I'm Not Okay (I Promise)
Why Not Frank?
Holy cow! I think I've got one here
Now just what am I supposed to do?
I've got a number of irrational fears
That I'd like to share with you
She came back! I swear this girl is like, oh I don’t even know how to explain it. Yeah, I’m still a bit confused about this whole affection thing and why she suddenly decided that she likes me back but I’ll ask her about it later. All I care about is that she came back.
Still not feeling extremely well I continue to let my head rest in Amber’s lap, her nails grazing over my forehead, brushing my bangs out of my eyes just for them to fall back into my face. I swear I could sit here all day and let her do this.
“Amber –” I try and turn my head to look at her but the room starts to spin and I have to turn it back – “I’m glad you came back.”
“I’m glad I came back too, though I have to admit I didn’t get the greeting I was expecting,” she laughs, leaning down to kiss my cheek, her hair tickling my face.
“Well I’m not too proud of that.”
Amber frowns, glancing over at Gerard who is still sleeping. I could have avoided the episode Amber saw when she came back but I was stupid and gave into my brother’s sob story. I drank myself sick and will never do it again. In truth though, I’m glad Amber was there. I’m not sure I would have had the courage to make it through.
“We all do things we’re not proud of,” she replies allowing Frank to replace his head on her shoulder.
I frown a little. My fingers finding one of the tattoos on Amber’s arm. I trace it for a little. There’s a question I want to ask but I don’t know how to word it without upsetting both Amber and Frank. The last thing I want is for the both of them to leave again. I’m too sick to take care of Gerard if he needs it.
“Can I ask you a question that may or may not upset you?”
Amber’s eyes meet mine, “You can ask anything you want Mikey.”
“Why not Frank? I mean he’s the obvious choice. You two are connected at the hip.”
Frank smiles a little, his lip ring finding it’s way between his lips. Amber’s expression doesn’t change making it hard for me to tell if she’s upset about what I’ve just said or not. It isn’t that I want her to change her mind about things I’m just not sure if she’s thought about it or what her thoughts are about things.
“Frank’s my best friend Mikey. That’s just how it’s always been. Right Frankie?”
Frank looks like he’s in incredible pain. He obviously doesn’t feel the same way that the redhead does. “Sure thing.”
“I like you Mikey, that’s all you should worry about,” Amber continues with a smile. “Frank and I will always be very close though so if you aren’t okay with that you should let me know.”
For a few minutes I disappear in my head. Am I okay with that? Would I be okay if Amber was my girlfriend but she still kissed Frank on the cheek, if they still hung out without everyone else?
Before I can say anything I hear a sniff from above. Turning my head I am met by something wet hitting my nose. I sit up, wrapping my arms around Amber as Frank looks on in confusion.
Amber sniffs, wiping her eyes with the back of her hand, “I should’ve known better. I’m so sorry Mikey.”
I shake my head, burying my face in her hair, my lips near her ear, “You didn’t give me a chance to answer silly. I’m fine with whatever.”
I don’t blame her for crying…she’s a girl who’s fragile and it’s obvious that putting your feeling out in the open is a risk.
From beside her, Frank leans over and wipes a few wet streaks on Amber’s face away before kissing her quickly on the cheek. Iero needs to get over his kissing thing. It’s just gonna get him in trouble…again.
“You two are cute,” Frank says. I can tell that he doesn’t really mean what he’s saying.
Amber giggles, looking back over at me, “You know it.”
This sends all three of us laughing and for a few minutes I’m able to think everything is going to be okay.
Author's Note: Update, yay. I hope all of you will continue reading :)
Now just what am I supposed to do?
I've got a number of irrational fears
That I'd like to share with you
She came back! I swear this girl is like, oh I don’t even know how to explain it. Yeah, I’m still a bit confused about this whole affection thing and why she suddenly decided that she likes me back but I’ll ask her about it later. All I care about is that she came back.
Still not feeling extremely well I continue to let my head rest in Amber’s lap, her nails grazing over my forehead, brushing my bangs out of my eyes just for them to fall back into my face. I swear I could sit here all day and let her do this.
“Amber –” I try and turn my head to look at her but the room starts to spin and I have to turn it back – “I’m glad you came back.”
“I’m glad I came back too, though I have to admit I didn’t get the greeting I was expecting,” she laughs, leaning down to kiss my cheek, her hair tickling my face.
“Well I’m not too proud of that.”
Amber frowns, glancing over at Gerard who is still sleeping. I could have avoided the episode Amber saw when she came back but I was stupid and gave into my brother’s sob story. I drank myself sick and will never do it again. In truth though, I’m glad Amber was there. I’m not sure I would have had the courage to make it through.
“We all do things we’re not proud of,” she replies allowing Frank to replace his head on her shoulder.
I frown a little. My fingers finding one of the tattoos on Amber’s arm. I trace it for a little. There’s a question I want to ask but I don’t know how to word it without upsetting both Amber and Frank. The last thing I want is for the both of them to leave again. I’m too sick to take care of Gerard if he needs it.
“Can I ask you a question that may or may not upset you?”
Amber’s eyes meet mine, “You can ask anything you want Mikey.”
“Why not Frank? I mean he’s the obvious choice. You two are connected at the hip.”
Frank smiles a little, his lip ring finding it’s way between his lips. Amber’s expression doesn’t change making it hard for me to tell if she’s upset about what I’ve just said or not. It isn’t that I want her to change her mind about things I’m just not sure if she’s thought about it or what her thoughts are about things.
“Frank’s my best friend Mikey. That’s just how it’s always been. Right Frankie?”
Frank looks like he’s in incredible pain. He obviously doesn’t feel the same way that the redhead does. “Sure thing.”
“I like you Mikey, that’s all you should worry about,” Amber continues with a smile. “Frank and I will always be very close though so if you aren’t okay with that you should let me know.”
For a few minutes I disappear in my head. Am I okay with that? Would I be okay if Amber was my girlfriend but she still kissed Frank on the cheek, if they still hung out without everyone else?
Before I can say anything I hear a sniff from above. Turning my head I am met by something wet hitting my nose. I sit up, wrapping my arms around Amber as Frank looks on in confusion.
Amber sniffs, wiping her eyes with the back of her hand, “I should’ve known better. I’m so sorry Mikey.”
I shake my head, burying my face in her hair, my lips near her ear, “You didn’t give me a chance to answer silly. I’m fine with whatever.”
I don’t blame her for crying…she’s a girl who’s fragile and it’s obvious that putting your feeling out in the open is a risk.
From beside her, Frank leans over and wipes a few wet streaks on Amber’s face away before kissing her quickly on the cheek. Iero needs to get over his kissing thing. It’s just gonna get him in trouble…again.
“You two are cute,” Frank says. I can tell that he doesn’t really mean what he’s saying.
Amber giggles, looking back over at me, “You know it.”
This sends all three of us laughing and for a few minutes I’m able to think everything is going to be okay.
Author's Note: Update, yay. I hope all of you will continue reading :)
Notes
Author's Note: Update, yay. I hope all of you will continue reading :)Song: Falling For You by Weezer
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Yay!!! Thank you, this story has been really great, as well as your others!!
10/2/16