Safe me from myself.

Gerard's POV

After we had dinner everyone went off in their own direction which meant Nate was off round his girlfriends, Riley was hiding in her room playing video games or whatever the hell she does. Mikey was talking to his boyfriend and having phone sex, which was not nice to hear. I normally would go to my room and draw and listen to music and wallow in self pity and think about the things my ex said to me.
But with Frank around it was nice to have someone to talk to and hang around with.

Me and Frank was sat in my room and Frank was looking round my room looking at my drawings mainly.
"Tell me about your parents." I said out of the blue and Frank looked at me while messing with his lip ring which was a turn on I had to admit.
"What do you want me to say about them?" He asked and looked down and carried on looking at my drawings.
"You never talk about them, are they dead or something?" I said and Frank chuckled quietly to himself.
"My parents aren't dead, well I don't really know to be honest but the last I heard they weren't dead." He said and stopped what he was doing and thought about something.
"Then why don't you live with them?" I asked curiously.
" My parents gave me up to the system." He said quietly and looked at me.
"Why did they do that?" I asked.
Frank ignored my question.
"Where's you mum? I haven't seen a woman round the house and I never see any woman clothes when I put myself to good use and do the washing. You dad always puts 6 plates out." Frank said and I looked down.
"My mum walked out when me and Mikey was little. Mikey doesn't have anything to do with her but I see her twice a year or whatever." I said and shrugged my shoulders.
"I'm sorry to hear that." Frank said and he got up and walked over to the bed and sat next to me leaning against the wall and I moved and rested my head on his shoulder.

"Tell me what happened to your parents, you know what happened to my mum its only fair you tell me what's happened." I said and Frank chuckled.
"Truth really is that my parents didn't give me up." He said quietly and rested his head on top of mine.
"Then what happened?" I asked and started to trace my finger over Franks tattoos.
"The state took me from them. My parents was drug users and they used to do things to me." He said sounding a bit broken by this which wasn't like Frank at all.
"I was too little to remember the things they did to me but I remember that I had to be careful where I stood, what I said." He said and moved away from me and I looked at him.
"I never used to talk you know. It was only when the state took me and I was put into care that I started to talk." He said and picked at my covers.
"I never had friends and that's when the voices started. I thought the voice was my friend but after going though lost of foster homes I realised the voice wasn't my friend." He said and looked at me.
"I don't want to be like this Gee. I just wanted to be normal and have people who loved me like any parent would. But it never really happened." He said and looked down.
I was expecting him to cry but he didn't which shocked me as I feel like he has never opened up to someone before.
"We love you here Frank. No one else might not show or say it but if you weren't here the house would be pretty dead, especially smelling bacon at 3 in the morning because you have the munchies or whatever." I said and Frank chuckled and smiled a little.
"I made a promise to myself that if I had kids that I would never be like my parents. My kid would have all the love I could give it and I would be there for them even if times got tough because I would never want my kid to be in the system. I know what its like and its not pretty, its fucking horrible." He said and looked down.
I put my hand on his knee and Frank looked at me.
"You don't have to go back you know. Yeah you're an asshole sometimes and running off like you do doesn't help but dad won't give up on you. Nate was awful when he came here but look at him now he a nice lad and a good shoulder to cry on." I said and Frank smiled.
"I think that's what's you need, everyone gave up on you and you feel like every person is like that, but their not. You can literally throw everything you've got at dad and he'll put you back in your place but he won't give up on you and neither will I." I said.
Frank's smile grew bigger and he moved and put his head on my shoulder.
"Its not nice when you feel like your a failure at everything and no one wants you. I wouldn't wish it on anyone." He said quietly.
"Well you don't have to feel like that anymore." I said and Frank moved his head and kissed my cheek.
"I know, I feel safe here for some reason." He said which made me smile.
"Well I'm glad about that." I said and we put Netflix on and spent the night watching Netflix.

Notes

haha! I did manage to update since I'm awkward round people and I have had enough of meeting and talking to people who I don't know.
Dont know if I like this chapter or not but it'll have to do for now.