Unspeakably Unique
Chapter Sixteen
F
I waited outside Gerard's house, shifting from foot to foot. It was his first day back at school after nearly a month off. I smiled at him as he shuffled out of his door, taking the steps slowly and painfully. I helped him gently, holding his hand tightly. “Hey, Gee,” I murmured, pecking him on the lips. “You okay? Ready for school?”
He snorted and just clung to my hand shakily. He was wearing jeans, more loose fitting than his usual skin-tight variety, with a baggy hoodie on top. I recognized it as one of mine, but didn't say anything as I started to walk him down the street slowly. His ribs were still hurting him a lot, and he needed help for stairs and just general support.
By the time lunch rolled around, I was tired and Gerard was exhausted. He was avoiding all his friends, so we sat outside, eating lunch quietly.
“Gee?”
“Mhm?”
“Did you want that present I got you yet?”
Gerard sighed and looked at me. “Is it clothes?”
“No, baby. Not clothes,” I said gently, but my fingers curled into a fist against my leg. “I promise.”
He nodded slightly and I rummaged in my backpack, bringing out a small box. “It's not much, but I didn't really have much to spend,” I mumbled, biting my lip. “Um. I hope you like them.”
Gerard lifted the lid off the box and blinked, looking at the enamel heart-shaped necklace. “Frankie..”
“It's double-sided,” I murmured, rubbing my eyes nervously. He turned it over and smiled softly. “This is perfect, Frankie…”
He took it out of the box and then frowned, poking the little bird charm. “What's this?”
I leaned back and lifted my shirt up, showing him the new birds tattooed on my hips. “It's one of these,” I smiled shyly. “I've been planning this tattoo for a while and I thought you'd like a charm to go with it..” My smile faded and I suddenly felt sick. “Do you like it?”
Gerard giggled softly, pulling me into a gentle kiss. “Of course, Frankie. It's lovely, but if you don't mind, I won't put it on here...cause I'm not really out..”
I nodded slightly. On one side of the heart was the non-binary flag, while the other showed the intersex flag, so it was understandable that he was unsure of wearing it at school. I kissed his cheek and he frowned. “Frankie?”
“Yeah, baby?”
“Do you think you could get the charm off this one and put it on my key one? Cause I wear that one everyday..”
I nodded slightly. “Absolutely, Gee. But I'd need a pair of pliers, so how about when we get home?”
“Sounds good,” Gerard smiled, resting his head on my shoulder. “I love you.”
“I love you too.”
Chris glanced at me as I slipped into the room. Ricky was sitting with him, going through some kind of paperwork. “Hey, Frank,” he said without looking up.
“Hi.”
Chris frowned and got up, walking over to me just as I burst into tears. “Frankie?” He stroked my hair slowly, letting me cling to him as he crouched down slightly to face me. “Frankie, what's wrong? Don't cry, sweetie..”
Ricky got up from the sofa, smiling at me and touching Chris's shoulder lightly. “I'll be in the other room, okay?”
“Thanks baby,” he mumbled, then gently steered me over to the couch and sat down, tugging me into his lap. I curled up tightly, burying my face in his shoulder as I sobbed softly, shaking all over.
After I'd calmed down enough to talk, Chris kissed the side of my head. “Frankie...what's wrong, hon? Huh?”
I curled up a little tighter, drying my face on my sleeve. “It's dumb..”
“No, Frankie. It's not dumb because it's upset you. You can tell me, I promise..”
“It is dumb. I'm crying cause of Gerard..”
“What about him?” Chris murmured, running his fingers through my hair.
“He's not...he's scared to dress like he likes to because he thinks that's why he got raped and it just makes me so s-sad and a-angry..”
Chris sighed softly and rubbed my back slowly. “Frankie, you can't fix everything, hon. Just tell him, okay? Talk to him, tell him over and over that it wasn't his fault. However many times it takes, and be patient. He’ll take a long time to heal. You're still healing.”
“B-but it's different for me,” I mumbled, drying my cheeks and looking away. “I had six years to come to terms with shit. I know it was never my fault. It wasn't random, not like it was for Gee.”
“I know, Frankie. I know how hard it is to watch someone you love in pain. You just have to do your best for them, and hope it's enough. Gerard will be okay one day, whether it takes weeks, months, or years. You can't rush him..”
I sniffed, nodding slightly. “It just hurts so bad, Chris..”
He took my hand gently, squeezing it tight. “I know. I know, Frankie. And that's why you want to be with him now, I understand. I wanted to just hold you all day when you first got here. I wanted to smother you and force you to feel better. But it didn't work, did it? When I took a step back, you started coming to me with things and started to work out what exactly would make you feel better. And then when we both had breathing space, you started to heal.”
I squinted at him, slipping off his lap. “You think I should take a step back from Gee?”
He nodded slightly, stroking my hair slowly. “Yes. Stop asking if he's okay every five seconds, don't act like his fragile, just treat him normally. You don't have to stop being with him all day, you just have to not smother him. He’ll work out what he wants.”
I got a phone call from Gerard a week later, while I was just getting into bed. “Hey,” I murmured as I picked it up. “What's up, Gee?”
“I wanted to talk to you about something,” he muttered, sounding nervous. “I um. I want us to have sex again.”
I blinked, sitting up in bed and flicking the light back on. “Baby? Do you really think that's the best idea right now?”
“No,” Gerard sighed, and I could tell he was biting his lip. “But it's the best one I've got. I can still feel it, Frankie. This pressure. All the time, I just want it to go away..”
He was sniffling already, so I took a deep breath. “Chris is going on an overnight thing with Ricky this weekend, I'll talk to him about having you over. Okay? But I do want you to think about this carefully, yeah? Make sure it's what you want..”
Gerard smiled, I could hear it in his voice. “Okay. Thanks, Frankie.”
“Anytime, beautiful. You're my favorite person.”
He giggled softly and hummed. “You always make me feel so wanted and loved.”
“That's because you are,” I chuckled, smiling to myself. “You sound a little more cheery tonight.”
“Mikey had Pete over this afternoon and they were getting cute on the couch and then I came down and we all played video games together. It was nice, it made me forget, I guess.”
“Good,” I purred softly. “I'm very glad, Gee baby.”
“Would you be excited to have sex with me again?” Gerard asked after a short pause.
“Of course,” I smiled, laying back and looking up at the ceiling. “I love your body, Gee, and I love making you feel good.”
“I want to try sucking you this time,” Gerard said shyly, with a low giggle. “To pay you back.”
“Alright, sweetie. But I think we should just do basics first, and see how you feel from there.”
“Yeah, okay..”
I sighed quietly, glancing at my clock. “I gotta go, Gee, I have that math test tomorrow and I need sleep.”
“Hmm, okay,” Gerard murmured. “I love you.”
“I love you too. Goodnight, baby.”
Gerard walked into the hallway, smiling at me nervously as he kicked his shoes off. “Frankie? Can we just get it over with?”
I blinked and shook my head. “Nuh-uh. You're not a hooker, Gee, you're my boyfriend and I love you. We’re not gonna do it for the sake of it. We can start right now, but we’re not rushing..”
He went bright red and nodded slightly. “O-okay, Frankie.”
I kissed his cheek softly and brushed his hair behind his ears lightly. “I'll be so gentle with you. I promise. Just like last time. And the same things, yeah? Remember you promised to tell me to stop.”
Gerard nodded, shifting closer to me. I ruffled his hair lightly. “Come on. Upstairs we go..”
I gently led Gerard up to my room, pushing the door open slowly. He stepped inside and gasped. “Fuck, Frankie..”
I slipped in after him, closing the door silently. “All for you,” I murmured as he looked around the room, at the rose petals on the bed and the candles burning all around the room.
I pulled the curtains and kissed Gerard softly, starting to unbutton his shirt slowly. His breath hitched and I kissed his jaw. “It's okay, Gee. Would you rather undress yourself?”
He nodded quickly and I smiled, stepping back and slipping my jeans and shirt off. I went to the bedside table, pulling out lube and condoms, setting them both on the top.
“I'm anxious, Frankie,” Gerard said quietly. I turned and smiled at him.
“Don't be. It'll be just like our first couple times, gentle and slow and easy. You'll be just fine.”
I kicked my boxers away as Gerard climbed onto the bed. I watched his ass, grinning to myself and feeling my cock twitch.
“You're beautiful,” I said out loud, climbing up next to him and kissing the back of his shoulder. He shivered and I purred softly, running a fingertip down his spine. “Shh. I've got you..”
He laid down on his side, his back facing me, so I grabbed the lube and coated one finger, slowly pushing it into him. He didn't really react.
“You okay, baby?” I asked gently, kissing the back of his neck. “Is this okay?”
Gerard nodded slightly. “I just want you in me, Frankie. I don't want all this..”
“It'll hurt..”
“I don't care. Please?”
“Okay, beautiful.”
I pulled my finger out of him and wiped it off before rolling a condom on and lubing myself up.
“I've got you..”
I threw a leg over his hips, lining myself up and pushing in a little quicker than I'd meant to. Gerard gasped, tensing, but quickly relaxed, letting out a soft whimper. I buried my face in his neck, moving in and out carefully, trying to build up a good speed. Gerard reached behind him, grabbing at my hand. “F-fuck...Frankie, I w-want you to pound me! R-really...I just want that c-cock balls deep in me...p-please!”
I couldn't resist the begging, rolling him onto his stomach, then pulling him up on his hands and knees. I grabbed ahold of his hair and one of his shoulders carefully, starting to growl as I slammed in and out of the squealing boy underneath me. He grabbed at my hands and screamed and cried and shook, but I kept going. I was pounding him, but fairly slowly, still conscious of who the ass under me belonged to. After a couple minutes of this, I reached under him, starting to rub at the head of his little cock quickly, grinning as his screams only increased in volume and laughing triumphantly as he slammed his hips back against mine and arched his back, his ass tightening around my cock as he came. The shifting of his muscles pushed me over the edge and I groaned, thrusting a couple more times into Gerard's sensitive hole. He whimpered, then sighed as I slid out of him, kissing his tailbone. “Shh, Gee..” I murmured as I cleaned up. He was still on his hands and knees, shaking badly, his freshly dyed red hair falling over his face. I touched his bare side lightly. “Gee baby? Are you alright?”
He suddenly collapsed, whimpering as he curled up. I knelt in front of him, stroking his hair frantically. “Gee? Are you alright?”
He grinned at me sleepily, grabbing at my cheeks lightly. “F-fuck...I'm great...t-tired..”
I smiled and pulled Gerard into my arms, rubbing his bare back slowly. “Oh baby...I got kind of carried away, are you feeling okay?”
Gerard kissed my cheek softly, snuggling closer to me and burying his face in my neck. “I'm perfect. I wanna try sucking you, but I'm too tired..”
I chuckled and stroked his hair slowly, running my fingertips over his slender side. “Maybe after a nap.”
“Yeah.”
I wandered around the house in my boxers, drinking Ricky's whiskey and singing to myself. Gerard was still asleep upstairs, and I had gotten bored. That was one good thing about having Ricky around - alcohol. Chris never touched the stuff, so there had never been any open bottles in the house, until Ricky had brought his own. I had only had a couple fingers by the time Gerard walked downstairs, completely naked. He’d redone his hair and makeup, and looked absolutely stunning as he walked up to me. I grinned and waved the bottle at him. “Want some?”
Gerard nodded quickly, smiling at me shyly. I kissed him and poured him a glass, then put the bottle back in the cupboard. I knew not to take too much in one go. Gerard knocked the whiskey back easily, then kissed me hard, pushing me back against the kitchen counter, his fingers tangled in my hair. Suddenly his lips parted from mine and he sank to his knees, tugging my boxers out of the way before licking up the inside of my thigh.
“Ahh, fuck yes,” I muttered, setting my glass down and tangling my fingers in Gerard’s hair. He glanced up at me, uncertainty masked by the slight drunken air. He kissed the head of my already hard and leaking dick, then took my head into his mouth slowly. I bucked up at the feeling and accidentally hit the back of his throat, causing him to choke and gag.
I pulled out of Gerard's mouth and went to my knees quickly, feeling myself sober up almost immediately as Gerard gagged again, hanging his head. Tears dripped off the end of his nose, his body trembling. I pulled him into my arms, nuzzling the side of his head. “Shit, Gee. I didn't mean to-...fuck!...I swear I didn't mean to hurt you. I'm so so sorry..”
Gerard started to sob, clinging to me as he fell apart. “I'm u-useless! I'm s-sorry...so s-sorry. I'm a sh-shitty boyfriend..”
“No, baby, I'm the shitty boyfriend,” I sighed, rocking him back and forth slowly. “I shouldn't have been drinking. That was really stupid of me and I'm sorry. No more alcohol when you're over, I promise. Now how about I get you a popsicle and we go sit outside? It's a nice day today.”
Gerard shook his head, shivering in my arms. “I w-wanna stay inside..”
“Okay. Go sit on the couch, baby,” I murmured, stroking his cheek slowly. “I'll be right back.”
I helped Gerard to the couch, then hurried off, coming back with two pairs of pajama pants. I grabbed a popsicle from the freezer on my way into the living room. Gerard was curled up under a blanket on the couch, still sniffling. I sighed and handed him the treat, then pulled the blanket away, ignoring his protests as I slipped the pants over his legs. “Shh, baby..” I kissed his cheek, smiling at him sadly. “Just relax. I love you. I do..”
“I'm s-sorry-”
“Shh. I shouldn't have let you try and I shouldn't have hurt you. It's my fault, Gee.”
I slipped my pair of pants on and sat down next to him, my hand resting on his thigh lightly. “Today was meant to make you feel better, and I fucked it up..”
Gerard smiled at me, his lips red from the popsicle. “You didn't fuck it up. I do feel better, I just...it hurt and it scared me..”
“I know, I'm sorry,” I sighed, wrapping an arm around him tightly. “Maybe we can save that for another day, yeah? It's not a big deal, Gee. I might have to take you up for round two later, though.”
He giggled softly and smiled at me shyly. “Can we do it in the bath? I've always wanted to try..”
The lavender-scented water sloshed around us as Gerard bounced up and down on my cock eagerly, letting his head fall back as he reached down and held onto my thighs, rolling his hips in a way that a person who'd only had sex three times before should not know how to do. I was thoroughly enjoying myself until I looked a little closer. Gerard's torso was even more pale than usual, and I could practically see his ribs through his milky skin, his hips jutting out uncomfortably. He slowed his movements and sat up slightly, looking at me worriedly.
“Frankie? Did I do something wrong?”
“Fuck no!” I said quickly, a little too quickly as it made him jump. “No, baby. I just...I can see all your ribs and you look very pale..”
He laughed softly. “I'm always very pale. And I lost weight after...y'know..” He trailed off, his smile fading.
“Well. I'd like you to put on some weight for me,” I answered gently, but matter-of-factly. “I'm worried about you.”
Gerard nodded slightly, leaning down to kiss me. “I love you, Frankie.”
I purred softly as he rolled his hips again, this time almost in a circular motion. “Fuck! I l-love you too, baby..”
Gerard grinned, starting to bounce again eagerly, fucking himself on me brutally and screaming out each time I thrust up to meet him and hit his prostate. It wasn't long at all before Gerard bucked his hips one last time and shuddered before sliding off me. I wrapped a hand around myself, jerking off quickly as I studied Gerard wallowing in his orgasm.
I came almost immediately, sighing in relief and sinking down in the bath. “Shiiit. That was perfect, Gee. You're perfect..”
Gerard climbed on top of me again, laying half on my chest this time as he curled up, closing his eyes. “I'm extra fuckin’ sleepy now..”
“Then sleep, beautiful. I can take you to bed in a bit.”
Gerard was crying in his sleep when I woke up the next morning. I yawned and stretched and then noticed the tears on his cheeks. I shook him awake quickly, kissing him softly. “Gerard! Baby..”
He shifted and opened his eyes, blinking up at me with more tears falling down his cheeks. I wiped them away quickly, frowning at him.
“What's going on, sweetie?”
“I h-had a bad d-dream..”
I pulled him into a tight hug, kissing the side of his head softly. “Oh baby. You're okay, baby. I'm here. Frankie’s here...what was it about, Gee?”
“Y-you leaving m-me..”
I sighed and pulled him even closer to me, kissing him softly. “Don't be silly. I'm not going anywhere, Gee. I love you, Gerard Arthur Way, and I'm pretty sure I'm in love with you too. I can teach someone to suck dick but I can't teach them to be beautiful and loving and kind and unique and as perfect as you.”
Gerard sniffed, burying his face in my shoulder and clinging to me. I rubbed his back slowly as he sobbed, letting him just cry it out.
Once he'd stopped crying and calmed down completely, Gerard sat up, slipping his hand under the covers. He trailed his fingers down my chest, then started palming my dick through my pajamas, causing me to moan and try to push him away.
“Gee.”
“I want to!”
He smiled at me a little nervously, slipping his hand under the waistband of my pajamas, wrapping his fingers around my length tightly. I gasped and threw the covers away so I could watch what he was doing. He grinned and let go of me, quickly pulling my pajama pants off before kicking his own away. Then Gerard spread my legs, kneeling down in between them and starting to pump my cock quickly, his small hand sliding up and down easily. I groaned and bucked up, but Gerard flicked my balls.
“Shit! What the fuck?!”
He grinned at me. “No bucking, Frank.”
I moaned again, watching his face. “Holy fuck, you're hot when you take charge.”
Gerard smiled and started to pump me again, this time running the heel of his hand over my head every time he stroked up. This got me hard in a matter of seconds and Gerard hunkered down, one hand wrapped around the base of my dick, the other hand cradling my balls. “No bucking, Frank,” he growled, then kissed my tip before pulling me into his mouth, sucking on the head lightly. I whimpered, grabbing onto the sheets either side of me as I tried to stifle the buck. It didn't work and I felt myself slide higher in Gerard’s mouth just before he pinched my balls and I cried out in pain, jerking away. “Come on, Frankie,” Gerard purred sweetly, clearly enjoying the power way too much. “It's only one simple rule.”
And then he went down, pulling me all the way into the back of his throat, tightening his muscles around my head. I started to relax, slipping one hand into his hair. “God, Gee. I n-need you..”
He smiled and pulled back off with a wet pop, smirking at me. “Beg.”
I nearly came there and then, but instead just whined softly. “Fuck..Gee, please baby, please! I n-need you to suck me off, I'm so turned on, I need you to relieve me..”
Gerard put two fingers up to my mouth, grinning. “Suck.”
I nodded and opened my mouth obediently, sucking on his fingers softly, careful to coat them completely. He pulled them out and smiled sweetly. “Thank you.”
Gerard reached behind him and slipped the fingers into himself, completely shocking me. “Gee,” I murmured breathlessly as he started to fuck himself on his fingers,his face contorted in pleasure. He took me back into his mouth and began bobbing up and down, my head hitting the back of his throat every time. “F-fuck, baby..” I stuttered, watching the fingers sliding in and out and imagining it was my cock. It wasn't a huge stretch of my imagination while Gerard's tight throat was substituting for his ass.
“G-Gee, baby, I'm gonna-”
I bucked just slightly, spurting right in the back of Gerard's throat. He closed his eyes and swallowed with difficulty, then started to bob his head again slowly, milking me as I whimpered and groaned. Finally, Gerard pulled off, a string of wet saliva running from his bottom lip to my dick.
“Holy fuckin’..”
He pulled his fingers out and crawled up to me, wiping them on my chest casually. “Mhm. I watched a lot of porn while you were asleep,” he said smugly. I wrapped an arm around him, panting softly as I kissed him sloppily, still tasting my salty cum on his lips. “You in charge is my new favorite thing,” I grinned, nuzzling his jaw. “Remind me to buy you a vibrator.”
His eyes lit up and he purred. “Oh Frankie, please..”
I kissed him gently and let myself fall back to the bed. “I'm fuckin’ exhausted and it's ten in the morning.”
Gerard giggled and I kissed his cheek. “Y’know, half the reason I cum when we have sex is because I love you so goddamn much. About a quarter is because you're so fucking sexy, and the last quarter is whatever we’re doing.”
He blushed and kissed my jaw. “There was a sweet statement in there somewhere.”
“Maybe,” I grinned, and he threw a leg over my hips, pulling me closer.
“I think I'm in love with you too, Frank Anthony Iero.”
I waited outside Gerard's house, shifting from foot to foot. It was his first day back at school after nearly a month off. I smiled at him as he shuffled out of his door, taking the steps slowly and painfully. I helped him gently, holding his hand tightly. “Hey, Gee,” I murmured, pecking him on the lips. “You okay? Ready for school?”
He snorted and just clung to my hand shakily. He was wearing jeans, more loose fitting than his usual skin-tight variety, with a baggy hoodie on top. I recognized it as one of mine, but didn't say anything as I started to walk him down the street slowly. His ribs were still hurting him a lot, and he needed help for stairs and just general support.
By the time lunch rolled around, I was tired and Gerard was exhausted. He was avoiding all his friends, so we sat outside, eating lunch quietly.
“Gee?”
“Mhm?”
“Did you want that present I got you yet?”
Gerard sighed and looked at me. “Is it clothes?”
“No, baby. Not clothes,” I said gently, but my fingers curled into a fist against my leg. “I promise.”
He nodded slightly and I rummaged in my backpack, bringing out a small box. “It's not much, but I didn't really have much to spend,” I mumbled, biting my lip. “Um. I hope you like them.”
Gerard lifted the lid off the box and blinked, looking at the enamel heart-shaped necklace. “Frankie..”
“It's double-sided,” I murmured, rubbing my eyes nervously. He turned it over and smiled softly. “This is perfect, Frankie…”
He took it out of the box and then frowned, poking the little bird charm. “What's this?”
I leaned back and lifted my shirt up, showing him the new birds tattooed on my hips. “It's one of these,” I smiled shyly. “I've been planning this tattoo for a while and I thought you'd like a charm to go with it..” My smile faded and I suddenly felt sick. “Do you like it?”
Gerard giggled softly, pulling me into a gentle kiss. “Of course, Frankie. It's lovely, but if you don't mind, I won't put it on here...cause I'm not really out..”
I nodded slightly. On one side of the heart was the non-binary flag, while the other showed the intersex flag, so it was understandable that he was unsure of wearing it at school. I kissed his cheek and he frowned. “Frankie?”
“Yeah, baby?”
“Do you think you could get the charm off this one and put it on my key one? Cause I wear that one everyday..”
I nodded slightly. “Absolutely, Gee. But I'd need a pair of pliers, so how about when we get home?”
“Sounds good,” Gerard smiled, resting his head on my shoulder. “I love you.”
“I love you too.”
Chris glanced at me as I slipped into the room. Ricky was sitting with him, going through some kind of paperwork. “Hey, Frank,” he said without looking up.
“Hi.”
Chris frowned and got up, walking over to me just as I burst into tears. “Frankie?” He stroked my hair slowly, letting me cling to him as he crouched down slightly to face me. “Frankie, what's wrong? Don't cry, sweetie..”
Ricky got up from the sofa, smiling at me and touching Chris's shoulder lightly. “I'll be in the other room, okay?”
“Thanks baby,” he mumbled, then gently steered me over to the couch and sat down, tugging me into his lap. I curled up tightly, burying my face in his shoulder as I sobbed softly, shaking all over.
After I'd calmed down enough to talk, Chris kissed the side of my head. “Frankie...what's wrong, hon? Huh?”
I curled up a little tighter, drying my face on my sleeve. “It's dumb..”
“No, Frankie. It's not dumb because it's upset you. You can tell me, I promise..”
“It is dumb. I'm crying cause of Gerard..”
“What about him?” Chris murmured, running his fingers through my hair.
“He's not...he's scared to dress like he likes to because he thinks that's why he got raped and it just makes me so s-sad and a-angry..”
Chris sighed softly and rubbed my back slowly. “Frankie, you can't fix everything, hon. Just tell him, okay? Talk to him, tell him over and over that it wasn't his fault. However many times it takes, and be patient. He’ll take a long time to heal. You're still healing.”
“B-but it's different for me,” I mumbled, drying my cheeks and looking away. “I had six years to come to terms with shit. I know it was never my fault. It wasn't random, not like it was for Gee.”
“I know, Frankie. I know how hard it is to watch someone you love in pain. You just have to do your best for them, and hope it's enough. Gerard will be okay one day, whether it takes weeks, months, or years. You can't rush him..”
I sniffed, nodding slightly. “It just hurts so bad, Chris..”
He took my hand gently, squeezing it tight. “I know. I know, Frankie. And that's why you want to be with him now, I understand. I wanted to just hold you all day when you first got here. I wanted to smother you and force you to feel better. But it didn't work, did it? When I took a step back, you started coming to me with things and started to work out what exactly would make you feel better. And then when we both had breathing space, you started to heal.”
I squinted at him, slipping off his lap. “You think I should take a step back from Gee?”
He nodded slightly, stroking my hair slowly. “Yes. Stop asking if he's okay every five seconds, don't act like his fragile, just treat him normally. You don't have to stop being with him all day, you just have to not smother him. He’ll work out what he wants.”
I got a phone call from Gerard a week later, while I was just getting into bed. “Hey,” I murmured as I picked it up. “What's up, Gee?”
“I wanted to talk to you about something,” he muttered, sounding nervous. “I um. I want us to have sex again.”
I blinked, sitting up in bed and flicking the light back on. “Baby? Do you really think that's the best idea right now?”
“No,” Gerard sighed, and I could tell he was biting his lip. “But it's the best one I've got. I can still feel it, Frankie. This pressure. All the time, I just want it to go away..”
He was sniffling already, so I took a deep breath. “Chris is going on an overnight thing with Ricky this weekend, I'll talk to him about having you over. Okay? But I do want you to think about this carefully, yeah? Make sure it's what you want..”
Gerard smiled, I could hear it in his voice. “Okay. Thanks, Frankie.”
“Anytime, beautiful. You're my favorite person.”
He giggled softly and hummed. “You always make me feel so wanted and loved.”
“That's because you are,” I chuckled, smiling to myself. “You sound a little more cheery tonight.”
“Mikey had Pete over this afternoon and they were getting cute on the couch and then I came down and we all played video games together. It was nice, it made me forget, I guess.”
“Good,” I purred softly. “I'm very glad, Gee baby.”
“Would you be excited to have sex with me again?” Gerard asked after a short pause.
“Of course,” I smiled, laying back and looking up at the ceiling. “I love your body, Gee, and I love making you feel good.”
“I want to try sucking you this time,” Gerard said shyly, with a low giggle. “To pay you back.”
“Alright, sweetie. But I think we should just do basics first, and see how you feel from there.”
“Yeah, okay..”
I sighed quietly, glancing at my clock. “I gotta go, Gee, I have that math test tomorrow and I need sleep.”
“Hmm, okay,” Gerard murmured. “I love you.”
“I love you too. Goodnight, baby.”
Gerard walked into the hallway, smiling at me nervously as he kicked his shoes off. “Frankie? Can we just get it over with?”
I blinked and shook my head. “Nuh-uh. You're not a hooker, Gee, you're my boyfriend and I love you. We’re not gonna do it for the sake of it. We can start right now, but we’re not rushing..”
He went bright red and nodded slightly. “O-okay, Frankie.”
I kissed his cheek softly and brushed his hair behind his ears lightly. “I'll be so gentle with you. I promise. Just like last time. And the same things, yeah? Remember you promised to tell me to stop.”
Gerard nodded, shifting closer to me. I ruffled his hair lightly. “Come on. Upstairs we go..”
I gently led Gerard up to my room, pushing the door open slowly. He stepped inside and gasped. “Fuck, Frankie..”
I slipped in after him, closing the door silently. “All for you,” I murmured as he looked around the room, at the rose petals on the bed and the candles burning all around the room.
I pulled the curtains and kissed Gerard softly, starting to unbutton his shirt slowly. His breath hitched and I kissed his jaw. “It's okay, Gee. Would you rather undress yourself?”
He nodded quickly and I smiled, stepping back and slipping my jeans and shirt off. I went to the bedside table, pulling out lube and condoms, setting them both on the top.
“I'm anxious, Frankie,” Gerard said quietly. I turned and smiled at him.
“Don't be. It'll be just like our first couple times, gentle and slow and easy. You'll be just fine.”
I kicked my boxers away as Gerard climbed onto the bed. I watched his ass, grinning to myself and feeling my cock twitch.
“You're beautiful,” I said out loud, climbing up next to him and kissing the back of his shoulder. He shivered and I purred softly, running a fingertip down his spine. “Shh. I've got you..”
He laid down on his side, his back facing me, so I grabbed the lube and coated one finger, slowly pushing it into him. He didn't really react.
“You okay, baby?” I asked gently, kissing the back of his neck. “Is this okay?”
Gerard nodded slightly. “I just want you in me, Frankie. I don't want all this..”
“It'll hurt..”
“I don't care. Please?”
“Okay, beautiful.”
I pulled my finger out of him and wiped it off before rolling a condom on and lubing myself up.
“I've got you..”
I threw a leg over his hips, lining myself up and pushing in a little quicker than I'd meant to. Gerard gasped, tensing, but quickly relaxed, letting out a soft whimper. I buried my face in his neck, moving in and out carefully, trying to build up a good speed. Gerard reached behind him, grabbing at my hand. “F-fuck...Frankie, I w-want you to pound me! R-really...I just want that c-cock balls deep in me...p-please!”
I couldn't resist the begging, rolling him onto his stomach, then pulling him up on his hands and knees. I grabbed ahold of his hair and one of his shoulders carefully, starting to growl as I slammed in and out of the squealing boy underneath me. He grabbed at my hands and screamed and cried and shook, but I kept going. I was pounding him, but fairly slowly, still conscious of who the ass under me belonged to. After a couple minutes of this, I reached under him, starting to rub at the head of his little cock quickly, grinning as his screams only increased in volume and laughing triumphantly as he slammed his hips back against mine and arched his back, his ass tightening around my cock as he came. The shifting of his muscles pushed me over the edge and I groaned, thrusting a couple more times into Gerard's sensitive hole. He whimpered, then sighed as I slid out of him, kissing his tailbone. “Shh, Gee..” I murmured as I cleaned up. He was still on his hands and knees, shaking badly, his freshly dyed red hair falling over his face. I touched his bare side lightly. “Gee baby? Are you alright?”
He suddenly collapsed, whimpering as he curled up. I knelt in front of him, stroking his hair frantically. “Gee? Are you alright?”
He grinned at me sleepily, grabbing at my cheeks lightly. “F-fuck...I'm great...t-tired..”
I smiled and pulled Gerard into my arms, rubbing his bare back slowly. “Oh baby...I got kind of carried away, are you feeling okay?”
Gerard kissed my cheek softly, snuggling closer to me and burying his face in my neck. “I'm perfect. I wanna try sucking you, but I'm too tired..”
I chuckled and stroked his hair slowly, running my fingertips over his slender side. “Maybe after a nap.”
“Yeah.”
I wandered around the house in my boxers, drinking Ricky's whiskey and singing to myself. Gerard was still asleep upstairs, and I had gotten bored. That was one good thing about having Ricky around - alcohol. Chris never touched the stuff, so there had never been any open bottles in the house, until Ricky had brought his own. I had only had a couple fingers by the time Gerard walked downstairs, completely naked. He’d redone his hair and makeup, and looked absolutely stunning as he walked up to me. I grinned and waved the bottle at him. “Want some?”
Gerard nodded quickly, smiling at me shyly. I kissed him and poured him a glass, then put the bottle back in the cupboard. I knew not to take too much in one go. Gerard knocked the whiskey back easily, then kissed me hard, pushing me back against the kitchen counter, his fingers tangled in my hair. Suddenly his lips parted from mine and he sank to his knees, tugging my boxers out of the way before licking up the inside of my thigh.
“Ahh, fuck yes,” I muttered, setting my glass down and tangling my fingers in Gerard’s hair. He glanced up at me, uncertainty masked by the slight drunken air. He kissed the head of my already hard and leaking dick, then took my head into his mouth slowly. I bucked up at the feeling and accidentally hit the back of his throat, causing him to choke and gag.
I pulled out of Gerard's mouth and went to my knees quickly, feeling myself sober up almost immediately as Gerard gagged again, hanging his head. Tears dripped off the end of his nose, his body trembling. I pulled him into my arms, nuzzling the side of his head. “Shit, Gee. I didn't mean to-...fuck!...I swear I didn't mean to hurt you. I'm so so sorry..”
Gerard started to sob, clinging to me as he fell apart. “I'm u-useless! I'm s-sorry...so s-sorry. I'm a sh-shitty boyfriend..”
“No, baby, I'm the shitty boyfriend,” I sighed, rocking him back and forth slowly. “I shouldn't have been drinking. That was really stupid of me and I'm sorry. No more alcohol when you're over, I promise. Now how about I get you a popsicle and we go sit outside? It's a nice day today.”
Gerard shook his head, shivering in my arms. “I w-wanna stay inside..”
“Okay. Go sit on the couch, baby,” I murmured, stroking his cheek slowly. “I'll be right back.”
I helped Gerard to the couch, then hurried off, coming back with two pairs of pajama pants. I grabbed a popsicle from the freezer on my way into the living room. Gerard was curled up under a blanket on the couch, still sniffling. I sighed and handed him the treat, then pulled the blanket away, ignoring his protests as I slipped the pants over his legs. “Shh, baby..” I kissed his cheek, smiling at him sadly. “Just relax. I love you. I do..”
“I'm s-sorry-”
“Shh. I shouldn't have let you try and I shouldn't have hurt you. It's my fault, Gee.”
I slipped my pair of pants on and sat down next to him, my hand resting on his thigh lightly. “Today was meant to make you feel better, and I fucked it up..”
Gerard smiled at me, his lips red from the popsicle. “You didn't fuck it up. I do feel better, I just...it hurt and it scared me..”
“I know, I'm sorry,” I sighed, wrapping an arm around him tightly. “Maybe we can save that for another day, yeah? It's not a big deal, Gee. I might have to take you up for round two later, though.”
He giggled softly and smiled at me shyly. “Can we do it in the bath? I've always wanted to try..”
The lavender-scented water sloshed around us as Gerard bounced up and down on my cock eagerly, letting his head fall back as he reached down and held onto my thighs, rolling his hips in a way that a person who'd only had sex three times before should not know how to do. I was thoroughly enjoying myself until I looked a little closer. Gerard's torso was even more pale than usual, and I could practically see his ribs through his milky skin, his hips jutting out uncomfortably. He slowed his movements and sat up slightly, looking at me worriedly.
“Frankie? Did I do something wrong?”
“Fuck no!” I said quickly, a little too quickly as it made him jump. “No, baby. I just...I can see all your ribs and you look very pale..”
He laughed softly. “I'm always very pale. And I lost weight after...y'know..” He trailed off, his smile fading.
“Well. I'd like you to put on some weight for me,” I answered gently, but matter-of-factly. “I'm worried about you.”
Gerard nodded slightly, leaning down to kiss me. “I love you, Frankie.”
I purred softly as he rolled his hips again, this time almost in a circular motion. “Fuck! I l-love you too, baby..”
Gerard grinned, starting to bounce again eagerly, fucking himself on me brutally and screaming out each time I thrust up to meet him and hit his prostate. It wasn't long at all before Gerard bucked his hips one last time and shuddered before sliding off me. I wrapped a hand around myself, jerking off quickly as I studied Gerard wallowing in his orgasm.
I came almost immediately, sighing in relief and sinking down in the bath. “Shiiit. That was perfect, Gee. You're perfect..”
Gerard climbed on top of me again, laying half on my chest this time as he curled up, closing his eyes. “I'm extra fuckin’ sleepy now..”
“Then sleep, beautiful. I can take you to bed in a bit.”
Gerard was crying in his sleep when I woke up the next morning. I yawned and stretched and then noticed the tears on his cheeks. I shook him awake quickly, kissing him softly. “Gerard! Baby..”
He shifted and opened his eyes, blinking up at me with more tears falling down his cheeks. I wiped them away quickly, frowning at him.
“What's going on, sweetie?”
“I h-had a bad d-dream..”
I pulled him into a tight hug, kissing the side of his head softly. “Oh baby. You're okay, baby. I'm here. Frankie’s here...what was it about, Gee?”
“Y-you leaving m-me..”
I sighed and pulled him even closer to me, kissing him softly. “Don't be silly. I'm not going anywhere, Gee. I love you, Gerard Arthur Way, and I'm pretty sure I'm in love with you too. I can teach someone to suck dick but I can't teach them to be beautiful and loving and kind and unique and as perfect as you.”
Gerard sniffed, burying his face in my shoulder and clinging to me. I rubbed his back slowly as he sobbed, letting him just cry it out.
Once he'd stopped crying and calmed down completely, Gerard sat up, slipping his hand under the covers. He trailed his fingers down my chest, then started palming my dick through my pajamas, causing me to moan and try to push him away.
“Gee.”
“I want to!”
He smiled at me a little nervously, slipping his hand under the waistband of my pajamas, wrapping his fingers around my length tightly. I gasped and threw the covers away so I could watch what he was doing. He grinned and let go of me, quickly pulling my pajama pants off before kicking his own away. Then Gerard spread my legs, kneeling down in between them and starting to pump my cock quickly, his small hand sliding up and down easily. I groaned and bucked up, but Gerard flicked my balls.
“Shit! What the fuck?!”
He grinned at me. “No bucking, Frank.”
I moaned again, watching his face. “Holy fuck, you're hot when you take charge.”
Gerard smiled and started to pump me again, this time running the heel of his hand over my head every time he stroked up. This got me hard in a matter of seconds and Gerard hunkered down, one hand wrapped around the base of my dick, the other hand cradling my balls. “No bucking, Frank,” he growled, then kissed my tip before pulling me into his mouth, sucking on the head lightly. I whimpered, grabbing onto the sheets either side of me as I tried to stifle the buck. It didn't work and I felt myself slide higher in Gerard’s mouth just before he pinched my balls and I cried out in pain, jerking away. “Come on, Frankie,” Gerard purred sweetly, clearly enjoying the power way too much. “It's only one simple rule.”
And then he went down, pulling me all the way into the back of his throat, tightening his muscles around my head. I started to relax, slipping one hand into his hair. “God, Gee. I n-need you..”
He smiled and pulled back off with a wet pop, smirking at me. “Beg.”
I nearly came there and then, but instead just whined softly. “Fuck..Gee, please baby, please! I n-need you to suck me off, I'm so turned on, I need you to relieve me..”
Gerard put two fingers up to my mouth, grinning. “Suck.”
I nodded and opened my mouth obediently, sucking on his fingers softly, careful to coat them completely. He pulled them out and smiled sweetly. “Thank you.”
Gerard reached behind him and slipped the fingers into himself, completely shocking me. “Gee,” I murmured breathlessly as he started to fuck himself on his fingers,his face contorted in pleasure. He took me back into his mouth and began bobbing up and down, my head hitting the back of his throat every time. “F-fuck, baby..” I stuttered, watching the fingers sliding in and out and imagining it was my cock. It wasn't a huge stretch of my imagination while Gerard's tight throat was substituting for his ass.
“G-Gee, baby, I'm gonna-”
I bucked just slightly, spurting right in the back of Gerard's throat. He closed his eyes and swallowed with difficulty, then started to bob his head again slowly, milking me as I whimpered and groaned. Finally, Gerard pulled off, a string of wet saliva running from his bottom lip to my dick.
“Holy fuckin’..”
He pulled his fingers out and crawled up to me, wiping them on my chest casually. “Mhm. I watched a lot of porn while you were asleep,” he said smugly. I wrapped an arm around him, panting softly as I kissed him sloppily, still tasting my salty cum on his lips. “You in charge is my new favorite thing,” I grinned, nuzzling his jaw. “Remind me to buy you a vibrator.”
His eyes lit up and he purred. “Oh Frankie, please..”
I kissed him gently and let myself fall back to the bed. “I'm fuckin’ exhausted and it's ten in the morning.”
Gerard giggled and I kissed his cheek. “Y’know, half the reason I cum when we have sex is because I love you so goddamn much. About a quarter is because you're so fucking sexy, and the last quarter is whatever we’re doing.”
He blushed and kissed my jaw. “There was a sweet statement in there somewhere.”
“Maybe,” I grinned, and he threw a leg over my hips, pulling me closer.
“I think I'm in love with you too, Frank Anthony Iero.”
Notes
So I'm sorry about missing the update I was super busy and exhausted yesterday
It's 3 am so I guess that's the morning ?? idrc
Don't you just love it when your mom's boyfriend slams doors and yells at 3 am? I mean it's so helpful :DD
Anyway I'm putting two up now for you guys <3
@LoganMai
great thanks
4/20/18