In My Mind Only

It’s been two weeks and every day, Frank was better than the last. Just last night was the first time he finished a meal and didn’t puke it back up. We’ve grown closer and have said ‘I love you’ to one another as much as we possible could. I looked over at Frank’s sleeping figure through the dark and smiled softly. I had work in the morning, but I didn’t really care. I could stare at him for days and never become bored. Ray had stopped coming around, stating that he’d rather Frank get better first before he came over, which I understood. There was a lot of history there. I peered over at the clock on the other side of Frank and realized I only had another three hours left of sleep. I pulled him closer to me, causing him to stir in his sleep slightly before stilling once more. I closed my eyes and drifted off to sleep before I could count to ten in my head.

“Gerard?” I heard Frank murmur in my ear. I thought it was a dream, so I didn’t answer. Then I felt him shaking me and an alarm blaring in my ear. Oh. “Gerard, please turn it off. It’s giving me a headache,” he mumbled closer to my ear. I slowly raised my arm and slammed my hand down on it, hitting a button and making it stop. I laid there with my eyes closed for a moment before I felt Frank shaking me again.

“Baby, you’ve gotta go to work. You can’t be late or absent again.” I smiled at his term of endearment, opening my eyes and looking over at him. He was staring at me sleepily. He leaned forward and pecked my lips softly. “I’m sorry,” he suddenly said. Before I could ask why, he swiftly pushed me off of our bed and I fell to the cold floor.

“Hey!” I huffed, standing to my feet quickly, ready to scold him. He turned over and went back to sleep. “You’re lucky I love you, you little shit.” Then I walked away into the restroom to shower.

“I love you, too,” I heard him say just before closing the door. I smiled to myself and stripped. It was the perfect morning, I thought to myself. I sighed as the water hit my back. It was a good morning for rough sex, but Frank and I hadn’t really done anything but hand jobs and I blew him once. Since his gag reflex was still sensitive, he couldn’t return the favor, which made him very upset. I chuckled softly, thinking about how upset he was that he couldn’t pleasure me with his mouth. He could just look at me and I could probably come in my pants right then and there. Wow, I thought, I feel like a hormonal teenager.

“Gerard, are you staying out later tonight?” Frank asked as I dressed myself.

“No. I don’t have any meetings and as long as no one gets a detention, I should be home around five. Why?” I asked, putting on my socks. I felt the bed move and then a pair of arms wrap around my waist. I smiled softly as he put his chin on my shoulder.

“Because I’m going to miss you,” he whispered in my ear. I shivered softly as he placed a wet kiss on my neck and licked up to my ear slowly. I groaned softly.

“Frankie, I thought you said I couldn’t be late anymore?” I teased, a small smirk on face.

“I just want you to go to work with a hard on because of me,” he chuckled.

“You evil bastard,” I laughed.

“The evilest.” I laughed harder.

“Really? Because you seem more like Mojo JoJo to me,” I laughed hysterically, earning a small hit on my back.

“Fuck you,” he laughed. I turned and winked at him.

“Maybe later, baby,” I joked. His eyes seemed to glaze over as he nodded.

“Yeah,” he whispered huskily. I sucked in a small breath, shivering at the thought of taking him anytime soon. I shook myself out of my vacancy, and turned back to slip on my shoes.

“Get some sleep, babe,” I said as I leaned down to give him a peck on the lips. He nodded his head sleepily and laid down. He continued to stare up at me, giving me those bedroom eyes. It didn’t help my erection that he was only in his boxers which were sliding off a bit, showing the small trail of hair leading to his member. I wanted nothing more than to undress and crawl into bed and take him. Lately, he’d been making more advances at me, but it was normally around a time that I had to get work done, we were falling asleep, or I was leaving for work, so I couldn’t exactly do anything about it. I hope to get a gift from the Gods soon for my strength.

I smiled softly down at him and blew him a kiss just before his eyes finally closed and he began to snore softly. I chuckled and left the bedroom, closing the door behind me quietly. It was moments like this where I could see myself doing this every morning. Letting Frank wake me up early, because I could barely do it myself, and kissing him goodbye before I left for work. I could see myself trying to grade papers while he’s talking me into watching more movies with him. I could see myself growing old with Frank, and it made me smile.

I was setting up my lesson plan when Ray walked in.

“Hey, baby,” he said, giving me a hug. “How’s Frank been?” I smiled a little at the thought of Frank.

“He’s starting to eat a little more and everything, so he’s making some progress,” I answered, setting a packet on each student’s desk.

“That’s good. What are we learning today?” He asked, trying to make some conversation. Things weren’t actually bad between us, but we also seemed a bit more distant from one another.

“It’s just a review packet for the end of the year exam. Nothing too big,” I explained as I kept going along the rows of desks to place the packets down.

“Hey, um, Mr. Way, is there anything I need to be worried about? You seem a little more distant than before,” Ray nearly mumbled. I paused my movements, looking up at him with what I hoped was a reassuring face.

“No, don’t worry about anything. I’m fine. Just distracted, I suppose,” I chuckled. The smile returned to his face and he nodded just as the bell rang. “All right, now get to class before you’re late,” I said, gesturing toward the door.

“Yes, sir,” he laughed. “I’ll see you in class. I love you,” he said just before walking out the door, giving me no room to even smile at his words. I still couldn’t tell him that I love him, because I just didn’t. I love Frank and that was obviously clear. I could’ve done it just then- broken up with him- but I couldn’t and I was still finding the excuse to stay with him, even if I didn’t even have one. I sighed deeply, feeling my pocket for my phone to send Frank a quick text before the kids started filing in, but I was surprised to see that I already had one when I looked at it.

Frank: I’m about to take a shower. Thinking about you.

I felt my cheeks heat up and checked the time, seeing it had only been sent to me about two minutes ago. I quickly answered back.

Me: Don’t get yourself too exhausted, I’m still coming home later ;)

I smiled to myself, feeling like a teenager again, but clearing it off my face just as the kids began walking so they couldn’t as questions.

“What’s up, Mr. Way?” Bob greeted as he took a seat at his desk.

“Hey, how’s it going?” I said more for formality. I felt my phone vibrate in my hand and quickly fumbled with it to see what Frank had responded.

Frank: You mean you’re still coming on me later.

I coughed, feeling my pants becoming tighter and suffocating. I bit my lip and looked around at the kids talking with their friends before the bell in two minutes. There’s no way I could stand up and teach at the board with my fucking hard on in their faces. I guess I’m staying behind the desk today.

Me: You’re so fucking sexy…

I put my phone on my lap as I waited for his response. My heart was racing and I felt giddy. I hated that Frank could do this to me, but I also welcomed it. Soon, I could make love to him and make him feel good. Honestly, the sex didn’t really matter to me, but it was nice to know that he wanted me just as much as I wanted him. I felt my phone vibrate and looked down at it.

Frank: And I’m all yours, Gerard. All. Yours.

I bit my lip, holding back a moan. Oh, my fucking fuck, this kid is going to kill me.

Me: If you keep talking like that, I may just have to “accidentally” become ill and go home early.

“Mr. Way, could I ask you a question?” Bob asked, breaking me out of my trance. I looked up at him and nodded my head, smiling and trying to seem welcome. Damn, Bryar, I scolded him in my head.

“The assignment last night, to read the last chapter to Brave New World,” he started. I nodded him on, encouraging him to finish. “Well, my book is missing the last two pages, so would it be all right if I read from some else’s copy and finish my report during class?” He asked. I raised my brow. Bob would normally half-ass anything, given the opportunity, but he was actually making an effort to do this report. I watched as he chuckled, catching me off guard.

“Um, sure,” I mumbled. He laughed harder. “What’s funny?” I asked, getting excited because I felt my phone vibrate.

“You look really surprised, Mr. Way. Look, I’m really interested in this book. Like, I haven’t read anything so… wow!” He said, smiling down at the copy of the book I had assigned him. I suddenly felt very proud of him and how far he’s come since the beginning of the school year.

“Really? That’s great to hear, Bob. I look forward to reading your report though.” We smiled at each other and then went about our own business. I looked down at my phone and felt my cheeks heat up at Frank’s words.

Frank: Such a rebel, wanting to play hooky with me. Wait until you come home. I’ve put my urges to the back of my mind long enough. Tonight, I’m going to give myself to you. Now pay attention to your class ;)

I quickly pocketed my phone and put my hands to my cheeks, hoping to cool them off. Frank is such a tease, I smirked. I chuckled to myself and loudly clearing my throat after the bell rang to catch my student’s attention.

“All right, class, in thirty minutes to turn in your reports on Aldous Huxleys’ Brave New World. Remember to have proper grammar, punctuation, and evidence to support your statements,” I informed them. “I look forward to reading them all. I’m sure you’ve all passed my class with flying colors.” They nodded, giving me small smiled before getting to work. Over the past couple of weeks, my mood has gotten better and they all seem more comfortable with me as they used to. I make eye contact with Lindsey and she gives me a thumbs up. I nod and smile bigger at her. I guess I owe her a bit.

Notes

This is a pretty short chapter, but I decided to split this chapter and the next one because I wanted to post something up and I needed the gap. I hope this chapter is enjoyable and I'm also hoping that the long awaited chapter (the next one) will be worth it. Thing is, I'm not sure who should top. I still can't decide. Anyone wanna give me some input?? Also, I'm sorry that my writing still hasn't improved. Good news though! I finally received my emotional support animal from our local fire station, so she and I will be helping one another! Her name is Cleo and she says "hello, everyone"!

What did you guys think about DS' new song?? I was so excited, I was pacing that entire day.

Excited for some much needed feedback! Let me know if you liked this chapter and even if you didn't! :))

Much love,
-OAIF <3