Bipolar Sunshine

Gerard's POV

I was happy to see Frank but at the same time I was sacred of him.
I mean he's in a straight jacket and cuffed to the bed for fuck sake.
The things I heard while I was away really shocked me as I couldn't think that Frank would ever be like that.
We'be both changed a lot since we've been apart.
I was pulled from my thoughts when the door opened.
Me and Frank sat up and looked towards the door.
"Way come with me, you have visitors." The nurse said.
I got up and followed the nurse to where the visitors was.

I looked round the room and saw mum and Mikey.
I scoffed to myself and walked over to them but not before the nurse stopped me and I looked at him.
"No funny business Way." The nurse said seriously.
"Well that's nothing I can't promise." I said and walked over to mum and Mikey.
"Well if it isn't the people who sent me here." I said and sat in the chair.
"Gerard don't speak like that." Mum said.
"Okay, hello mother dearest and brother dearest do what do I owe to have you gracing me with your presence." I said sarcastically.
" We just wanted to see how your getting on, we miss you." Mum said.
"Maybe you should of thought about that before you sent me here." I spat at them and sat forward.
"It was for the best." Mum said.
"What to lock me away? Send me to this shithole? All because you was ashamed that one of your sons and a fucked up head." I said through gritted teeth.
"Gerard your sick, you needed to be sent away so you can get better." Mikey said and looked at me for the first time.
"Get better? Get better my fucking ass." I said.
"Gerard language." Mum scolded me.
"You don't fucking own me anymore." I growled.
"Gerard please don't be like this." Mikey said and looked down again.
"What's the matter baby bro, ashamed your brother is a fucking screw lose and in a fucking nut place because of it." I said and glared at Mikey.

"How have you been Gerard?" Mum asked moving onto a different subject.
"Well let me see, oh yes I'm drugged up to my eyeballs, I tried to kill myself a numerous of times but failed as you can tell as I'm seeing your faces. So I'm pretty peachy at the moment." I sassed.
"You tried to kill yourself?" Mum asked quietly.
"Don't act so surprised mother. It was bound to happen and I ended up in a fucking padded cell with the huggable jacket on to stop me doing any more damage so I live another day." I said.
"They never told me what you did." She said.
"That's because I'm old enough not to have anyone informed on what my crazy head is doing." I said.
Mum just looked at me.
"So I'm just gonna cut to the chase here. If I ever get out of this place I am not coming home. I want nothing to do with any of you. So, you don't bother calling me, don't bother seeing me. Just fucking forget about me I'm sure as hell everyone else has forgotten about me." I said and went to stand up but Mikey put my hand on top of mine.
"Gee please, this isn't you talking." He said and looked up at me.
"This is me talking." I said and pulled my hand away.
"Gee please, I need my brother whether your in here or not. I need you Gee and I really miss you." Mikey said with tears in his eyes.
"Fine. Only Mikey can see me. The rest of you are dead to me." I growled and walked off.

I walked back to mine and Franks room and Frank was sat on his bed watching me.
"You okay? You seem pretty pissed off." He said.
"Well great observations skills." I said sarcastically.
" Oh, a different Gerard I love it." Frank said and shuffled forward on his bed.
I glared at him from my bed.
"Damn that's a glare and a half." Frank said.
"Fuck off Frank." I said.
"Well I would but I'm kind of cuffed to the bed, so me fucking off is a no go." Frank said.
I just rolled my eyes at him and turned round so my back was too him.
"Well that's not very socialable of you." Frank said.
"This is some sort of game to you!?" I asked and turned back round to face him.

"Life is a game, everyone is just a different level than others." Frank said.
"Okay, if life was a game then what does that make us?" I asked.
"We're just the broken pieces. Like with chess, you take out the weak ones and then relie on the strong ones to win the game." Frank said and lead on his back.
"So we're just sent in these places because we was taken out?" I asked.
"Yeah, if you think about it." Frank said and looked at me.
"Because who needs weak game players when you can have the strong ones who can do the weaker ones jobs." Frank said.
"Every game has weak players but still manage to complete the game. It all depends on how well that person playing the game plays that player." I said.
"But think about it, how many people would choose the weak players? None because you don't get far with weak players, you always need the stronger players to have their backs." Frank said.
"Not always." I said.
"Okay, how many people actually helped you when you was having a episode?" Frank asked and sat up and sat crossed legged and looked at me.
"None, because I kept it to myself." I said.
"That's because you never relied on anyone to help. If you did then that person who be the stronger player and then uses your weaknesses to make them stronger." Frank said.
"Maybe that's why I never told anyone." I said.
"Smart move. Once people know your weaknesses they will use it against you all the time." Frank said.
"Well duh because people are sick like that." I said and Frank looked at me and smiled.

A nurse came in and checked on us.
"Can I have the jacket off please?" Frank asked.
"No. Its for yours and Gerard safety." The nurse said.
"Please, my arms need to move. I won't hurt Gee, he's the only person I would never hurt, and anyway I cuffed to the bed and the only way I would hurt him is if he got close enough." Frank said.
"Fine. If I take it off you won't hurt anyone." The nurse said.
"I'll try not too." Frank said as the nurse took the jacket off.
"My arms are free!" Frank said and moved them above his head.
" If anything happens come and get us." The nurse said to me and I nodded and they walked out the room.
"Oh hey wait." Frank said to the nurse but they was already gone.
Frank sighed and looked down.

I got off my bed and walked over to his bed and sat next to him.
I looked at his ankle and his was cut and bruised from where he'd been pulling and tugging on it.
"You need to get that looked at." I said.
"They don't care. As long as we don't hurt anyone or ourselves they don't get a shit." Frank said.
"I care." I said and Frank looked at me and smiled.
"I know you do. I care about you too." Frank said and rested his head in my shoulder.
I rested my head on top of his.
"Was this where you tried to kill yourself?" Frank asked and ran his finger up my arm and over the scars and scabs.
"Yeah." I said quietly.
"Its okay, don't be upset. Let's just lie down, cuddle and sleep." Frank said and I nodded.
Frank guided us both down and I pretty much fell asleep right away.

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