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Jadie*) *The contact names are going to be what they have set in each other's phones So say if she's texting Frank it would be 'baby sis' whereas with Gerard is 'JaiBear' and so on*

Gee<3: Goodmorning, Did you sleep well?
5:50am
JaiBear: Goodmorning, And yeah I suppose. How about you?
5:53am
Gee<3: I was in too good a mood to sleep, to be honest.
5:55am
JaiBear: Oh really? Who put you in that good mood?
5:57am
Gee<3: Oh, I don't know... This girl. Very stunning. She has pale purple hair that frames her face perfectly, These breathtaking eyes and oh god her smile. He names Jadie. Maybe you know her? ;)
5:59am

I blushed furiously at that

JaiBear: Oh, yeah I've heard of her. People say she's a freak, haha
6:02

There was no response after that... Well way to fuck things u-

My thoughts were cut off by a knocking at my bedroom door. I furrowed my brows as I walked to open it. Frank usually just walk in.

As soon as I opened the door I was met with soft lips that molded perfectly with my own "Whoever says that, are a bunch of fuck tards" He mumbled against my lips, I let out a soft giggle "Who let you in? It's like not even seven yet" My voice was raspy, due to the fact I had just woken up not even 11 minutes ago "Your morning voice is hot" He whispered, I blushed at his comment "And, Frank let me in. Told me you were just getting up and to make sure you weren't naked... And well, You aren't" He smirked "Yeah, And I also have morning breath and ratty ass hair that needs to be taken care of in the next hour and 20 minutes before I leave for school" I rasped again, he let out a soft chuckle "I'll be waiting downstairs. I'm taking you to Starbucks or breakfast" He kissed my cheek before descending down the staircase.

Showering and makeup only took 20 minutes. I blew my hair dry, that took another 11. Then it was on to my outfit. I chose a pale blue long sleeved shirt that hung off my shoulders accompanied by a pair of Aeropostale yoga pants and some water marble vans shoes.

I took one last look in the mirror and fixed my hair so if fell messily, in a cute way, around my face.

Making my way downstairs I started to second guess everything. Whether he liked me or not. If this really was a joke...

I pushed that thought to the back of my head as I walked into the kitchen where Gerard and my brother say, chatting away about some show they had seen on the T.V. last night.

But all seemed to go quiet when I walked in. Gerard's jaw dropped and my brother looked shocked "Holy fuck" Gerard whispered, Causing Frank to slap his chest "That's still my fucking sister. You will respect her" He took a serious 'protective brother' stance "Noted. Shall we go, M'lady?" Gerard smiled whilst standing up, I grinned up at him "Let us depart"

**

"So what are your plans for tonight?" Gerard asked looking up from his coffee on the little circle table, I shrugged vacantly "Nothing really, why?" His expression turned serious "I want to know what's happened" I looked at him quizzically "Your brother told me some things. I wanna hear your side of the story, From your perspective" I nodded uneasily "I just want to understand you better, I want to help, and I want you to know that I'm not like any of those douche bags that heave been in your life before" I smiled slightly at that.

_Time skip, because school that day was boring_

The day flew by with little to no action. Gerard still wasn't hanging around me at school which made me second guess everything once again. It's an endless loop. Consisting of. He likes me, He hates me. We're cool. He wants me to kill myself.

My thoughts were interrupted when my door opened, revealing my brother "He's here for you again." He smiled. As did I...

* * * * *

"Hey" He greeted "Hi" I whispered "So, Just so you feel better, I'm taking you to that shack thing so we don't have to be out in the open" He stated kindly "Okay... Thank you" He nodded. Leading me to his car once again.

This time the place looked different, and it took me a moment to realize that he had set up some pillows and a blanket on the small house thing. There was a small lantern which dimly lit up the wooden box, casting safe warm shadows on the wall.

"I hope it's not too cheesy" He sighed "It's not, It's cute... I like it"

We took a seat and sat in a comfortable silence Until he broke it with the question I really didn't want to give the answer to.

"What happened to you?" I sighed "Gerard ple-" "Trust me... I just want to help, I want to make you feel worth something again" I looked down "It uh... Started with my uh... Mine and Franks dad... I don't know. He was fine, Up until we hit the age of eight. Then he got violent" My voice cracked several times. I continued on, Steadily, that is until I mentioned my most recent ex Josh.

"And-" My breath caught, trying to be strong enough to get through this, but knowing that I was about to break. Gerard gave me a concerning look "J-Jo-sh... My m-m-ost recent." I took a breath "Whoa, Okay No Jadie. It's okay. You don-" "He was the worst. I mean. He was fine. Fine until our four months, wh..." I felt my chest tighten. Not wanting to remember. I tried so hard to block out his memories. Countless nights of waking up to my brother lifting me off a park bench because I was too incoherent to move or talk.

\Flash back/
"Please, Josh!" I screamed, Voice giving out, half way through my plea for him to stop. Which resulted in another violent hit, He had grown accustomed to using a baseball bat on me when I wouldn't obey him. But tonight he took it too far...

"Get up you pathetic bitch. Fucking strip" He hissed. eyes dark and evil. No love left in them at all. When I didn't move he hit me with the bat again "Do I have to do everything for you, Whore" his voice was loud and my head was swimming. I don;t remember much of that night. Other than waking up to pain and blood all over my body, and My brother beat the shit out of Josh.

Those next few weeks were spent in the hospital. and later after that my bedroom.
Once I got tired of that I started to go out, Sneaking into bars and getting shit faced, wanting to be numb to every feeling possible. I'd shut everyone out. for the longest time. I was surprised Frank hadn't given up on me.

I remember one night in specific where I had drunk 10 shots, two beers, and a mixed drink. I was slurring and stumbling. I had gotten kicked out of the bar and found a spot on a park bench. I had thrown up, I don't even remember calling Frank, but sure enough there he was, blanket in hand and a somber look on his face... That's when I learned to just shut emotions off while sober. I found love in my blood and physical pain. I deserved it. Who's to say I didn't...

\End of flashing back/

I managed to get through the whole thing, But by the time I was done I was seated in Gerard's lap, I took a quick look at his face, and it was nothing less than furious, I swallowed thickly, Always anxious in these kinds of situations. "I swear on my fucking life. If ANYONE tries to do that to you again, If anyone even thinks of laying a hand on you. I'll kill them. No hesitation. I don't care what you say, You should never feel like you deserve the scars on your wrists." his voice held so much pain and emotion, Something I've only ever heard my brother use. That was only right after it had happened.

"and..." My voice broke the silence, Gerard looked down at me "I guess that's why I, No offense, Don't wanna trust you" My voice grew quieter. He let out a choppy sigh "I will do, whatever it take. To earn your trust. I don't care how long it takes. You are. In my eyes. Worth the wait" I smiled up at him "As long as you're sure"
_

We eventually laid down and went to sleep, Although Gerard slept peacefully. I on the other hand. Didn't

Violent images. Flashbacks. Horrible scenes replayed through my head. Not making any sense and hindering with my sleep.

Only this time I didn't wake up with a gasp, sweating and scared. I woke up to Gerard above me, shaking me and looking more scared than I've ever seen him "Jadie, Please wake up!" was the first thing I hear him shout. I let out a desperate sob and he pulled me right into his chest. Rocking and shushing me. Holding me like our lives depended on it. And I swear on my life, this was the quickest I've ever calmed down in my life. And in this moment I could have sworn I was falling in love with him...

Notes

I'm starting to really love this story. Not gonna lie.