Please Don't Take This Out On Me

"Turn to page 45!" Madam Corrie, or the math teacher at the foster house, barked at us. I squeaked and flipped through the heavy textbook we were given and onto the correct page. It had been 2 days since Gerard told me I was his, and I'd been clinging onto Mikey ever since. Literally. I never left his side once.
Every time I passed Gerard he'd just look at me with sad eyes and I felt like running to him and kissing him like there was no tomorrow but I couldn't. He was bad for me... even though I might never stop thinking about him. One time he did approach me. And boy did he look even worst then he did the last time I saw him. All he did was whimper and hold out his hand. I didn't know what he wanted. Maybe to hold my hand, or a hug? But whatever it was, I ignored him and Mikey wrapped his arm around my waist. I don't think I'll ever forget the look on his face after that. He looked so hurt. He looked like I had just taken away his favorite food in the world forever. I really did want to hold his hand... Or give him a hug... Or whatever it is he wanted but Mikey was right there and I wasn't sure I was willing to fall back into Gerard's trap.
"IERO!" I jumped and looked up into the harsh, green eyes of Madam Corrie. "Y-yes?" "Care to answer the question, or would you like to tell the class why you were daydreaming during math period?" I squeaked nervously. "Can y-you please repeat the q-question?" Madam Corrie rolled her eyes. "Slope equation?" "Y=mx+b?" Madam Corrie rolled her eyes again. "Indeed."
Once she went back to blabbing about lines on graphs I went back to daydreaming about Gerard. I should've held his hand. I knew what it was like to feel rejected and unloved... especially by my 'friends' at my old school. Mikey was my only friend and so was Gerard - kind of.
After the bell rang and I jumped; I collected my stuff quickly and told Mikey I had to grab stuff from my room before dinner. He nodded and said he'd go grab our usual seats... not that anyone else would take them.
As I dashed up the stairs I prayed Bob wasn't in our room. And luckily no one was there. It wasn't until I heard the door slam and swung around that I realized there was someone in my room. "Frankie..." the soft voice said before stepping out of the shadows. It was Gerard.
I whimpered and took a step back. "Wh-what do you want?" Gerard kept walking forward until I had my back pressed against the wall and could feel his hot breath tickling my neck. "Sh, Frankie. I missed you so much." I looked him in the eyes and could see the sincerity. He looked geniuenely heartbroken. And then he reached out his hand and I gently placed mine own in his; watching him carefully. He lifted it up to his lips and kissed it gently and I swallowed nervously.
I waited for his next move. I was cautious and totally prepared to scream for help if needed. But then Gerard ran a hand through my hair and slowly leaned in; eyes fluttering closed. I gently stroked his cheek with one hand and smiled before closing the gap between our lips.
The kiss was full of lust. That's all I could really say to describe it. Gerard's lips were attacking mine like an animal would attack its prey. It felt like he wanted - no. Needed me. After running his tongue for the second time across my bottom lip I gave in and opened my mouth; causing him to moan happily and me to blush.
Once we finally broke apart for air, Gerard rested his forehead on mine. He was panting and looked slightly tired and I hesitantly ran a hand through his sweaty yet beautiful red hair. "Frankie... I'm yours. I convinced Bob to take my room for many nights. We can't tell Mikey or he'll start an uproar but I just need you... I'm going to visit you here every night..." He broke off and took my hand in his.
I swallowed hard. Was any part of this a good idea? After battling my brain for a couple minutes against all logic I smiled and said "Okay, Gee."

Notes

hey guysss sorry ive been gone so long im writing this at 1am and im so tired... ugh i feel like i owed you guys an update. im going to bed now and will try and add more tmrw. love you all, thanks to everyone who reads, subscribes, and comments <3