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Bulletproof Heart

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Frank’s POV

I woke up with the biggest hangover going and my mouth dry as fuck and my neck had this dull throbbing pain about it.
I moved my hand to touch my neck and where I touched it hurt and I couldn’t help but frown and silently ask myself why the fuck my neck hurt.
I looked over to Gerard and he didn’t have a top on which wasn’t like Gerard as he would normally put a top on and when he sensed I was awake he would normally take it off but since he was still sound asleep I’m guessing he doesn’t know I’m awake yet.
I went to move but groaned loudly as I felt really sick and my hangover just got worse when I moved but I couldn’t cope with my mouth being as dry as it was so I forced myself to roll out of bed to go and get myself a drink.
It wasn’t until I got back into bed that I noticed I was naked and the bed sheets weren’t the same as yesterday so I looked under the covers and noticed that Gerard was also naked which made me frown again and tried to rack my brain on what the hell happened last night.
I was pulled out my thought by Gerard slamming his hand down on the bedding which I was still holding up and him rolling over groaning loudly as he did so and he opened his eyes but quickly shut them again.
I looked at Gerard and noticed the hickies round his neck and along his collarbone and I went to lift the covers up again when Gerard groaned again.
“Stop lifting the fucking covers up will you.” Gerard grumbled sounding like he was still fucked from last night.
“Hey, do you remember last night and why you’re covered in hickies.” I said quietly as I lead back down and faced Gerard.
“Minus the sex nope I don’t remember.” Gerard mumbled which made me frown and then last night came back to mind and I couldn’t help but smile as I moved closer to Gerard and lifted his arm up and put it round my body as I cuddled up to him.
“Fuck my head and ass hurts.” Gerard said and I had to chuckle at this.
“Same here.” I said quietly.
“Fuck my mouth is dry as fuck. Feels like sandpaper.” Gerard said and I rolled over and sat up and got my glass of water.
“Sit up and you can have some water.” I said and Gerard sat up and put his hand to his head and shut his eyes tightly.
“Here’s the glass.” I said softly and Gerard took the glass and pretty much downed it and he lead back down groaning in the progress.
“You got any painkillers?” Gerard asked and I shrugged my shoulders.
“Dunno, haven’t felt this hungover for a while.” I said as I got comfy and cuddled into Gerard chest as he put his arm round my body.
“Well that’s just shit.” Gerard mumbled as he fell back asleep again and I smiled and kissed the end of his nose and got comfy again and fell asleep.

When I next woke up Gerard was walking back in the bedroom just a oversized jumper on and that was just it.
“Babe.” I whined which made Gerard jump and look at me and he smiled as he climbed back into bed being careful not to spill what smelt like coffee.
“Yes.” Gerard said as I moved to his side and Gerard looked for something to watch on Netflix.
“I feel like shit.” I said and Gerard chuckled as he took a sip of his coffee and put it on the bedside table and he started to mess with my hair.
“Join the club.” Gerard said quietly as he got himself comfy and I cuddled into his side and sighed feeling content.
“Do you regret last night?” I asked and looked at Gerard who looked back at me with a frown and a hint of sadness in his eyes.
“I don’t, but you do. Don’t you?” Gerard said sadly as he looked away from me.
“Babe, I don’t regret it but I don’t want you to think I was taking advantage of you because you was drunk and high.” I said and reached over to make Gerard look at me but he keep on looking down and away from my eye.
“I don’t think you took advantage of me. I wanted it just as much as you did but obviously I must be mistaken.” Gerard said and moved away from me and got out of bed and he pulled some pants on.
“Gee you weren’t mistaken but I don’t want you to be scared of me.” I said and Gerard scoffed.
“Last night was the first time I have been able to trust anyone to have sex with me, yeah I had that confidence boost from the alcohol and weed but I wanted it. Last night was the first time I was able to do anything sexual and have somebody touch my body, my scars, and not think about what Eric and the other people did to me. I felt like I had managed to let go of the past, I felt normal for the first time in a very long time and I guess it was fucking pointless.” Gerard said as he stood up and I sat up, catching hold of his hand and pulled him back down onto the bed.
“Gee I’m glad that you can trust me to have sex with you and that I’m able to touch you without you thinking I’m that bastard. It wasn’t pointless.” I said and Gerard sniffed loudly and he looked at me and he was crying.
“Then why do I feel like you never wanted it, at the time you did but now you regret it? I feel like last night was the biggest mistake of your life but you are forcing yourself to say that it wasn’t pointless just so you don’t hurt my feelings.” Gerard said with the odd sniff between what he was saying.
“What the fuck has gotten into you? You wanted sex last night and we fucking had sex, which by the way I really enjoyed with you, and now you are turning around saying that I regret having sex with you and that it was pointless so I don’t hurt your feelings. I don’t find sex with anyone pointless. Right now I feel fucking hurt that you actually think that little off me that I would say that.” I said seriously and Gerard looked away from me and pulled his hand away from mine and used his hands to hide his face and he was really crying now.
I sighed and wrapped myself up in the covers and sat next to Gerard and put my hand on his leg and ran my thumb over a scar which he had and I was waiting for him to pull his leg away and was surprised when he didn’t.
“Babe you need to stop thinking that I’m Eric and that everything I do is pointless or is aimed to hurt you because everything I do isn’t pointless and I would never dream on hurting you. Fuck never in a million years would I hurt you like that bastard has hurt you. But you need to understand that if you keep on thinking everyone is like Eric then you’ll end up pushing everyone away. Yes I can cope with you throwing all this at me because I thick skinned and I really love you Gee, but I could of been someone who couldn’t cope with you and I could of left you as soon as you started to freak out on me or you going off on one of Your mood swings. I don’t give a shit about the mood swings, but some people could take what you say to heart because Babe you really do say some pretty horrible things when you’re on a roll. “ I said and Gerard sniffed loudly and I pulled him into my side and kissed the top of his head.
“You can throw fucking anything at me and I won’t batter a eyelid unless it’s a knife and then I might have to do something. But I’m not leaving you anytime soon, I care way to much about you for my good sometimes.” I said and Gerard looked at me.
“I’m not Eric, I am Frank and I would never dream on hurting you and I fucking love you too death you crazy bastard.” I said and Gerard smiled as he looked down and I pulled him into my lap and I kissed his tear covered cheek and I gently started to dry his eyes and cheeks from the tears and held him close to me as I rocked myself side to side and resting my chin on top of his head.
“Would Eric do this too You after hurting you like he did or if you cried?” I asked softly and Gerard shook his head and sniffed.
“No, he would slap me and tell me to man up.” Gerard hiccup and I just held him closer to me.
“See, me and him are nothing alike. Unless someone is trying to hit on you then I can’t promise on hurting them but I would never lay a hand on you Unless it is to slap that ass of yours.” I said and looked at Gerard who had a smile on his face.
“I love you Gee, please don’t confuse me with him.” I said quietly and made Gerard look at me.
“Shell we go and have a shower and see if mam is cooking anything good to eat because I don’t know about you but I’m starving.” I said and Gerard chuckled quietly and nodded.
I lent down and kissed him softly which Gerard returned.
“Let Go then.” I said and Gerard moved from my lap but I pulled him back onto my lap and kissed him again and lead back on the bed bringing Gerard with me and soon we was having sex.

“Franklin what are those on Gerard’s neck!?” Mam asked as she pointed at Gerard neck where there was 5 very noticeable hickies on his neck.
“A few hickies.” I said as I shrugged my shoulders and went to make me and Gerard a drink.
“A few, Frank his neck is covered.” Mam said.
“Should see the rest of his body then.” I muttered and Gerard slapped my chest as mam smack me round the back of the head.
“Don’t gang up on me I’m only little.” I said as I moved to hide behind Gerard.
“You need to quit while your ahead of yourself.” Gerard said as he looked at me.
“Not my fault your like a vampire.” I said and Gerard rolled his eyes at me and watched me make us a drink.
“You two better hide them as your maimeó and daideó are coming over.” Mam said and I groaned loudly and head butted Gerard’s shoulder.
“Why? They know we are all going to be hungover after last night.” I said.
“They wanted to come and see Jamie and see everyone else. So to have Gee here is going to be a surprise for them.” Mam said.
“Maimeó and daideó know I’m gay so why would it be a surprise.” I said confused.
“Because you are finally learning how to fucking settle down and be sensible instead of sleeping around.” Mam said and I glared at her.
“Yes I was a slut, no need to keep on bringing it up.” I said and looked at Gerard who looked like he didn’t really care which I was glad about.
“Also maimeó and daideó don’t give a shit about these.” I said and pointed to Gerard’s hickies and he just put his hand over at them while he was glaring at me out the corner of his eye.
“Fine.” Mam huffed and walked out the room and I sighed loudly and lent against the side and Gerard looked at me.
“You going to translate what the fuck those words meant?” Gerard asked and I chuckled.
“Maimeó means grandmother in Irish I think but I don’t have a clue and it’s the same with daideó but that obviously means grandfather.” I said and Gerard frowned which made me chuckle.
“Have to warn you though maimeó and daideó have really strong Irish accents and it’s really hard to understand them.” I said and Gerard sighed and looked down.
“You okay?” I asked and Gerard nodded and he looked at me with a smile which I couldn’t work out if it was fake or not.
“Yeah, I was just thinking but it doesn’t matter.” Gerard said.
“You sure?” I asked and Gerard nodded.
“Yeah, I’m fine stop worrying.” Gerard said and kissed me and I put my mug on the side along with Gerard’s and I turned and pinned him to the side as we made out.
“Christ I’m way too hungover to be seeing you two make out.” Freddie said as he walked out to the kitchen and made himself a coffee.
“That’s because you’re jealous.” I said and Freddie looked at us.
“How the fuck aren’t you two hungover, my head is literally about to explode.” Fred said as he rubbed his head and went looking for painkillers in the cupboard.
“We are very hungover. We can just hide it better than you.” I said and Jamie walked in and he smirked at me and Gerard and I still had pinned to the side and Gerard gently pushed me away which I let him do.
“Have you told him the news yet?” Jamie asked and I shook my head.
“What news? Fuck is someone in the family dead or something?” Freddie asked.
“That maimeó and daideó are coming round to stay for a few days.” Jamie said and Freddie groaned loudly.
“That’s all what my head needs right now is 2 Irish people talking loudly and having to translate what their saying. Seriously can’t cope with that.” Fred said and Esme joined us tying her long hair up and stealing Fred’s coffee.
“Hey.” Fred said and Esme looked at him.
“I’m your twin, I’m allowed.” Esme said and drank the coffee.
Fred muttered something under his breath.
“You four need to get yourselves sorted out right now, pa will be here with maimeó and daideó in half an hour.” Mam said as Vic coming running in with Noah chasing him both of them laughing.
“Careful the both of you, don’t want another trip to hospital this month.” Mam said.
I looked at Gerard who was lost inside his head but he was slowly coming round to being in the loud household.
“Well what you lot waiting for. Drag your hungover arses to where you need to be and get changed.” Mam said and clapped her hands which made all four of us flinch slightly but we moved and got changed and waited for maimeó and daideó to show.

After a day of being round my grandparents and the rest of the family I think Gerard was just glad to get back to the caravan and have some peace.
“Your family is fucking loud.” Gerard said as he sat in the living area.
“You’ll get used to it, anyway you better get used to it if you want to be with me.” I said and Gerard looked at me and smiled.
“So your gran calls you arse bandit, why does she call you that?” Gerard asked as I sat next to him.
“It’s an Irish way of calling a gay person. Maimeó has been calling me arse bandit since I came out when I was 12. She doesn’t mean it to be horrible but there’s some people who mean it in a nasty way.” I said and Gerard chuckled.
“I’m shattered, I’m going to call it a night.” Gerard yawned as he stood up.

“Am I allowed to join?” I asked and Gerard looked at me and offered me his hand which I took as I stood up and we both got changed and put a film on but I don’t think neither of us got very fair with watching it as we both fell asleep.

Notes

Comments

Please don't doubt your writing. The characters draw you in & you want to stay for the ride! I know anyone who writes is critical of their own work (I am ;-), but the beauty is in allowing the creative process to flow.

I caught up on all 29 chapters in just 2 days. My poor Gee. Frank is so real, hot-headed, caring & loving - love it.

Morgawse Morgawse
3/5/18

Loving this!
Poor Gee, That bastard really did a number on him, messed him up good. I hope Frank can help him to recover and take control of himself again.
xxx

I will tell you what I tell every writer who puts down their own smut...ALL SMUT IS GOOD SMUT!!
Loving this!
xxx

this isn't shit at all! love it<3

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11/20/17

Poor gee:( love all The fluff tho;)

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11/11/17