If I was dead

Gerard's pov

"It ki...kinda hu...hurts." I said quietly as Frank ask how talking felt. "It probably will for a while from not taking for so long." He said sitting on the couch and held his arms out to me, I crawled into his lap. "Your really cute." He said running a hand through my hair, I blushed and buried my face in his chest. "Hey boys." Ana said walking through the front door, she smiles warmly at is and went into the kitchen. "How was your guys day?" She asked from the kitchen, Frank said it was fun and I nodded my head. "Does pizza sound good?" She asked leaning against the door frame, Frank nodded. "I li...like pizza." I said making Ana's mouth drop open, her eyes darted to Frank and then me again. "You talked, oh my gosh Gerard, this is great!" Ana said coming over and hugging me, I flinched away and she let go but was still smiling. "This is amazing! We are going out to dinner to celebrate, get ready you two." Ana said running to her room before either of us could say anything. "We don't have to do that." I said as Frank helped me up, he shrugged and led me upstairs. "Once she sets her mind to something you can't talk her out of it. This will be fun, we can still get pizza." He said as I changed my t-shirt and pulled my back swear over my head, I perked up at the thought of pizza. We got into the car, me and Frank sat in the back, I leaned my head against his shoulder as we shared earbuds. We got to the pizza place, there wasn't a lot of people there, me and Frank sat in the same side of the booth. "What got you to talk after all of these years?" Ana asked as she flipped through the menu, I shrugged and looked at Frank who was smiling at me. "Frank sh...showed me th...that I actually mattered." I said trying to get use to talking, Frank pulled me closer. Frank ordered a vegetarian that was really good. We left the restaurant and went home, I thanked Ana for taking us out.
The next couple of days I had to go to speech therapy to build my vocal cords back up. I couldn't pronounce some words like 'literally', Frank said it was cute though. He came with me to all of my appointment making me fell way better and less nervous. I also had to go to regular therapy because of my depression and self harm. I normally didn't talk when I was there, I just wrote down what I wanted to say, the therapist was okay with this. "Okay Gerard you need to practice when your at home, but when your throat starts to hurt its okay to stop." Dr.Farr said as I left his office with Frank, I nodded and I took Frank's hand as we got into the car. Ana greeted us, she dropped us off at the house because she had to go to work. When we got into the house I kissed Frank's cheek and sat on the couch. "What was that for?" He asked pulling me into his lap, I shrugged and nuzzled his neck. "I love you." I said making him smile widely, he leaned in and kissed me gently. "I love you too." He said against my mouth, his tongue running over my bottom lip, I opened my mouth for him. I let out little moans against him mouth as he palmed me through my pants. He scooped me up and brought me to his room still kissing me. "I want you." I whispered against his chest, he got the lube and condomes out, he took the lube and out it on his fingers. He slid one in to me making me whimper for more, he slid two more in and my nails dug into his sides. He took them out and slowly slid himself into me making me moan loudly. "Your noises are so hot, your so tight Gee." He moaned as he moved faster making me moan again, my stomach muscles were tightening up. "Frankie...l..." I trailed off as he nodded and thrusted faster, my whole body shook as I came making me whimper against him. "God I love you so much." Frank said hugging me tightly. "I love you too." I said back and snuggled in. "Schools gonna suck tomorrow, I just gonna cuddle with my Gee bear." Frank pouted and kissed my head, I giggled and nuzzled his neck. "I would get bullied a lot at my other schools." I said trying not to think about any of the bad stuff. "That's never going to happen again, I promise." Frank said rubbing my back, I wish I met him sooner, I wouldn't be extremely depressed. "Why are you crying?" Frank asked whipping my cheek with the back of his hand, I didn't notice I was crying. "I...I wish I was never born sometimes, m...my old foster dad s...said I was a fuck up. No one wanted me because I'm messed up. I'm a terrible person." I cried into his chest, he hugged my tightly. "Your not a fuck up, shh Gee, nothing he said was true, your perfect in every way. Everything will be okay, I'm here for you." He said rocking us back and frothing soothingly, I cried until I cried myself out and fell asleep in his arms.
"Gee, wake up." Frank said softly, I groaned and snuggled into him more, I don't want to get up. "Come on Gee." He said and gently picked me up, I didn't complain as he set me down on the ground. I laid down and yawned, if I couldn't sleep on the bed then I could do it on the floor. "Then I'll just leave you here." Frank said walking to the door, I sat up right away as looked at him scared, I don't like being left alone. I stood up and pulled my black skinny jeans and black converse on, I ran a hand through my messy hair. I as still wearing my black swear from the day before so I changed into a charcoal gray sweater. I followed Frank down stairs where Ana greeted us, Frank ate some toast and fruit, I wasn't really a morning eater. When we got to school we got to our first hour pretty fast with no one bothering us. Class started and the teacher rambled on and on about some old person. Frank did everything he could to get my attention and it worked. For all of my classes we messed around, I'm surprised we didn't get in trouble. I had to go to the bathroom really bad at the end of the day, Frank needed to go to his locker so I would meet him after I was done. I went to the bathroom and washed my hands, the door opened and someone stepped in, when I turned it was the bleach blond hair guy. I tried to walk past him but he pushed me back against a wall, he was at least six inches taller that me. "Hey mute." He growled slamming my head against the wall, I let out a whimper, that really hurt. "Where's your little boyfriend at? Did he get bored of his little boy you?" He laughed practically choking me, he started to fumble with my belt and my whole body froze. "Oh little mute what's to have some fun?" Blondy said pulling my pants down, I struggled against him but he wouldn't let go. He took his pants off, we were both naked from the waist down. I started to cry, this can't be happening again, no, no, no, please stop. I wanted to speak but I couldn't, flashbacks to what happened with Robby came back to me and I had a break down, I cried as he forced me around. I felt him pushing at me entrench when the bathroom door opened. "Gee? Get the fuck off of him!" Frank yelled and pulled Blondy off of me, I sunck to the ground still crying, I just wanted to die.

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