Just Look At All That Pain

Our lips slowly move together before Gerard slides his hand up to cup my cheek as his tongue gently slides along my bottom lip and I whine softly against his mouth as I tear my other hand out from under his and spin around to face him, my mouth opening and inviting his tongue in as I slide my hands up around the back of his neck. Gerard moans softly into my mouth as his hands slide down to rest against my lower back, using the grip to pull me closer and all the reasons why this is the worst idea I've ever had leave my mind, all my thoughts consumed with him, all my senses invaded by him. We slowly pull apart for air and I finally open my eyes again for the first time since this started, Gerard's face right there, his eyes burning straight into mine and it's like the last two years never happened, all coherent thought leaving my mind and all I can think about is him.

"Babe" I whisper as I launch myself on him, our mouths smashing together in a bruising kiss as his hands slide down to grip around my thighs, my arms tightening around his neck as he lifts me like I weigh nothing, my legs wrapping around his waist as he turns us away from the window, lowering me to the bed seconds later as he climbs over me. I slide my way back into the middle of the bed, Gerard crawling between my legs as he follows me, our kiss never breaking and once we're comfortable I slide my hands up to start unbuttoning his shirt, Gerard's hands sliding down my sides to grip at the bottom of my t-shirt.

What feels like seconds later I am completely naked, sprawled out in the middle of the bed as I watch Gerard stand by the bed removing his pants and boxers, pausing to retrieve a condom and packet of lube from his wallet before he throws it to the floor, tossing the packets into the blankets beside me before climbing his way back up my body, his slightly leaking erection brushing against mine as he leans down and kisses me again and I feel like I had been drowning and his lips are oxygen, a feeling of relief and euphoria flooding my body as we kiss and I groan softly into his mouth as he grinds his hips down, giving me just a hint of friction against my hard, throbbing dick. We continue to make out heatedly as Gerard fumbles around in the blankets for the packet of lube, making a small triumphant noise as he closes his fingers around it before he tears his lips away from mine and starts a trail of kisses down my chest and across my stomach, his tongue teasingly swiping over one bird before sliding across to work the other before he pulls back and whispers out "Love that you have these baby. You and me, forever," referencing what the birds symbolise, me and him.

Gerard continues to kiss down until his face is buried in the crease at the top of my leg, his head tilting so he can breathe in the scent of my cock and I feel my whole body twitch as my breathing becomes shaky and I hear the rustling of the foil packet being torn open before Gerard gently guides my legs just a little further apart before two of his fingers gently circle my hole, spreading the lube around before he slowly sinks one inside me as his lips wrap around the head of my dick. I throw my head back, my hands clenching in the sheets as Gerard slides lower and lower, taking me almost the whole way in before he slides back up, working his finger in and out of me and a few seconds later he pulls back and adds a second finger, stretching them slightly as he continues to blow me and work me open until I whine softly and bring one hand down to tangle in his hair, tugging him off me as I pant out "Enough, need you."

I release Gerard's hair as I reach out in search of the condom laying beside us, tearing open the packet and reaching down to slowly roll it onto Gerard's dick, watching as he grabs the lube and pours some out onto his hand before reaching down and starting to stroke himself, slicking up his length as I lean up on my elbows to watch properly, my eyes glued to the sight. Once he's sufficiently slick Gerard grips the base of his dick, steadying it as he guides the head to my hole, my legs widening just a little more as I wrap them around his hips and he gently thrusts forward, sliding just the head inside me before stopping and I throw my head back and groan out, the stretch slightly burning but mostly it feels amazing being stretched around him. As Gerard thrusts his hips forward a little more I bring my head back up, Gerard leaning down at the same time and we meet in a heated kiss, Gerard continuing to thrust until I feel his hips pressed against me and I know he's as deep as he can go. "Fuck baby" I groan as we gasp for air and Gerard drops his forehead down to rest against mine as he pants out "So fucking tight baby, so good."

A few thrusts later Gerard's pace is still slow and steady and I need more, feeling desperate so I buck my hips up, knocking Gerard off balance and as he falls to the side I roll with him, keeping him inside me as we roll so I'm on top, my legs either side of his and I brace my hands against his chest, pushing myself up to sit before I start bouncing and grinding on Gerard's dick, building up my rhythm and speed as I go until I'm riding him like my life depends on it and Gerard's hands grip at my hips hard enough to leave bruises. "Fuck baby, feels so good, so much better than her" Gerard groans out and a split second later I realise what he just said and I feel anger bubble up in me as I raise my right hand, clenching it into a fist before I bring it down into Gerard's face, his eyes opening at the last second before I make contact with his nose, my bouncing stopping as his nose starts gushing blood.

"You fucking son of a bitch" I scream at him as I brace my hands against his chest, ready to push myself up to get off him when Gerard's hands wrap around my wrists and he flips us over again, pinning me beneath him as he starts to thrust into me again, quickly building up a rhythm as he pins my wrists to the bed either side of my head, leaning down over me as his thrusts get harder and faster. "Get off me" I spit out as I struggle against him, blood from his nose running down his face and dripping off his chin, dropping onto my chin and chest and I turn my head to the side as I struggle against him, his thrusts bordering on painful with how forceful they are. "Stop" I tell him, thrashing against his hold but he's stronger than me, always has been, so I am powerless to do anything. A few more thrusts later I am still struggling and I let out a choked off sob as I scream out "Stop," his thrusts really starting to hurt me now and Gerard thrusts once more before stopping, seeming to finally realise something is wrong.

As soon as he pulls out of me I kick out at him, Gerard moving back off me and I slide off the bed, backing my way across the room until my back hits the wall and I slide down to sit, bringing my knees to my chest as I bury my face in them and sob, slowly rocking myself back and forth and I vaguely register Gerard moving around the room, collecting his clothes and dressing again before he softly says "I'm sorry Frank" and a few seconds later the sound of the room door closing reaches me.

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