If I was dead

Gerard's pov

No ones ever tried to hold my hand before or even kissed me, I don't know if my parents did when I was a baby. I've been to a lot of foster homes over the years, none of the other kids liked me. I normally just sat in my room alone listing to music or sketching, but in this one I wasn't alone. Frank held my hand as we watched together, Ana didn't notice because there was a blanket across our laps. "I see that you two are getting along fine." She said happily, Frank nodded and squeezed my hand, I squeezed back lightly. "Well I need to go to work, see you boys at five." Ana said getting up and putting her shoes on, then she left. Right when the car left the drive way Frank was on me in seconds kissing me roughly I let out a little gasp of surprises. He smiled down at me tucking my hair out of my face. "Your really cute." He said trailing his hand down my cheek, I blushed and gave him a shy smile. He crashed our lips together sliding his tongue into my mouth, he moaned against my mouth as I opened my mouth a little wider. "You turn me on so much." He said kissing my neck making my shiver in pleasure. I didn't really have an clue what we were doing last time so I let Frank take the lead, I could tell that he liked that. He gave me hickies letting his tongue run over the sensitive skin making me shiver. He leaned me back and slid to his knees in front of me, he slid my pants off and grinned up at me. "Have you ever had this done before?" He asked taking my dick into his mouth making my back arch in pleasure. His head bobbed up and down, his tongue trailing up and down with his head, I leaned my head back panting heavily. His tongue running over my slit multiple times, even time I felt my self coming to my breaking point. My stomach muscles tightened and I came in his mouth, he swallowed all of the white, salty liquid. He wiped some that was dripping down his chin away and helped me pull my pants off. I looked at him questionly as he sat next to me and held my hand again. "You don't have to do that." He said gently, I nodded thankfully, I didn't want to mess up if I did do that. I slowly leaned against his chest, he wrapped his arm around my waist and kissed my head. I've never been to someone this close before, he gave me butterflies every time he said my name. I know I was in love with him and he had the same feelings for me. I nuzzled my head against his chest and he brought me even closer, I liked this a lot. After cuddling for a while I heard Frank's stomach growl which made me jump just like everything else. "Sorry, do you want to eat?" He asked looking down at me smiling, I shook my head and he looked confused. "You don't really eat that much." Frank said, it wasn't really a question so I shrugged, he sat up taking my hand and led me to the kitchen. "I can make you stuff?" He said hopefully, I shook my head a tried to make a hand gesture that would resemble 'I'm okay' it must've worked. He took out some bacon stuff, toast, and fruit, Frank didn't eat meat which was cool because I loved animals and didn't like to see them hurt. I sat at the table and saw a pad of paper and a pen, I've never talked or tried to talk to anyone ever. I took the note pad and wrote down 'sorry, I don't really eat' and handed it to him, he looked surprised that I even wrote something down. "It's okay, so uh why don't you talk?" He asked nervously, I wrote down 'My parents died in a house fire when I was younge, after that I never talked again. They separated me and my little brother Mikey.' I have the paper to him and he gave me a hug. "I'm so sorry Gee." He said, his nickname for me gave me butterflies and my heart ached for him. He pulled away slowly and kissed my head, he got his good and sat next to me and ate. 'I haven't talked since I was three, that was twelve hours ago. I've never done this before.' I wrote showing it to Frank, he smiled and held my hand. "I'm your first?" He asked taking a bite of his toast, I nodded and he squeezed my hand. After he was done eating he led me to the living room and sat down on the ground facing each other. "Tell me about your self." Frank said smiling at me, I nodded and wrote on the pad of paper. 'I like D&D, Audrey Hepburn, Fangoria, Harry Houdini, and croquet. I can't swim, dance and I don't know karate.' I showed him the paper and he laughed. "I can't swim, dance, and I definitely don't know karate." He said, that made me smile, and he smiled even more. 'I like you a lot.' I wrote down blushing and gave it to him. "I like you a lot too." My heart stopped and I felt really happy because he said that, he liked me too. "I think your extremely cute too." He said making me blush really hard, he leaned over and kissed gently, his hand resting on my thigh which made me flinch so he pulled his hand away but kept kissing me. He slowly placed his hand back and it didn't scare me that time. His tongue trailing over my bottom lip, I opened my mouth and he took the invitation happily. His hand slid up and down my thigh lightly as we kissed, his other hand was on the back of my head tugging my hair a little. I was getting a little overwhelmed by all of this, my heart rate increase and I was kinda fighting for air. Frank pulled away and looked at me concerned, I tried sucking in hair but nothing seemed to happen, fuck I was having a panic attack. Frank practically read my mind when he picked me up and brough me to his room setting me down on the bed. "I hate panic attacks." He said rubbing my hand gently, he pulled me up so I was laying on his chest. "Just breath, it's okay." He said soothingly, I nodded and focused on trying to breath, after a while my breathing was normal again, Frank was still rubbing my back and holing me tightly. I let out a little sigh and nuzzled his chest, he smiled down at me and kissed my head. "You okay now?" He asked still a little concerned, I nodded and slowly sat up, everything went blurry and then back into focus. I slid back down and shook my head slowly. "Just rest." He said rubbing my hand again, I nodded and shut my eyes letting his heart beat lull me to sleep letting the darkness take me.
I woke up probably an hour later still in Frank's arms, he was asleep. I slid off of him and went to the bathroom, I didn't bother to look in the mirror. When I got back to his room he was still sleeping, I went over to his CDs and flipped through them. There was a lot of Misfits and Black Flag CDs with some other stuff that looked really cool, he has a good music taste. "Wanna listen to music?" He asked making me jump, I nodded and handed him a Black Flags cd, he got up and put it in his CD player. I sat down on his bed cross legged and watched him jump the the beat like an energetic bunny. He stood up on his bed and held his hand out to me, I took it hesitantly and he pulled me up. He took both of my hands and started to bounce, I joined in and soon we were jumping around like crazy. Frank was laughing nonstop and I smiled widely, I tripped and fell into the bed bring Frank with me, I landed on top of him. I blushed really hard and moved to get off but he held me in place. "I like it when your on top of me." He said raining his hand through my hair, I didn't stop blushing, my hands were on his chest. I slowly leaned forward and kissed him, he kissed back but let me do most of it, I honestly didn't really know what to do.

Frank's pov
Gerard leaned forward and kissed my gently, I kissed him bdkc but let him do most of it. He was even submissive when he was on top, I honestly really liked it though. His lips were so soft and his mouth was hit and wet, he tasted like strawberrys. After a while he got a little more confident and kissed me harder, he didn't flinch when I rested my hands on his waist. His tongue grazed my bottom lip and I opened my mouth to him, his tongue slipped in and out every once in a while. The kiss was getting heated and I would feel my growing problem in my way to tight jeans, I could feel his against my stomach. "Fuck Gee." I moaned as he palmed me through my pants as we still kissed. His hand went faster and I did the same for him, he let out a little moan that sounded so hot. In minutes we were both coming and panting heavily, Gerard slid off of me and looked down at our now dirty skinny jeans, he blushed really hard. "You were great." I said kissing his head, he nodded and went to his room to change and clean, I changed into my pajamas and cleaned up. Gerard came back in a skeleton onesie that made him look so fucking cute. He stood near the door looking really nervous, I patted the spot next to me and he slowly made his way over to me. He got into bed and I immediately wrapped my arms around him to bring him closer, he looked so cute and tiny. "I love you Gee." I said kissing his head, he looked up at my and mouthed 'I love you too' back, I smiled and kissed his head.

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