Trigger warning mentions Rape


Frank's POV

"So I believe that your 6 month stay here is finally over." I said as I walked into Gerard room and sat down on the bed and kissed Gerard which he returned.
"I can't wait, but I'm scared as well." Gerard said quietly as he looked down.
I made Gerard look at me and he smiled sadly at me.
"You don't have to be scared. Me and the guys are going to look after you. If you want we can move to another house, and we can take everything at your pace. Whatever you say will go." I said and Gerard smiled and nodded.
"A new house and a new start probably be good. But you have to want that as well, I was fine when I was allowed out every 2 weeks for the weekend. I'll be fine when you go to work and until we find a new house." Gerard said.
"Gee, I'm not going back to work until I know you are okay. We'll talk about this when we go home." I said and Gerard nodded.
"Get dressed and we'll be out of here." I said and kissed Gerard which he returned and he went of and got dressed.


We got home and Gerard was stood in the kitchen looking lost inside his head so I walked out to the kitchen and put my hand on top of his which made Gerard jump and looked at me.
"I keep on seeing his face every time I'm alone. I shut my eyes and it's like I'm reliving it all over again." Gerard said quietly and sniffed.
"The Doctor said this would be normal." I said quietly.
"I don't like have PTSD, I want to be normal again." Gerard whispered.
"Baby I know you don't and that you want to be normal but right now we are going to do this together. Me and you are a team now." I said and kissed Gerard's scar on his cheek.
"I love you, no matter what I'm by your side." I said and Gerard nodded.
"I love you too Frankie." Gerard whispered.
"Go and have a nap." I said and Gerard nodded.
"But I want something first." Gerard said and gently ran his finger down my chest and cupped me through my jeans which made me look at Gerard.
"You have medication to help you, remember the last time we tried. You flipped your shit Gee." I said.
"There's only so much medication can do. Baby please, I feel like him and all the others own me and I don't want to feel like they own me. I want my ass and dick and every part of my body feel like you own me. I want to forget for a while." Gerard said and kissed along my jawline.
I pulled Gerard closer to me and he put his hands on my chest and looked at me.

"Gee your not ready." I said and Gerard sighed.
"How the fuck do you know? How the fuck do you know how I am feeling!?" Gerard said loudly and went to walk off but I caught hold of his hand.
"I know because I can see the fear in your eyes. You are scared Gee." I said softly.
"I am not scared. I have had that bastard do unforgivable things to me. I have been fucking raped countless of times by him! And I have never been scared, why would I start now!" Gerard shouted.
"I know the bastard did unforgivable things to you but this time you was fucking gang raped Gerard. You fucking hear me, gang raped. This is so much more different to Quinn raping you. You have been hurt physically and mentally Gerard, I know you Gee." I said and Gerard scoffed.
"There is no difference Frank, rape is rape no matter the number of people involved in raping you." Gerard said and he went to walk off and I let him walk off.
"Babe." I said after Gerard and he stopped and looked at me.
"I love you, no matter how long this is going to take. I'm going to be by your side every step of the way." I said and Gerard smiled and he walked back over and hugged me which I returned.
"I love you too." Gerard said quietly and stood holding each other for a while until both mine and Gerard's legs went dead and then we moved to the sofa and cuddled.

"I'm scared to fall asleep." Gerard said quietly as I felt him trace is finger over my tattoos as he was cuddled into my side and we was both watching a film in bed.
"You'll be okay, I'm right beside you to keep the nightmares away and if you have any I'll help calm you down." I said and started to run my fingers through Gerard hair.
"You hair needs dying babe, these roots are making a lovely come back." I said and Gerard chuckled.
"I know, I'm thinking about dying it a different color though. Red keeps on washing out quickly and these roots come through quicker than anything." Gerard said and stopped tracing his finger over my stomach tattoo so I stopped messing with his hair.
"Don't stop babe." Gerard whined which made me chuckle.
I looked at Gerard and smiled which Gerard returned shyly and I sat up and kissed the end of the his nose which made Gerard move so he was lead on top of me.
"You said your parents passed, what happened to them?" Gerard asked as he looked at me and ran his thumb over my chin.
"I was 18 when my parents was killed by someone." I said quietly and Gerard moved off me and rolled onto his back and I cuddled into Gerard's side.
"Did they find the person?" Gerard asked and I shook my head.
"No, it's a ongoing investigation but it came to a dead end." I said quietly and traced patterns on Gerard's pale skin.
"Why don't you get tattoos? Your pale skin would look good with tattoos." I said and moved so I was on my side and looking at Gerard who smiled at me.
"Don't like needles." Gerard said quietly.
"That's a shame. But I can draw on you can't I?" I said and Gerard chuckled and lent forward and kissed me which I returned.
"Of course you can." Gerard smiled.
"You are pretty much the only person who I trust to touch me and you won't hurt me." Gerard said quietly and I noticed he was slowly falling asleep.
"I'm glad that you trust me and I promise that I will never hurt you Gee." I said quietly and kissed the end of Gerard's nose since he was asleep and I couldn't help but smile when I saw a small smile of Gerard's face and I settled down and fell asleep waiting for a Gerard to wake me up with a nightmare.

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