Only you

Trigger warning mentions self harm and rape.


Gerard's POV

It was the middle of the night and I was stood in the kitchen lost in my head quietly listening to music and drinking coffee while Frank was asleep as I didn't want to disturb him as he hasn't had that much sleep since I've been home from the hospital.
I moved from the kitchen and went to the sitting room and sat on the sofa and turned the tv on and settled back on the sofa nursing my coffee and watching god awful night tv.

I couldn't see anything, everything was dark and it was cold and I could feel that I had a bag over my head, my hands and feet was tried together, my mouth was taped shut by something. I could hear them talking but I couldn't what they was saying, but I could feel what I was in a car and where about the car was going and soon it came to a stop. It wasn't long before the car came to a stop and I was bundled out of the car and being pushed inside.
"He isn't going to walk throw him over your shoulder." Someone said and I felt myself being picked up and put over someone's shoulder.
"We need to get inside now otherwise boss will kill us if we get busted with him." Any other person said.
"Well fucking get inside then." Someone said and I felt us moving again.
It was nice to feel the warmth on my barely dressed body but it was short lived when I felt myself being thrown on the floor which made me groan and that resulted in me getting kicked in the stomach.
I heard a door being opened and shut and someone walked over and I felt the bag beginning removed from my head that was when I saw the person.
"Hello pet, how you doing?" The person said and I looked at them and saw it was Quinn.
I couldn't speak since it was muffled behind the tape which Quinn ripped off my mouth.
"I'm sorry I won't run away again please don't hurt me I'm sorry master please don't hurt me." I said quickly as tears rolled down my cheeks.
"Silence." Quinn spat and back handed me across the face which made me fall to the floor.
Quinn knelt down in front of me and pulled a knife out and held it to my face which made me look at him but he had the blade pressed hard against my cheek.
"Now your going to let me and my friends get a bit of what Frankie gets aren't you?" Quinn said and I guess I took too long to answer as Quinn dragged the blade down my cheek. I wanted to bring my hands up to my face but I couldn't since my hands was still tied behind my back.
"Answer the question Gerard." Quinn growled.
I looked at him and just nodded and Quinn smiled at me.
"Good boy, now get up and turn around." Quinn said and moved and I got up and turned round.
I felt the shorts I was wearing being ripped off me and my head being pulled back hard by my hair and someone putting something in my mouth.
"Can't be having people hearing you, that wouldn't be good now would it Gerard?" Quinn said from behind me and I just shook my head tears falling down my cheeks.
"Don't cry darling, everything is going to be okay." Quinn said softly and put his hand on my cheek which made me flinch away from him at first but I learnt that I had to accept his touch otherwise I would get a slap round the face.
Quinn lent forward and kissed my cheek.
"Your ours now Gee, Frankie isn't going to save you now." Quinn whispered in my ear and panic went threw me but it was short lived when my head was pushed to the floor and being held down with a lot of force and I could see black dots cloud my vision but not before I felt someone ram themselves inside of me and use me until they came inside of me and then the next person would start.

"Gee, baby listen to my voice." I head a voice say but I was really lost in this flashback.
"Baby, open your eyes, your either having a nightmare or a flashback." The voice said and I opened my eyes and I sat up quickly.
"Where is he?" I asked quickly and I looked round.
"Where's who Gee?" Frank asked sounding worried.
"Quinn and the others, where are they?" I asked as I started to cry.
"Gee they're not here. It's just me and you at my place where you are safe from them. Their not going to hurt you baby. I promise you." Frank said and I looked at him.
"I'm sorry." I sobbed and brought my hands up to my face and started to cry really hard.
I suddenly felt really sick and I quickly got off the sofa and ran to the bathroom and threw up in the toilet.
I heard someone walk into the bathroom and when I felt a hand on my back I flinched away from them and I felt their hand being moved away and I carried on being sick until there was nothing left for me to throw up.
I heard the person sniff.
"I'm in the sitting room it you need me." The person said quietly and I heard them get up and walk out the room, pulling the door too a little and I looked up and looked down.
I got up and washed my mouth out with water and walked out to the sitting room.

"I don't know what to do. I can't send him back it almost killed me having him in hospital but I am running out of options here." I heard Frank say as I hid behind the door frame listening in.
"He says he's taking his medication but I don't think he is. He has nightmares pretty much every night and he has flashbacks all the time. I mean he woke me up today screaming and he hasn't snapped out of that head space yet. I'm so worried about him Max, he flinched away from me earlier when he was being sick, Gee has never done that." Frank sobbed down the phone.
"What can I do Max? He is falling apart in front of me and I can't do nothing to help him. It feels like I'm just waiting to walk into the bathroom and find him dead. That bastard has ruined him in a way that I don't know if I can get him back again." Frank said still sobbing down the phone.
"Course I love him and I want to be with him and I would never leave him unless Gee wants to leave me. I'm staying by his side but right now I am stuck on what to do." Frank said and I just looked down and sniffed loudly which just made me realize I gave myself up to listening to what Frank was saying to Max.
"I have to go, don't worry nothing bad has happened." Frank sniffed and hung up the phone and carefully walked over which made me freak out and ran back to the bathroom and sat in front of the door.

"Babe let me in please." Frank sniffed from the other side of the door.
"You won't hurt me?" I asked and hugged my knees.
"I would never dream of hurting you Gee." Frank said and I thought about it and stood up and opened the door and looked at Frank who had tear stained cheeks.
"You shouldn't be crying over me, I'm not worth your tears." I said quietly and I put my hand on his cheek which he lent into.
"How can I not? The person who I fell in love with is falling apart in front of me and I don't know what I can do Gee. I feel like I'm losing you and it's all because of what those bastards did to you. I don't know what I can do to help you Gee." Frank said and some more tears fell down his cheek which I wiped the tears away which made Frank smile sadly.
I moved and pulled Frank into a hug which he returned and we just held each other tightly.
"Don't leave me, promise me you won't leave me. That's what you can do Frank. I can't lose you, if I lost you then I wouldn't be able to live." I said quietly and Frank held me tighter.
"I wouldn't dream on leaving you." Frank whispered and I pulled back and looked at him and kissed him which Frank returned and when he pulled back and started to mess with my hair.
"I miss your bright red hair." Frank said quietly.
"I was thinking about dying it another colour, red reminds me of the past and I don't want that." I said quietly and Frank smiled.
"Now I have Chinese cravings, you joining me for Chinese?" Frank asked and I smiled and nodded.
Frank caught hold of my hand which made me look down at our hands and smile.
"Chinese sounds good to me." I said quietly and looked at Frank who smiled back at me and we went to the sitting room and Frank ordered the Chinese and he let me choose films which was pretty much going to be children films but Frank didn't really seem to care once we got the food and settled down for the evening.

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