Bulletproof Heart

Gerard’s POV

”So you’re just going to give your education up just like that. Fuck Gee you actually have brains and you’re going to waste it by staying here all the time.” Frank said as he walked in the bathroom where I was having a shower.
”Frank, when I met you at school it was the first time I had actually been brave enough to go back to school after 3 years of not being in school and I haven’t exactly had the best attendance at this place so what’s the point in me being there.“ I said and Frank joined me in the shower.
”I don’t want you wasting your brains by not going to school and going to college and then regretting it down the line when you didn’t go to college and do the job you wanted to do.” Frank said and I turned round and looked at him as I pushed my hair out my face.
”I have my art, can always do something with that And photography but I’m a bit rusty at that since it’s been a while. Honestly I never thought I would get away from Eric and that I would even be alive so Yeah that’s that.” I said quietly and turned round so my back was to Frank.
Frank moved and he wrapped his hands round my waist and he kissed between my shoulders.
“But you are alive and you are free from him, are you really going to waste your life away because of him.” Frank said and I sighed loudly and looked down.
”I seriously don’t know Frank. I thought that when Eric got me again that I was going to be dead so I never thought about the future because I thought that if Eric didn’t kill me then I would just kill myself.” I said and I felt myself being spun round and Frank making me look at him as he moved me out the way a little so he could have a shower as well.
“You know I will support you with whatever choice you make.” Frank said and I smiled slightly at him and kissed him and Frank pulled me close to him.
”I need to have a shower and go to school, since I haven’t been for the last month.” Frank said and I pulled back and pouted at him.
”Don’t pull that face babe.” Frank said and I pulled it even more and frank gently caught hold of my chin and kissed me which I returned.
“Now bugger off and let me shower because I stink.” Frank said and I just smirked and got out the shower wrapping a towel round myself and went to the bedroom and dried myself off and put some pants on when someone knocked on the door.
”Get that Babe.” Frank said as I walked over and peered my head round the door.
”Like your going to answer the bloody door like that.” I said and Frank just stuck his middle finger up at me and I went to answer the door.

I answered the door and saw Fred standing there with Esme behind him.
”You’re not dressed?” Freddie asked.
”I am, just in Frank’s pants.” I said and Fred was looking at my scars on my chest and So was Esme but she was trying not to make is obvious.
”The chest and neck scars, not self inflicted, the arm and leg scars now that’s a different story along with my face and hands. Now that’s you questions answered about my scars what can I do to help.” I said in a sarcastic way.
”Where is Frank?” Fred asked.
”Just getting dressed just wait will you!” Frank said and I looked over and you could see Esme was full of questions but she decided not to ask.
”You not coming?” Esme asked and Frank came rushing through the caravan.
”Gee needs more time off.” Frank said as he sorted his hoodie out and I moved out the way.
”I have my phone on me if you need me.” Frank said as he walked over to me and kissed me which I returned.
”If you need company I’m sure Jamie would be happy with company.” Frank said and I nodded.
”Just think about what we talk about and I love you.” Frank whispered and kissed me again which I returned and frank rushed off with Freddie and Esme.
“Love you too.” I mumbled as I got up to sort the caravan out because it’s gotten into right state since the last time I cleaned it.

I was sat outside drawing when someone came over and sat next to me.
”Thought you would like some company since Frank is at school.” Jamie said and I looked at him and smiled as I put my drawing down.
”Was starting to feel lost without him nearby.” I said and Jamie chuckled.
”So you not going back to school?” Jamie asked and I shrugged my shoulders.
”I don’t know, I want to but at the same time I don’t feel like I’m able to go back.” I said and Jamie looked at me which made me feel uneasy.
”Don’t have to be afraid of me, dudes don’t float my boat at all and also I wouldn’t hit on my brothers girlfriends or boyfriend in Frank’s case.“ Jamie said.
”It’s kinda hard to trust people after what happened, Frank has literally just about got my trust.” I said and looked at Jamie who had a smirk on his face.
”But he has enough of your trust to fuck you into the mattress.” Jamie chuckled.
”Hey when you are a horny drunk better to make the most of it.” I said and chuckled again.
”That is very true.” Jamie said and I smiled.
”Did Frank ask you to come and talk me out of dropping out of school?” I asked quietly.
”Nope, but he did ask me to come and check on you though. He worries a lot about you.” Jamie said and I sighed and looked down.
”He shouldn’t be worrying about me. Sure he has plenty to worry about other than me.” I said.
”Look I’m gonna tell you some shit about Frank, but you need to keep an open mind and don’t go turn on him because he really does love you, I mean he was willing to wait to have sex with you which is something Frank doesn’t do since he likes sex too much.” Jamie said and I just nodded.
”We used to have a sister called Jess. Frank absolutely adored her when he was little as in our culture girls can choose if they want to carry on with school and go to secondary school or they stay at home and help mam around the house and with the kids.” Jamie said and he looked at me to see if I was still listening which I was.
”What happened to her? Frank never talks about her.” I said and Jamie looked down.
”I was 10 and Frank was 8 when Jess got killed by someone who didn’t like Gypsies.” Jamie said quietly and I moved closer to him and pulled him to my side.
”How old was she?” I asked.
”She was my twin, but Frank never talks about her as it really still feels raw to him, like it was olnly yesterday.” Jamie said.
”Why you telling me this?” I asked as I moved away and I looked at Jamie.
”I’m telling you because Frank worked himself up to have a really bad reputation and the police was here most days saying that Frank has gotten into trouble. There was one weekend where Frank went on a massive drug and alcohol binge and we had the police on the phone saying that Frank was in custody for his own good and so he could sober up. After that Frank was old enough to know what sex was amd that’s what he did. Christ he has fucked some right oddballs. But he suddenly changed and he didn’t sleep around and i asked him what was going on and he said he found a gorger which he wants to be friends with and get to know. That was you. Frank changed when he saw you, I’ve never seen Frank care so much about someone who wasn’t in our family. You are literally changing my brother and you don’t realize it and you’re changing him for the good and Frank is getting more like his old self again.” Jamie said and I looked down.
”He really loves you.” Jamie said and I looked at him.
”I’ve seen the way he looks at you, the way he acts around you and how he looks after you, he has never acted like that with any of the people he has been with like he has been with you.“ Jamie said and I smiled and Jamie chuckled.
”I know you feel exactly the same towards him. All I can say is that I’m happy or the both of you and that you really couldn’t of have a nicer person to be with.” Jamie said and I looked at him.
”Thanks Jamie.” I said quietly and Jamie smiled.
”I need to go back to work, your going to be okay aren’t you?” Jamie asked and I nodded.
”Yeah, I have my drawing I’m working on to keep me busy for a while.” I said and Jamie nodded.
”Take it easy Gee.” Jamie said as he walked off.
”You too.” I muttered as I got up and went inside and carried on working on my drawing.

”Gee, wake up.” I heard Frank say and felt myself being shook.
”Fuck off and let me have a nap.” I mumbled as I went to roll over and I felt a pair of arms round me.
”Babe it’s like 4 in the afternoon, if you sleep now you’ll be up all night.” Frank said and I groaned as I opened my eyes and saw Frank’s tattooed chest.
”I didn’t sleep well last night.” I mumbled and frank messed with my hair.
”I did notice since you couldn’t stay still for no more than 5 minutes and that you literally binged watched that show we was both watching together, so I want no spoilers.” Frank said and I looked up at Frank.
”I’m sorry if I kept you up last night.” I said quietly as I sat up and I looked and noticed Frank only had his pants on which made me frown.
”You didn’t keep me up as I was flat out.” Frank said and I nodded as I sat on his legs.
”Find something you like?” Frank asked as I just zoned out on looking at his tattoos.
I lent down and started to kiss his tattoos until I got to his lips where I kissed him which frank returned.
”Jamie told me about Jess.” I said quietly and looked at Frank who looked away from me.
”You can talk to me about her if you want. I would like to hear about her.” I said and lent down and kissed Frank again again.
”She doesn’t have to be a secret here.” I said quietly and kissed Frank again and looked at him and Frank smiled sadly at me.
”I’m here when you want to talk.” I said and got off Frank Amd he caught hold of my hand which made me look at him.
”Where you going?” Frank asked quietly.
”Well I haven’t eaten all day so I’m pretty hungry, Dunno about you but I could do with some food.” I said and Frank sat up and caught hold of my hand which made me look at him.
”I love you.” Frank said as I looked at him.
”I love you too.” I said and bent down and kissed him.
”You coming to help me cook?” I asked and Frank pulled me onto top of him which took me by surprise as I was rolled onto my back and Frank was hovering above me.
”Can I help you?” I asked and Frank kissed me.
”Just wanted to kiss you.” Frank said and kissed me again.
”Well You’ve done that, now can I go and get something to eat as I’m really hungry.” I pouted and Frank chuckled and had this look on his face.
”Frank please.” I said and Frank kissed me as he started to tickle me which made me break away from the kiss and started to move away from Frank while laugh.
”Frank stop it!” I said between laughing and Frank laughing as well but he wasn’t going to give up.
”Seriously you’ll get hurt I’m not going to say sorry.” I said as I managed to get myself on top of Frank and pinned his hands above his head.
”Enough, let me go and eat as you was moaning he other day I wasn’t eating enough.” I said.
“Fine, I’ll let you eat but I’m helping.” Frank said and knocked me off him.
I looked at him and he looked a bit pissed off.
”Have I done something wrong?” I asked quietly as I looked down.
”No you haven’t baby. Let’s go and get something to eat.” Frank said as he made me look at him.
“Yeah I have because You was fine a second ago and now you look pissed off.” I said and Frank sighed.
”I just had a really shit day at school and I was hoping to have some stress relief but it doesn’t matter.” Frank said and he moved away and I caught hold of his hand.
”Just let me get something to eat and we can do whatever you want.” I said as I looked down.
”Yeah whatever.” Frank said as he pulled a top on and some bottoms as well as his shoes and he got up and walked off.
”Where you going?” I asked and Frank spun and looked at me harshly and I looked down straight away.
”It doesn’t concern you.” Frank said seriously and I nodded and Frank walked off and I flinched when he slammed the door shut.
I tried not to cry but it didn’t work and I started to cry as I sat myself on the floor getting something to eat completely forgotten about.

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