Bipolar Sunshine

Franks POV

The last few months have been really hard for me and Gee.
Gerard had a really bad episode and he tried to kill himself which almost work so now he's in isolation and under close supervision.
I was being more paranoid which meant I was being more violent that what I would normally be but I was surprised when they didn't move me to the more secure ward where the more violent people go.
So life was really shit for us at the moment.

I was sat on Gee's bed like normal when a nurse came in to check on me.
"Hey Frank how you holding up?" They asked and came over and sat with me.
I was off my face from the medication they have given me so I didn't really respond to the nurse.
"So your room mate will probably be coming back by the end of the day. I know how much you've missed him." They said.
Again I still didn't say anything but just looked at the floor.
"Anyway, I'll be back to check on you." They said and patted my leg and got up and walked out my room.
I just glared at them as they walked out the room and then looked at where they touched me and I get really angry.
"Don't fucking touch me again! You hear me!? You fucking child molester!" I shouted and got up and started to trash my room to help get it out of my system a little.
"Do you need to be sedated again Mr Iero?" Someone asked seriously.
"Come fucking near me and I'll kill you! I'll kill all of you!" I shouted again.
"Mr Iero you need to calm down otherwise I'll have to sedate you." The person said as they walked into my room.
"Get the fuck out of my room." I growled and stopped what I was doing and stood still with my hands in a fist by my sides breathing heavily thanks to me trashing the room and my back was too them.
"Mr Iero I'm afraid I can't do that." They said and I felt a hand on my shoulder.
I grabbed hold of their arm and pretty much threw them over my shoulder and held them down with my foot.
"I said get the fuck out of my room." I said through gritted teeth.
" Help!" The nurse shouted and before I knew what was happening I was on the floor and darkness came into my vision.

When I woke up I went to move my arms but I couldn't and my head really hurt as well.
I groaned as I sat up and looked at Gee's bed and saw someone lead on it with their back to everything.
"Gee? Is that really you Gee?" I asked and the person on the bed turned round and looked at me and I couldn't help but smile.
"Yeah its me Frankie." He said quietly.
I went to get off my bed but found my ankle had been cuffed to the bed.
"Fucking bastards." I said and felt myself getting really angry again.
Gee got off his bed and walked over to me.
But he was really weary of me and when he stopped he made sure I wasn't in reach of him.
"Gee I'm not going to hurt you." I said really wanting to walk over to him.
"That's what they said but they lied, they made me hurt myself and then I had people trying to hurt me." Gee said trying not to cry.
"Gee you know me, I'm not going to hurt you. I care about you too much to hurt you." I said and Gee looked at me.
"They told me what you did. How you nearly killed a nurse." He said his voice sounding so innocent.
"Gee, I've been losing my fucking mind without you here. All the nurses know what I can be like and they still choose to ignore it." I said pulling at the cuff on my ankle ignoring the pain I was causing myself.
"But you nearly killed him. The Frank I know wouldn't of done that." He said looking down.
"I can't always be that Frank Gee. I have a history of violence, I can't help myself I need to lose my mind before I can gain control of it again. Surely you know how that feels." I said.
Gee stayed quiet.
"I could really do with one of your hugs right now Gee." I said quietly and Gee looked at me and thought about it.
"I promise I won't hurt you." I said seriously.
Gee looked down and then looked at me and gingerly took a step forward and stopped once he got in front of me.
"I've missed you so much!" Gee said and pulled me into a big hug and he started to cry.
All I wanted to do his hug him back but instead I was hugging myself.
"I've missed you too Gee." I said and moved my head into his neck more and breathed in his sent.
We stayed like this for a while until Gee yawned since it was late.
"Go to bed I'll still be here in the morning." I said quietly and he nodes and walked over to his bed and climbed into bed pulling the covers over him.
Once I knew he was okay and asleep I climbed into my bed in some little attempt to go to sleep as well.

Notes

And I am back and alive...

Well I still feel pretty shitty right now so I don't feel so good physically and mentally because I'm messed up in the head like that...

But yeah my head was literally all over the place,,, still is to be honest so there no hope for me at this moment of time,,, and I have been stupidly busy with work and everything is proper stress full as well so I am generally all over the place but like I said I am back hopefully and I won't leave it so long to update anymore