It's all tøø real

I groaned as a bright light blinded me. I squinted slowly. Not sure if I was still alive.
My eyes finally fixated on the light revealing it to be a bright head light hovering over me. I looked around more finding white walls surrounding me.
I studied each object in the room to see if they were actually real.
I glared at the window that let in bright sunlight. It didn't waver, it didn't flash. I'm guessing it's real. I went to study more objects as a hand squeezed mine tightly.

"Frankie?" A quivering voice whispered out.

I turned my head hoping to god I wouldn't see Gerard. I don't think I could face him. Not yet.
I felt my breath hitch in my throat as my eyes met Mikey's. His eyes were red and puffy. He'd been crying. He looked exhausted. Had he been here the whole time?

Mikey scoffed out a small smile as he looked over my face, "I thought I lost you, Frankie." He let out a small sob, "I was so scared. I couldn't lose you. I just couldn't. I couldn't lose you both."

I felt my heart sink. How could I have been so selfish? Mikey lost his fucking brother. The brother he grew up with. The brother he looked up to. The brother he'll never get to see again.
I at least got to live in this delusion. Mikey had to deal with this all alone. And i made it worse.
I felt my lip quivered as I clutched onto his cold hand.

"I am so sorry Mikey. I'm so fucking sorry." I felt tears push their way out of my eyes, "I just thought I couldn't live without him. He was all I had. We were happy. I never wanted that to end."

Mikey sighed softly stroking my hand with his thumb, "I know Frank. It's okay. I know it's hard, but we're going to get through this."

I stared up at Mikey. He looked just like Gerard. They had those same emerald eyes I had always loved. Every little piece of him somehow looked just like Gerard. I wonder if it was hard for him to look in the mirror after the accident.

Mikey placed a small kiss against my forehead, "Get some rest, dear." Mikey smiled, "Tomorrow we're going to go see that doctor again and get you some pills. We're going to get through this, Frank. We're gonna be okay."
Mikey's Words rang through my ears as I faded into unconsciousness.

We're gonna be okay.

Notes

Shitty short chapter I know. And I'm sorry. I feel terrible because this is my first work and I hate it. I have no motivation for it anymore, but I'm going to finish it even if it kills me. There's only one chapter left and I hope I can make it right. Thank you guys for going on this journey with me. Even though this piece isn't a favorite it has lead me to someone who I absolutely adore and I just love him so much(I think you know who you are <3). It also lead me to discover who I am as a writer. It helped me really see how I wanted things and how to learn how to plan them out. And i know it's 'just a shitty fanfiction' but it really has helped me progress as a writer. I didn't know I wanted to continue on this path until this story and who knows maybe one day I'll be publish. So, once again thank you all for going through this weird and shitty journey. I probably wouldn't still be writing if it wasn't for all the love and support you guys have given me. So, thank you.


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