The world is ugly

Jadie*)
Last night was hell. Frank had Gerard and Gerard's friend Ray over. They all got shitfaced.... They were up until three, which kept me up until three due to the guitars and drunk out of tune singing... It wasn't until 3:38 exactly that they finally shut up. I heard Gerard and My brother say goodbye to ray and then, Silence...

That is until I sat up straight with a sharp gasp and a choked sob. That's the fourth time in a row that I've had a nightmare, waking up at precisely 5:11. I looked around the four corners of my room, checking thoroughly that there wasn't anything actually there...

I sighed to myself once I was sure I was awake. And decided to take advantage of the early wake-up and cornrowed my hair.

Once that was done I pulled on a pair of deep red skinny jeans, that had a hole in the left knee. I pulled on my boots, that I refer as my ass kickers. I finished my look with an A7X T-shirt and a black leather jacket.

I decided to go with a subtle black hoop in my nose and applied my makeup.

Once I was content with my look I jogged downstairs. relieved that no one but my brother was here. And the fact the aroma of coffee was all around the house.

"Hey, You finally made coffee" I stated, walking into the kitchen "Hey! You look like a hood rat" He smiled, "Thank you" I laughed taking a sip out of my coffee "That's what I was going for" He rolled his eyes, his black hair falling into his face when he shook his head "You get into one fight and you think you're gangster" He chortled "fuck you!" I laughed.


The walk to school was a lonely one. and I wasn't surprised when no one was waiting for me at the gates... I sighed. Today wasn't going to be a good fucking day and I can feel the bitchy remarks building up the further I walk into school.

The morning went by slowly and before I knew it it was the period before lunch. Not a word from anyone and Gerard won't talk to me again. Been walking around with some bitchy ass girl dangling from his arm. Receiving dirty looks from them both.

Even though I loved art I really didn't want to go. So I dicked around in the halls for about 20 minutes before deciding to head there.

Unfortunately, I walked in behind Gerard.

"Ah, Mr. Way. Miss. Iero. How nice of you both to join us... Twenty minutes late. Maybe you two can be on time for detention after school, Yeah?" The teacher frowned, not looking up from her computer.

Gerard looked over his shoulder, shock was written on his face but I pushed right passed him, Mumbling a whatever to the teacher and flopping down in my chair "Did you hear me, Gerard?" She then snapped "Loud and clear," He said in a bored tone.

He then flopped down next to me. Wordlessly.

"Sooo" I drag out the 'o' he grunted in reply "We need to figure out what were doing" I point out "Yep." he never looked up from his phone. Rage was building in me. "I was thinking we could do a drawing... I've seen the way you draw, Mine are pretty shitty so I thought you could draw and I could do the written report" "K" oh fuck this "What the fuck ever. I better not fucking fail because you wanna act like a little bitch" I snapped

"Miss, can I go to the bathroom?" I asked while standing up. Whether she wanted me to or not I'd be going "You come to class almost thirty minutes late and expect me to let you leave again?" she laughed. I could tell Gerard was staring at me "I have to fuckin piss. Goodbye" I shouted as I walked out.

At first, I was only a little pissed. But the rage kept building, as tears of pure hatred poured down my face "Son of a BITCH" I shout, driving my fist into a set of lockers multiple times.
I kept going even after my knuckles had split and were covered in blood.

Suddenly someone had grabbed my wrist forcing me to stop "fuck OFF" I scream spinning around, just to be face to face with Gerard. I ripped my hand away from him but before either of us could say anything there was that same annoying squeaky voice from the phone call a few days ago "Gerard!" I cringed and surprisingly so did he.

"What are you doing out of class with... Her, she's a freak?" She sent me a look of disgust. "Linzy. Fuck off" Gerard sighed "But-" "Linz I said were done. I've been nice about this all day but honestly. Stop, were over, You can't keep my brother, and you sure as hell won't fuck my friends" (haha, I'm not funny) Gerard yelled and her face hardened "Fine, Have fun fucking this whore, Don't catch any diseases" oh. that did it. I didn't even think my fist flew out and connected to her nose in a satisfying crunch.

I didn't give any time for either of them to respond, I shrugged my bag up on my shoulder and walked out of the school. Punching another locker on my way out.

I made my way into the forest... That seemed to be my safe place. I can clear my head there.

Regardless of the snow falling the sun still found a way to peak through the clouds and trees, resulting in small rays of light to peak through creating a breathtaking scene.

I took a spot under a big tree and pulled out my sketchbook, Lightly sketching out the beauty Infront of me, Making sure to capture the full thing... A bird then flew in and lightly perched its self on a branch...

Gerard*)

I quietly walked through the forest, trying to find Jadie... I didn't want her to snap on me... Like she had don't to Linzy.

I finally found her sitting silently under a tree, peacefully drawing.
I quietly sat down and pulled out a sketchbook of my own, I lightly started out. Not wanting to fuck up this beauty. I made sure to take in every detail. Paying special attention to her busted knuckles and added in the drawing of her own. So it looked almost as if someone came along and snapped a picture of it.

I was so caught up in trying to get every detail that I didn't realize she had come up to me "Stalking me now eh?" I looked up at her, the way the sun hit her made her look like an angel "Came to see if you were okay" my voice was soft, she scoffed "Seriously, Why are you here. Come to yell at me some more. Done being bitchy?" She plopped down in front of me.

I sighed "I'm sorry... It's just. She always had me in a bad mood" She shrugged "I'm used to being treated like shit. That's why I'm now sporting the 'I don't give a fuck what you think, I'll cut your fucking tongue out' Look" She laughed bitterly "You're.. 'used to it'" I questioned and she laughed again "Being treated like shit, Sorta like Lindzy was with you, But worse sometimes... Fuck I don't even know why I'm telling you this"

Yeah... Was... She's my ex now... I'm single... Wait? What? "Worse? What do you mean? You can tell me... I don't mind" I tried to comfort, she sighed "Just shitty past relationships. I may tell you at some point but. Not today" I nodded...

And then before I could even process what I was thinking was a good Idea. I was pulling her into a kiss.

She thankfully kissed back. With just as much passion.

"Um... Wow" she smiled "Same" I laughed.

It wasn't until we were on our way back to school that she decided to speak about the kiss

"So. That uh.. The kiss?" her voice was low "What about it" I looked at her "What... Oh, Never mind. It was stupid anyway"

"Jesus Jadie!" We hear Melanie shout "Uh... Yeah?" She looked over in the direction of Mikey, Brendon, Melanie, Ashley and Ryan "The principal has been calling you down to the office for like the past half hour!" Ryan said over dramatically "Not to mention we've been looking for you all day!" My brother shot "Sorry... I uh, I couldn't find you guys" she then turned to me "We'll talk more in detention, Yeah?" I nodded watching her walk away...

Jadie*)

Sighing I walked into the principal's office, seeing her sitting there a scowl on her wrinkled face "You wanted me?" She nodded "So, Skipping class, Cussing at a teacher and walking out of class. Maybe a detention will straighten you out hmm?" I sighed "I already got a detention today" "Well looks like you will be there for two and a half hours" She handed me a green slip.

I was raging again and wasn't thinking... AGAIN. Proceeding to drive my fist into a brick wall seemed to help this time.

Gerard.
The kiss.
Detention.
Suspension.
Linzy.
This school.
Fucking everything.

I once again didn't stop till I was being forced to. Hot angry tears flew down my face at the loss of physical pain "What the fuck are you doing, Jadie" My brother whispered "Avoiding my two-hour detention, having a mental break down. in a hallway thankfully no one ever uses. You know. Normal things" I tried to laugh it off

"Why are you here?"

"Ray said he put my homework in my locker, which just so happens to be the one dented with blood all over it, Your handy work?" He looked down at me, I shrugged looking at my now swollen purple hand "I guess" He sighed "We'll talk when you get home. Go to detention" I nodded.

***

Miss. Kay was nice. She just so happened to be the head of detention today. Bless.

"Oh, Jadie, sweetheart your hand!" I shrugged "Hurts a little" She nodded "I'll get some ice you just sit down...

I sighed bringing my head down. Pretty fucking herd. On to the desk. The door opened again and I assumed it was Miss. Kay, I brought my hand up to the table top without raising my head "Thank you, Miss. Kay" I mumbled, "Jesus christ, Jadie what the fuck!" I heard Gerard's shocked voice as he grabbed my hand "Ah, Fuck Gee!" I screamed pulling my hand back. Ignoring the fact I called him 'gee' "I'm sorry!" He panicked "Just let me see how bad you fucked it up!" I shook my head "It's my none dominate hand anyway, It doesn't matter" He sighed Gently picking it up "You can almost see bone!" He snapped dragging me to one of the sinks at the back of the classroom.


He put my hand under warm water "AHH FUCK GERARD! THAT FUCKING HURTS!" I scream trying to pull my hand away "Of course it's going to hurt, You split the skin dumb ass" At that I fell silent. "Shit... No, Jadie I" I shook my head "Like I said. Used to it" I showed him a fake smile "We will talk about this." He clarified.

"Ah, Gerard, Was starting to think you were never coming back" Miss. Kay laughed "Oh, You know I could never do that to you!" Gerard flashed that smile of his... Every fucking time that redhead flashes his smile my heart melt.

"Jadie, I got your ice" She smiled placing it down on my desk "I have to go back out again Don't fight and don't fuck" She laughed.

I sat down back at my desk, and Gerard soon followed. I carefully placed the ice on my hand peeking over at Gerard's drawing "Awe you drew me" I saw him blush "yeah... It captures your uh... Features perfectly" I nodded smiling...

then he asked a question that shcoked the hell out of me...

Notes

All the suspences right? Hopefully? Are you racking your brain to figure it out?
We'll you'll find out in the next chapter, Will be up tomorrow! Word count~2089