We Shouldn't Be Here

Mikey's pov

"How's your hearing?" I asked Frank when he woke up, we had to carry him to the hide out. After the bomb went off the guards all rushed to the town hall and they shot a few of us. They were all in their room recovering or sleeping, Blake was killed in the shooting. "My fucking head." He groaned and pulled himself up, cradling his head in his hands. "Here." I handed him some pain killers, he took them and pulled the blankets from his body. His muscles shifting under his shirt, he gained all the wieght back and he was more muscular than what he used to be. "Gerard's sleeping, he seems to be okay, when we got him he was sleeping." Right when I said that Frank jumped out of bed and flung the door, his nose in the air as he ran down the hallway. He stopped outside of Gerard's room and opened the door.
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Frank's pov

There he was, Gerard, laying in his bed, he looked paler and more skinny than what he used to be. His hair looked darker too, more inky and shorter, his banges making his skin look almost white. I just stood there, drinking in every detail of him, my mate, my love. "Wake him up." Mikey said softy, his voice breaking me out of my trance. All of a sudden I was extremely nervous. Taking a deep breath I walked in and stood next to his bed. "Gerard?" I said softly and shook his shoulder gently, he whined and roled over. "I'll leave you two be, call if you need anything." Mikey said before shutting the door, I didn't take me eyes off of Gerard. His chest slowly rising and falling, his peaceful face. I crawled into bed, wrapping my arms around his waist, pulling him tightly against me. Nuzzling my face in the back of his neck, breathing in his scent. I closed my eyes and fell asleep the fastest that I have since he was gone.

"L-let me go!" Gerard said making me wake up, he was thrashing in my arms. Trying to push away from me in a frenzy, the room was filled his fear scent. I let go of him, he crambled off the bed as fast as he could. "Hey, Gerard, it's okay, you're safe." I said, he must he confused on where he is now. "W-where am I?" He stuttered out, his voice was hoarse and quite. "You're at the new hide out that Mikey and Andy found." I said and got out of bed and walked over to him. I just wanted to kiss the hell out of him since I saw him sleeping. Gerard back up until his back hit the wall, his body shaking in, fear? "You're okay now, Gee." I said and stopped in front of him. "How do you know my name? Who a-are you?" He asked softly, his voice wavering in fear and shock. My heart stopped when he said that. He doesn't know who I am? "It's me, Frank, your mate. Don't you remember me?" I asked, Gerard stared at me wided eyed and slowly shook his head. "I-I don't know you..." This must be a sick joke. "What did they do to you?" I mumbled more to myself than him. Gerard looked at the door and then at me, he started running towards the door before I could move he had it opened and was running down the hall. "Gerard, where are you going?" I heard Andy call from the hallway. I ran out of the room and followed Gerard's scent to the living room where most of the pack was. "Gerard?" Mikey said as Gerard tried opening the locked door. Gerard didn't respond as he kicked the door, trying to break the glass that wouldn't budge. "You're going to hurt yourself." Mikey said and tried to get Gersrd to stop. He was acting like a cornered animal as he backed away from Mikey. "Who are you?" He said as Mikey came close to him. "What?" Mikey said in shock and looked at me. "He doesn't remember us." I mumbled, me just saying that made my heart break even more. "Gerard, you need to calm down, we can talk about this." Mikey said as Gerard tried kicking the door down again. I came up behind Gerard and wrapped my arms around him, stopping him from kicking the door but now he's thrashing in my arms. "Calm down, Gee, it's okay." I said, he didn't stop struggling, he was way lighter and easy to pick up. After a while he tired himself at and hung limply in my arms, tears streaming down his face.

"What?" Gerard asked when we told him that we were all werewolfs and so was he. "That's impossible..." He mumbled, Mikey, Gerard, and I were sitting at the table, the pack were somewhere else in the house. "Would you like us to show you?" Mikey asked, Gerard looked at me then at Mikey, he nodded slowly. Mikey gestured for me to shift, I stood up and let myself shift. Gerard stared at me in shock as I sat next to him and grunted softy. He stuck out a shaken, pale hand, I leaned forward and placed my head against his palm. It felt so nice to have his familiar touch again. His shaking fingers ran over my ears and into my fur. "I-I can do this too?" He asked softy, I nodded making him retract his hand from me. "Do you remember anything?" Mikey asked as Gerard went back to petting me. "I don't remember any of you... I woke up in a hospital and they helped me go back to my life. I went to therapy every week. I felt like I wasn't even in my body most of the time. When-when I tried to end it all I realized that something was wrong with me... I tried to over dose on sleeping pills the day that you got me out of there." Gerard said softly, his hand never leaving my head as he tried to calm himself down. It killed me when he said that he tried to end his life, he felt so bad that he wanted to end it all. I shifted back in it human form and wrapped my arms around him as he broke down. Gerard started crying into my chest as he shook. "It's okay, baby, just breathe." I whispered as he cried, he clung to my shirt like it was his life line. "It's okay now because you're back."

It's been a week since Gerard's been back, he's been sleeping in his own room down the hall. He only came out when he wanted to eat or if he wanted to go outside. It hurts me every single day knowing that he's there but we can't be like what it used to be. He doesn't see me as his mate, he sees me as a friend. Every day it feels like we're drifting apart and every day I feel my heart breaking even more. "Frank, you need to talk to him." Mikey said as we sat together in my room. I looked out my window, watching Gerard lay in the grass, watching the clouds go by. "He doesn't remember me, Mikes... He doesn't love me anymore." I mumbled and layed back in bed. "You just have to make him remember, I know that Gerard just can't stop loving someone because he just doesn't have any memories of you." He said and looked at Gerard through the window. "I can do that." I said with a grin, I know that drives Gerard crazy. "Just don't make too loud." Mikey chuckled, I swatted his arm and sighed.

Notes

Wow, two updates in two days, I'm so great.