walked in the room and sat next to Frank which made him jump.
“Too late for that, I heard everything.” I said and Frank gingerly looked at me and I kissed him which Frank returned.
“Hey, we going to play this game or not?” Elliot said and Frank pulled back and went to play this game.
“You’ll have to bare with me, I’m a bit rusty.” Frank said as he lent against my side and got himself comfy and he played on the Xbox with Elliot for most of the evening.

“Gee.” Frank said gingerly as he stood by the door of the bathroom and I looked at him through the mirror.
“Yeah.” I said with my toothbrush in my mouth since I busy running us a bath.
“Are you mad at me for talking to Mikey like I was?” Frank asked as I spat the toothpaste out and washed my toothbrush off and turned round and looked at Frank.
“No I’m not mad at you as I know you two was messing around.” I said and Frank nodded as he went to turn to leave the bathroom.
“Don’t you want to join me and have a bath?” I asked and Frank stopped and he looked at me.
“Are you sure?” Frank asked sounding unsure.
“Wouldn’t of ran the bath if I wasn’t going to share it with you.” I said and Frank smiled shyly at me and I pulled my top off as I walked over to the bath and turned the hot water off and started to put some cold water off and I turned round as saw Frank have walked a little bit more into the bathroom but was still unsure of me.
I sighed and walked over and stood in front of Frank who looked down and I placed a finger under his chin and made Frank look at me and I pecked him on the lips and I rested my forehead against his.
“I’m not mad at you. You also don’t have to be scared of me.” I said quietly and kissed Frank’s forehead.
Frank wrapped his arms round me and hide his face in my chest.
“Move you arms so their round my neck.” I said softly and Frank moved his arms so they was round my neck.
“Jump and wrap your legs round my waist.” I said and Frank back a little and he jump and wrapped his legs round my waist and I walked over to the side where I sat Frank on the side and he reluctantly let me go and I turned the cold tap off and walked back over t Frank and stood between his legs.
“Frankie talk to me.” I said softly as I moved some of his hair and tucked it behind his ear which made Frank look at me and smile slightly.
“I know you was joking earlier with Mikey. Has Ray something to you?” I said and Frank shook his head.
“Ray hasn’t said nothing to me.” Frank said quietly.
“Tell me what the matter is then.” I said softly.
“I thought I made you angry by talking to Mikey the way that I did. I didn’t mean it.” Frank said as he sniffed and I kissed the tear which was falling down his cheek.
“I’m not angry at you, I know you was joking and was just a bit of fun. You will know when I am mad at you but right now I’m now mad at you.” I said and Frank nodded and I kissed the end of his nose which made Frank giggle a little.
I pulled back and got hold of the bottom of Frank’s top and looked at him for permission and Frank nodded and he lifted his arms up as I pulled his top up and over his head and I just looked at the ink that covers his chest and arms.
“Like what you see?” Frank asked and I looked at him and stepped forward and kissed him hard which Frank returned.
“I love what I see.” I said against Frank’s lips and kissed him again.
I pulled away and walked away from Frank taking my jeans and pants off and got in the bath moaning as I let my body relax into the warm water.
Frank got off the side and did the same as me and when he got to the bath he just stood there and I looked at him and then I looked him up and down.
I sat up and offered Frank my hand which made Frank smile as he took my hand and he stepped in the bath and turned round and he sat himself down in front of me and he stayed sat up until I wrapped my arms round his neck and gently pushed him back so he was now leaning against my chest and I kissed his cheek.
“Relax, I’ve got you.” I whispered and Frank chuckled slightly.
I rested my chin on top of Frank’s head and began to sing softly.

Notes

Been ages since I updated but I’ve been up to my eye balls in paperwork for work and I have had hardly any time to do anything but paperwork