Frank’s POV

I was sat on the bed doing what homework I wanted to do and Gerard was busy drawing something both happily sat in silence part from the music we had on for a bit of background noise when the door opened making both me and Gerard jump more so Gerard and Fred walked into the room.
“Ever heard of knocking?” I said and looked up and saw Fred with red puffy eyes meaning he had been crying which was something Fred never does.
“Fred what’s the matter?” I asked seriously and stood up and stood by Gerard who was still sat on the bed.
“Someone beat Esme up.” Fred said quickly and Gerard stood up and guided Fred over to the bed and sat him down.
“Is she okay?” I asked leaving Gerard to somewhat deal with Fred.
“They did a really good job on her.” Fred sniffed as he looked down.
“Do you know who did this to her?” I asked and the door opened and shut again and Jamie walked in the room.
“Some fucking bitches from that school.” Fred sniffed.
“Damn can’t fucking beat them up.” Jamie said and Gerard just looked at Jamie.
“I could understand if it was Frank or Jamie and even me but why Esme, she would never hurt anyone.” Fred said and Gerard got up and went somewhere.
“Because their jealous little bitches.” I said and looked at Jamie who had this worried look on his face because of what happened to Jess and he knows exactly how Fred was feeling as Jamie was close to Jess, like how Fred and Esme was really close.
I was stood in the doorway and I felt a hand on my back and I turned and saw Gerard with a mug who smiled slightly at me.
I moved out the way so Gerard could get back into the room and he sat next to Fred.
“I made you a coffee.” Gerard said softly.
“Don’t want your fucking coffee. I want to know if my sister is going to be okay.” Fred spat and smacked the mug out of Gerard’s hand which made Gerard look down and he got up and walked out the room and I caught hold of his hand which made Gerard look at me.
“He doesn’t mean it.” I said quietly and Gerard smiled as he nodded and I let go of his hand and Gerard walked to the sitting room and sat on the sofa we had and once I knew Gerard was okay my attention went back to Fred.
“Next time Gee offers you something be fucking great full and don’t ever do what you did again.” I growled and Fred looked at me.
“I don’t care about his sodding feelings, he just needs to learn to man the fuck up.” Fred spat and I sighed and I heard the door open and shut and I turned round and Gerard was gone.
I walked over to Fred and grabbed hold of his top and pinned him to the wall.
“Frank Don’t.” Jamie said.
“If he fucking hurts himself Esme won’t be the only one in hospital because you’ll be right next to her.” I growled and let go of a stunned Fred and went looking for Gerard.

I found Gerard by the horses which was a good sign as it meant he wasn’t going to do anything to hurt himself as he would normally run of somewhere I knew but I would have to look in 5 different places.
“Babe.” I said and Gerard jumped and looked at me with tears rolling down his cheeks which he quickly wiped away with the back of his hand.
“You should go back to Fred, he needs you more than me.” Gerard sniffed as he looked away from me and back at the horses so I walked over and sat next to him and pulled him close to me.
“Fred has Jamie and Jamie understands what Fred is going through, nobody really understands you as well as I do so I’m going to stay with you and make sure you are okay.” I said and Gerard sighed loudly and sniffed afterwards.
“What he said was true, I do need to man the fuck up.” Gerard said and looked down and he started to pick at the grass.
“You are who you are, just because you’re timid doesn’t mean you need to man up, it’s just part of your nature.” I said and Gerard shook his head.
“You don’t like me being timid.” Gerard said quietly.
“Baby I love you no matter what you are. I love how shy you are around people and that with certain people you come out of your shell.” I said and Gerard looked at me.
“I don’t love me, I don’t like anything about myself so how can you love me?” Gerard said and I moved so I was sat in front of him.
“I love you so much baby, I love you to the moon and back and probably even beyond that. You are my world and without you I would be the Frank I was before and I don’t want that and I don’t like that Frank.” I said and made Gerard look at me.
“You have changed me into someone a hell of a lot better than what I was. I used to pick fights all the time and your brothers boyfriend would of ended up at the hospital before I got with you. Now, now I’m completely different I feel like now I can walk away from a fight if I know I was going to lose and yeah I admit I would of beaten the shit out of lanky posh boy so much he would probably be in hospital, but when you put your hand on my arm something told me to stop and not move another muscle.” I said and Gerard smiled slight and I kissed him which Gerard returned.
“You are my world. I don’t know what I would do if I didn’t have you.” I said quietly.
“Shell we go and see how Esme is doing?” I asked and Gerard nodded since he liked Esme a lot.
“Come on then beautiful.” I said as I stood up and helped Gerard up and pulled him close to me and kissed him softly.
I pulled back and moved some hair from Gerard’s face.
“I’m so lucky to have you.” I whispered and Gerard smiled as I pulled him into a hug which Gerard returned.
“Let’s Get going.” I said quietly and let go off Gerard and caught hold of his hand and we walked to the hospital.

We got to the hospital and we went to the desk as we had no clue where Esme would be in the hospital.
“Hi, I was wondering if you could help me find my sister.” I said to the woman behind the desk and she looked at me.
“Her name is Esmeralda Iero, I don’t know what time she came in but I’m guessing there should only be one person with the name of Esmeralda.” I said and I felt Gerard give my hand a supportive squeeze.
“Yes there is a girl with that name, can I ask what relation you are to her?” The woman asked.
“She’s my sister.” I said and tapped my foot.
“Okay, she’s in paediatric ward which is on the 5th floor and you’ll have to ask the staff there to find out any other information about her.” The woman said and I smiled at her and looked at Gerard.
“Thanks so much.” I said and walked off dragging Gerard slightly behind me to a lift and we went to the 5th floor.
I walked round and found Mam and pa in the waiting room.
“Mam, Pa what’s happening?” I said which made them both jump and look at me and Gerard but they stayed quiet.
“Tell me what’s happening.” I said and Gerard put his other hand on my arm as he kept hold of my arm.
“Esme has a head injury and a broken jaw and she has bruised ribs.” Pa said.
“But she’s going to be okay though right?” I asked and Mam sniffed and I looked at her and back to pa.
“Esme has a bleed on the brain, the doctors have to keep a really close eye on her to make sure nothing happens.” Pa said.
“But she’s going to be okay.” I asked more seriously.
“The next 48 hours are touch and go Frank.” Pa said and I let go of Gerard’s hand and walked out the room.
“Frank.” I heard Gerard call after me.
“Frank slow down.” Gerard said but I carried on walking.
“Frankie please.” Gerard begged and I sighed loudly and stopped and turned round to see Gerard pulling me into a hug which I returned.
“She’s going to be okay Frank. Esme is a fighter.” Gerard said quietly and I hid my face more into his chest and breathed in his scent to help me calm down.
“We can’t lose her Gee, it would kill everyone especially Fred. We lost Jess, Mam and pa can’t lose their only girl.” I sniffed into Gerard chest and Gerard held me closer to him and I felt him kiss the top of my head.
“Your family aren’t going to lose her. Esme will fight this because your family will literally fight anything and anyone. I mean Vic is like a toddler still and he scares the shit out of me sometimes.” Gerard said and I chuckled and I looked at him.
“Vic is a sweetheart compared to Noah.” I said and Gerard smiled.
“See what I mean, your family knows how to stand up for themselves and they know how to fight. Esme will fight through this.” Gerard said and I looked at him and wrapped my arms round Gerard’s neck which made me stand on my tip toes and Gerard held me close to him.
“Everything is going to be okay.” Gerard whispered.
I heard a door open and shut and I looked over Gerard shoulder and saw Mam and pa watching me and Gerard.
I let go of Gerard and kissed him which Gerard returned and I caught hold of his hand as Gerard turned round to see Mam and pa watching us.
“Want to see your sister?” Pa asked and I nodded and followed Mam and pa to where Esme was.

We walked into the room and I held onto Gerard’s hand tightly.
Esme had a bandage round her head and had this thing round her jaw to keep it in place, she also was on a heart monitor and had a tube up her nose.
“The doctors have put her in a coma just so she can rest.” Mam said softly.
“Babe I need to leave.” Gerard said quietly and I looked at him.
“Don’t leave me please Don’t leave.” I said but I could see the pain in his eyes.
“I can’t stay in the room, I’ll be just outside but you need some time with your family without me and I can’t cope being in this room.” Gerard said and I smiled at him and kissed him.
“It’s fine, I understand. Just don’t run off please.” I said and Gerard smiled.
“I won’t.” Gerard said quietly and he smiled at Mam and pa and he walked out the room.
“What’s up with him?” Pa asked.
“You know about his PTSD, being in the hospital probably reminds him of when that bastard did all that stuff to him.” I said as I walked over to Esme.
“She’s going to be okay isn’t she?” I asked quietly as I put my hand on top of Esme.
“Yeah, she’ll be fine Frank.” Mam said and I looked at her.
“I can’t lose another sister Mam, it was bad enough when Jess died but if Esme dies I don’t think I could cope.” I said and felt my eyes well with tears.
“Don’t cry sweetie, Esme is going to be fine. She will get through this Okay. You ha e Gee to help you cope with this. Everything is different t this time round than when it was with Jess.” Mam said and she pulled me into a hug which I returned and I hid my face in her neck.
I felt Mam nodded and the door opening and shutting and doing the same a few seconds later.
“Frankie?” I heard Gerard say and I moved from Mam and looked at him.
“Let’s go home.” Gerard said and I looked at Esme as I let go off Mam and I felt Gerard catch hold of my hand which made me look at him.
“Let your mum and dad deal with being here and we have the little ones to look after.” Gerard said and I looked down and Gerard walked over and pulled me into a hug.
“I’ve got you babe.” Gerard whispered into my ear and I nodded and returned Gerard’s hug.
I pulled back and looked at Gerard who smiled at me and kissed my forehead.
I turned round and walked over to Esme and kissed her forehead and didn’t say anything as I walked back over to Gerard who caught hold of my hand and we went home.

When we got back Jamie was in charge of Vic, Noah and Freddie so Gerard went to see if Jamie could cope while I went into the caravan and just collapsed onto the bed and felt myself cry.
I heard the door open and shut and someone walking towards the bed.
“Baby don’t cry.” I heard Gerard say as he climbed onto the bed and pulled me into his chest.
I didn’t say anything and Gerard started to mess with my hair.
“I’ve got your back babe, I’m not going to let you fall.” Gerard whispered and I smiled slightly and hid my face in his chest and I put my hands up his top to warm my hands up since they was cold and Gerard didn’t seem to mind either.
“This feels strange normally it’s me comforting you.” I sniffed and Gerard chuckled.
“It does a little bit but I meant it when I say i can be here for you as well, it’s not just about me and my PTSD. We’re in this relationship together and we always have each other’s back.” Gerard said and I looked at him.
“You mean that?” I whispered and Gerard smiled and kissed me as he pushed me onto my back and Gerard was above me with his face just an inch away from mine.
“Yes, I’ve got your back and you have my back. Like how Harley Quinn has the jokers back.” Gerard said and I frowned at him.
“You watched Suicide Squad without me. You bastard.” I said and Gerard chuckled and kissed me.
“We could always watch it now.” Gerard said and I smiled and pulled his head down and kissed him again.
“I like where this is heading.” I said quietly and Gerard smirked slightly at me.
“What might that be.” Gerard said as he sat back and took his top off and I just stared at him.
I loved that Gerard was comfortable around me now and that he can happily walk around in just his pants and he trusts me a lot more than before.
“How can such a beautiful human just walk into my life?” I asked and Gerard chuckled with a smile on his face.

“Can ask myself the same question.” Gerard said as he kissed me.

Notes

Shit chapter