i heard less than half of what the speaker was saying. i was mostly mad that i hadn't died. my life was useless i was just taking up space, space other people that wanted to live, need.

after awhile they let us out for lunch. sky came and asked the girl if she wanted to have lunch with me. she hesitated but finally Sky convinced her to come. when we got to my room are food was our lunches were waiting for us. sky placed the girl in front of me and i know she wanted me to talk to her.

“now frank i want you to be nice to her. i like here so i'm pretty sure you will too” i looked up at the girl. she had black waist length hair and some of it was falling on her face. her eyes were black or at least they looked like that from where i sat.

“i'll try not to” i said to sky who was placing are food in front of us. the girl just sat there not saying anything and i wasn't going to ask her name, since i'm pretty sure sky had said it at some point.

“i’m cristal if u forgot” she tilted her head and offered a shy but sweet smile. she was really pretty.

“oky Frank don't scare her and Crista be nice” we both looked at her as she walked out the room.

”why are you here?” i asked her without thinking. she looked a bit confused.

“in your room or in the hospital?”

“in the hospital”

“i took some pills so i could die” she said this with pain but annoyed.

“why” it was all i could say. i wonder if u took the same pills? i could be a hypocrite and tell her she was a beautiful and she had her whole life ahead of her.

“why i did it?”i just nodded looking at her and her face darkened suddenly

“dad died for his country and mom became a druggy and alcoholic. both died before i was ten.” her voice was so cold. i just sat there listening to her.

“i should have died 3 years ago actually”

“how old are u?” she looked like she was at least 16 or 18

“18”

“you were just 15! why would u try to kill yourself then?!?”

“i was being bullied and my aunt kept getting in my face about the littlest things. so on my birthday i cut my wrist. the easy way out” she looked like she was in pain. God dammit this was my fault i made her talk.

“i'm sorry you don't have keeping going”

“its okay i haven't told anyone about this...i kinda feel better” i could tell she felt awkward but damn she was pretty.

“how old are you?” she had interrupted my thought.

“uh..oh i'm 19”

“nice so why are u here?” grate my tern,

“my..” she probably doesn't like gays

“i went through a hard break up” i just looked down at the floor.

“you're gay aren't you?” i looked up at her surprised. she had her head tilted to the side she looked so damn pretty.

“how did you-” i wasn't sure if i said something. she was giggling now. the way her eyes squinted was were cute. i should stop everything about her was cute.

“i was actually guessing” she kept giggling and it was contagious i started laughing.

“will i'm not gay i’m bi” she perked up a bit and smiled. we started talk about nicer things and we found that we had a bunch in common. after some time Sky came in and asked us if we wanted to go back to the conference. we said no and so Sky left with are empty dishes.

after a while another nurse came in to take cristal back to her room. she promised she would come back today or tomorrow in the morning. i gave her a squeeze on her had before she left

Notes

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