If I was dead

Gerard's pov

"You worthless piece of shit." Robby growled pinning me to the bed, teirs streamed down my face. I wanted him to stop, I wanted to call for help, but I couldn't. My pants were at my ankles making it so I couldn't really move my legs. Robby's arm held me down as his other one touched me were I didn't want to be touched. My vision was blurry from crying, please just stop, I don't want to live anymore. My small ten year old hands gripped the sheets as Robby thrusted into me making me cry in pain, it hurt so much, the pain was everything, pain was the only thing in my life.
"Gee? Wake up bear." Frank said shaking me gently, my face was slick with tears and sweat. I took a deep breath that sounded choked and just straight up depressing. I clung to Frank for dear life, probably squeezing the shit out of him. He wrapped his arms around me and all of a sudden memories came flooding back to me. I panicked and pushed off of him and scrambled to get off the bed. "Gerard what's wrong?" Frank asked confused, it didn't sound like Frabk though, he sounded like Robby telling him to stop trying to get away. I needed to get out of here, I landed on the ground with a loud thud, that hurt but I didn't care. The room was pitch black and I couldn't see anything, Robby never turned the lights off. I scooted back until I came to a corner, I roled into a ball and cried into my arms. The light flicked on, Frank was standing there, Robby wasn't here, only Frank. "Gee what happened?" He asked handing me my notebook and pencil, I started to write with shaking hands. 'I thought you were Robby.' I wrote and gave the notebook back to him, he read it and nodded slowly. "Robby is never going to hurt you again, I would never hurt you." Frank said, I wrote down 'I know you wouldn't hurt me.' and gave it back to him. I slow held my arms out and he gave me a hug, my body relaxed right away. He pulled me up and we laid back in bed. He pulled me on to him fully, I took a fistful of his shirt in my hand and fell back into the nightmare, waking up every ten minutes, and crying.
"Wake up boys!" Ana called from downstairs making me jump and snuggling into Frank more. "Wake up sleepy head." Frank yawned, I didnt want to wake up, I was still tired. I roled off of Frank and pulled the blanket of my head and closed my eyes. Frank got up and my arm shot out and grabbed his shirt, he stood there and took my hand in his. "We need to get ready Gee bear." Frank said kissing my hand, I nodded and slowly got up, it was cold in here but it felt nice. He was dressed already, I crawled out of bed stretcheding my arms over my head. My shirt coming up around my waist showing my scars, Frank's eye dart to them but he doesn't make a moment. I got dressed fast and followed Frank to the kitchen. "Good morning." Ana greeted setting toast on the table, Frank greeted back as we sat down. I was extremely jumpy this morning, every sound or movement would make me jump, I couldn't shake off those nightmares from last night. Before I know it I was having a break down at the table crying into my sleeves of my black sweater. "Gerard's what's wrong?" Ana asked concerned and sat down next to me, I shook my head and leaned into Frank who wrapped his arms around me. "Gee, do you want me to tell her?" Frank asked softly, I nodded and put my hands over my ears so I didn't have to hear anything. After Frank told her I was a sobbing mess in Frank's arms, Ana looked shocked. "That's horrible Gerard, have you told anyone else, like a social worker?" Ana asked resting her hand on my shoulder, I flinched away and pressed into Frank's chest more. "No, he's only told me, he's had nightmares all last night." Frank said rubbing my back gently, I snuggled in finding comfort in his touch. "I need to make a phone call." Ana said getting up and dialing, she walked out of the room with the phone up to her ear. She came back a half an hour later, well I guess no school today. "I talked to Debra, she is getting everything taken care of." She said sitting down and sipping her coffee slowly. "You guys can skip for today, I called your school. Gerard I'm so sorry that all of this has happened to you, Frank I need to speak to you for a second." Ana said, Frank slowly got up squeezing my hand and waking to the living room with Ana. I could hear them whispering, I couldn't make out any words. "I have to leave for work, I will call on my lunch break. Love you guys." Ana said hugging Frank and waving to me, she closed the door behind her and drove down the road. Frank turned to me stuffing his hands in his pockets and smiling gently at me. I got up and hugged Frank tightly, we were practically the same height. He's been so nice to me, this was the first time in a long time that I get like I was worth something. "It's only seven fourteen, let's go back to bed." Frank said taking my hand in his and leading me to his room, I wasn't tired anymore. I sat down taking my notebook in my lap and started to write while Frank sat quietly. 'Thank you for helping me, just when Robby would do those things it would hurt so much and I couldn't do anything to stop it. You've been so nice to me when I don't deserve it, I'm a terrible person.' I gave to notebook to him, his eyes widened when he read it, I looked down making my hair fall in my face. "You didn't deserve to be raped and beaten when you were younger. You aren't a terrible person, your amazing Gerard, your so talented and smart. I love you." Frank said, I jumped into his arms hugging him tightly. He fell back hugging me at the same force, I slowly pulled away with my hands on his chest. I blush when I realized that I was on top of him, he smiled up at me and pulled me down into a kiss. I melted into his touch, his hand on the back of my head pulling lightly on my hair. I whimpered against his mouth and he kissed harder making me shake slightly. I turned into a whimpering, panting, shaking mess on top of him, he didn't stop kissing me as he flipped us over. "I love you Gee." Frank said kissing me neck making me whimper again. "I...I lo...love you t...too." I stuttered, Frank pulled back in shock, wait did I actually talk?! "You talked, you talked Gee, oh my God!" Frank said reading my thoughts, I was shocked too, it felt weird talking, it kinda hurt. "Yeah." I said, my voice was hoarse and quiet, Frank pulled me into a hug. "I like you voice, it's sexy." He said making me actually laugh out loud, he smiled even wider. "It's been like what? Twelve years since you've talked?" Frank asked, I nodded and remembered the last time I talked was the day my parents died.

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