If I was dead

Gerard's pov

"Wake up boy Gerard! You too Frank!" Ana called from down stairs, I was already awake. Frank groaned and hugged me tightly. "I don't wanna go to school." He pouted, I sat up and he followed reluctantly, he leaned over and kissed my cheek. I was honestly really nervous about school, at my old ones I got bullied a lot. Frank must've read my expression and smiled at me reassuringly. "It's okay Gee, we have the same classes together. I'll protect you." He said getting up to get dressed, he made me feel better but I was still nervous. I got dressed in my black skinny jeans, my black sweater, and my black converse, nice color choices. Frank was practically wearing the same thing but a Misfits hoodie and dark red vans. We headed down stairs where Ana was, she had breakfast make like normal, and like normal I wasn't really hungry. Me and Frank sat next to each other and held hands, Frank dug in and I watched. "Have a fun first day Gerard." Ana said happy and gave me a mug of coffee, I nodded and took a sip. After Frank was done we got up and headed out the door. Frank took my hand as we made our way to school, the walk was five minutes. He led me up the stairs and to our first hour, I was extremely nervous now. We walked in and sat down in the back next to the window. We sat down and after a while other kids filed in and sat down near the front. "Lookie here, Frank found a little boy toy." Some guy said with bleach blond hair, I slouched down in my chair and looked down, Frank sqeezed my hand reassuringly under the table. "How Jonathan doing?" Frank asked with a huge smirk on his face, Blondy looked extremely flustered and just sat down. "Jonathan was his boyfriend, no one know they were dating, I found out when I walked in on them in the locker room." Frank whispered, I nodded and jumped when the bell rang for class to start. "Hello class, today we have a new student, his name is Gerard. Would you like to tell the class about yourself?" The teacher asked, the whole class turned and looked at me, my heart was racing. "He doesn't talk." Frank said practically staring the teacher down. "Oh okay, so class anyway..." The teacher said dismissing Frank and me. I turned to him and gave him a thankful look, he smiled at me and I leaned my head on his shoulder as the teacher rambled on about some stupid stuff. After the bell rang, which gave me a heart attack, Frank took my hand and led me to our next hour. "Hello, you must be Gerard." The next teacher greeted us at the door, we were the first ones in there. "I am Mr.Stump, I already read your file so I know you don't talk Gerard." Mr.Stump said smiling widely, I gave him a small smile. "Finally someone here that actually does their job." Frank laughed, Mr.Stump laughed and went back to grading papers at his desk. We sat down, another near heart attack later and class started. Mr.Stump honestly was pretty cool, he wasn't boring at all and made a lot of jokes that were funny. I started sketching random things in my sketchbook, mostly just zombie cats and dogs, I heard Frank laugh softly next to me. "They look so cute." He said leaning closer to me, I blushed and kept drawing. "Your cute." He said, I blushed even more and gave him a shy smile, he put his hand I my thigh and I flinched away, why was I always so jumpy. He pulled away but still smiled at me, I wrote down 'sorry' and gave it to him. "It's okay, I forgot it scared you." He whispered so no one would hear, I nodded and leaned my head against his shoulder and held his hand lightly. After the bell rang and I didn't jump that badly because of it, we were walking down the hallway holding hands when I tripped over something, Frank saves me from falling. I looked behind us to see Blondy laughing with his friends, Frank looked extremely pissed, I tugged on bus sleeve and shook my head. He relaxed a little and glared at Blondy and his friends. "Oh little Frankie's boy toy mute doesn't want him to square up." Blondy laughed, his friends laughed with him stupidly, I felt bad that they were making fun of Frank because of me. Frank took my hand and we walked away, his jaw was clenched. Frank led me to the bathroom and started to pace, like what I do when I'm trying to go to bed and can't. "Those stupid ass holes." Frank growled still pacing, I stood back against the wall and liked down at my feet. "I'm sorry Gee." Frank said walking over to me and slowly pulled me into a hug, I hugged back tightly and sob quitly into his shoulder. "Shh Gee, don't cry about those stupid jerks." Frank said softly, I wiped my tiers away smiled sadly at him.
Finally we can go home now, school sucks ass, it literally sucks ass. Me and Frank held hands as we walked home, his thumb running over my knuckles. Once we got home Frank led me to his room and shut the door, I set my backpack on the floor and sat crossed legged on the bed. "You look so cute like that." Frank said staring at me, I looked down and blushed, I did that a lot with him. He came over and I looked up at him biting my lip. He leaned forward kissing me gently, his tongue running over my bottom lip, I opened my mouth for him. I fell back in bed with him on me, his hand trailing down my side lightly. I whimpered against his mouth and he kissed me rougher. He was getting me so turned on, his hand trailing down lower until it got to my waistband. He looked down at me and I nodded, he palmed me through my pants, letting out little whimpers against his mouth. He was driving me so crazy, I wanted him inside of me so badly. I tugged on his sleeve and mouthed 'I want you', he smiled down at me and got his condomes and lube out. We slid our pants off and put the condomes, Frank put lube on his growing problem. He flipped me over and slowly pushed in, I let out a little moan and he started thrusting in making my whole body shiver in pleasure. "Fuck babe, your so tight, your so perfect." Frank moaned thrusting into my faster, he hit my g-spot every time. "I can't hold bad much longer." He moaned, I felt my stomach muscles tighten, I couldn't hold back much longer. He came and a few moments I followed, I panted heavily trying to get my breath back. He slid out and cleaned up, I went to my room to change into my pajamas. I glanced up at the mirror, I looked like shit, I already know that, I sighed and walked back to Frank's room, he was doing some homework from our math class, I got it done in class. "Ugh I hate math." Frank pouted as I sat next to him, he had two problems wrong, I took his pencil and showed him how to do the problems. "Wow your good at this." He said watching me, I gave the pencil back to him and he finished now that he understood it better. "Thanks." He said kissing my cheek, I smiled at him and laid back in bed staring up at the ceiling.

Frank's pov
Gerard helped me with my homework and after that we cuddled. "I love you." I said trailing my hand down his chest to his stomach and back up again. He mouthed 'I love you too' and laid his head back down on my chest. "Boys! Dinner is done!" Ana called from downstairs, it made Gerard jump, I hatred when something scared him. We walked down stairs, Ana made pasta and eggplant, yum. Me and Gerard sat down and I dug in, Gerard sat there and looked at a peice of the eggplant. "It's really good." I said giving him a peice, he picked it up squinting at it and then took a small bite. He nodded his head and ate the rest, he only at that, and sipped on his water. After I was done eating I thanked Ana for dinner and me and Gerard went to my room. He took his notebook out and started to write. 'Can I sleep with you?' He wrote and handed it to me, I nodded and he brightened up a little, he kinda looked sad though. "What's wrong?" I asked concerned, he wrote in his notebook and handed it to me not looking up. 'I keep having nightmares and the dark scares me a lot. I don't want to be alone, I'm scared Frankie.' I looked up at him and pulled him into a hug he flinched but relaxed after awhile and cried into my shoulder quitly. "Don't be scared Gee, I'm here and I won't let anything happen to you." I said rubbing his back trying to calm him down, he sniffled and wiped his eyes. "Let's go to bed." I said softy, he crawled under the covers and I slid in next to him, he rested his head on my chest and was alseep in no time. About five minutes later he whimpering and twitching in his sleep, it got worse over time. "Shh Gee, it's okay now, I'm here." I whispered softy and ran my fingers through his hair gently, he settled down a little. He let out one final whimper before setting down, I closed my eyes and fell asleep.
I woke up to Gerard laying on the bed sideways with his legs hanging off the bed and his head on my stomach. I sat up and slid him back on the bed, he make little gasping sounds like he was trying to talk. All of a sudden he sat bolt up right gasping for air, his eyes darted over to me and he relaxed a little. "It's okay." I said as he snuggled closer to me, he shook against me. He looked so scared and jumpy, he was jumpy about everything but I know there was a reason behind it, and I was going to find out.

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