In My Mind Only

"All right, guys. Good run. No stopping, keep walking and go drink some water," I told my cadets. Cadet Challenge was coming up and they needed to be ready. Today we did the mile and tomorrow we would do push ups and sit ups.

On the bus ride back, I avoided listening to the Beatles, because they reminded me about Mr. Way too much and I couldn't handle that. I was excited about my day because I was going to enlist and see what day I could be sent to basic. We had a pop quiz in Economics that day, which I'm positive I aced since I actually study every night before bed despite how much it made me want to slam my head into a desk until I was dead. I'd seen Mr. Way throughout the day, but I tried not to look at him no matter how much I wanted to see if he looked the same way I felt: like shit. I didn't want to see him at all today because I knew he looked completely fine, and that thought itself nearly ruined my day. I hated the way he was making my chest hurt, and Jealousy want making it any better. Everytime she was near me, I knew it was because Ray was around. Couldn't she at least make it more inconspicuous? I mean, for the love of everything, I'm not an idiot. But it was like she wanted me to know ajd didn't exactly care for how I used to feel about her. When I thought about it, her and Ray were perfect for each other.

"Frank, what are you doing here?" I snapped out of my thoughts and I found myself standing in front of the person I wanted to avoid. Of course this shit would happen.

"Nothing. I was lost in thought and ended up here," I said. He looked at me with this certain gleam in his eyes.

"Well, I'm gllad you came here." I felt myself perk up at his weird and I wanted to scold myself.

"I have your movies here. I numbered them on what order to watch them," he said as he pulled out a pastic bag. I took it from him and looked at it. I thought we were going to watch this movies together, but he's just like my parents and fillled with nothing but empty promises.

"Thanks, Mr. Way."

"What happened to calling me by my first name?" I wanted to jump kick him in the throat for just saying to me.

"You told me that I have to call you Mr. Way from now on. Oksy, what is your deal? One moment your fine, next you're all pissed off at me and then your fine again? Don't play around with me like that..." I said. I watched as he got up from his seat and walked over to me. I was expecting him to hit me, but not hug me so tight that I struggled to breathe.

"I'm going to be honest with you, Frank, and you can handle this news how ever you want to." I stayed in his embrace because it seemed like he wasn't going to let go of me soon.

"I feel very... jealous about your relationship. I don't know what it is. I still like Ray, but I enjoy you a lot more. I don't know what to and so I got mad. I'm really sorry, Frankie," he,explained. I pushed him away by his abdomen and stepped back.

"You shouldn't say that to me. I'm not... I can't..." Then I turned away and walked out of the classroom.

"Frank, wait!" I stopped walking and he ran into me as soon as I turned around.

"Oh, shit. I didn't think you were going to stop. I'm glad though," he laughed. I kept looking at him, waiting to see what he was going to say.

"I'm sorry. I wasn't expecting you to stop, so I'm not really prepared for anything. Listen, text me, okay?" He said. I just walked away again since he wasn't going to stop me. I pulled out my phone and sent him a message.


Me: Explain, assface.

I pocketed my phone and walked to my 5th period class. I didn't know explactly what to think about what he told me, but I couldn't deny the feeling of happiness that I kind of felt. Though, that soon disappeared when Ray cornered me.

"Hey, Frank~" he sang. I hated when he did that. It always reminded me of shit I wanted to have forgotten long ago.

"We need to talk, Ray. About us." Then he gave me a serious look. We've avoided this for over three years.

Notes

Short chapter, because phone. Next chapter reveals some awesome shit :D What do you guys think? Lemme know!
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