Please Don't Take This Out On Me

All during dinner the only thing I could think about was Gerard. The way he kissed me was just so powerful and I swear to god he drove me insane. I found myself craving the taste of his lips and just wishing he'd hold me.
Mikey had to wave his hand in front of my face 4 times before I realized he was speaking to me. "Earth to Frank???" "Sorry!" I squeaked. I felt a warm blush spread over my cheeks and Mikey leaned in closer. "OOh Frankie's blushing!" "Shut up!" I squealed and smacked his shoulder playfully. Mikey sighed and drummed his fingers against the tabletop. "Do you know what classes we have tomorrow?"
Mikey nodded and I was grateful he got distracted easily. "Yeah. Bio, chem, spare, lunch, physical activity-" Mikey paused to make a silly face and I laughed. "-Art, drama, spare, free time, dinner, bed, yeah I think that's it."
I rolled my eyes. "Thanks bro." Mikey kissed my cheek quickly. "No problemo, bro." I snuck a look across the room at Gerard. He was glaring right at me. I bit my lip and looked away. Not good.
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After Mikey convinced me to stay in the dining room another hour to play bingo, I finally managed to sneak off and go to my room. Right when I opened the door he was sitting on my bed with his head buried in his hands.
"H-hi-" I squeaked softly and he immedietely looked up. "Come here." I walked slowly over to him and sat down beside him; biting my lip nervously. "Don't look so scared," Gee sighed softly and I rested my head on his shoulder.
He knew I was always scared around him. My heart always beat so fast I thought it would burst, my brain went all fuzzy and he made me feel like I would just melt into a puddle.
When Gerard wrapped his arms around me something felt a little bit off. He wasn't as wild or desperate as usual. He was much calmer. I liked this side of him but was a little confused.
We sat there in silence for a few minutes before Gerard gently wrapped his arms around my waist and pushed me down onto the bed. I let out a squeak and my heart started thudding nervously. "Hey, sweetheart you okay? Sh baby we don't have to do anything you don't want to I promise." Gerard paused to rub my arm gently. "I-I don't like being on the b-bottom-" I said nervously. Here it comes. Now he's gonna hit or yell at me. I flinched and waited for the impact but instead Gerard gently flipped us over so he was lying under me.
He looked up at me and ran a hand through my hair. I moaned quietly; rubbing my head into his hand and he smiled. Not a smirk - a smile. "Frankie? Can I have a kiss?" I leaned over and pressed my lips softly to his. Gerard cupped my cheeks with both of his hands and pulled me closer to him so he could kiss back.
We spent the next thirty minutes just making out. It was one of the best nights of my life.

Notes

who's joining me im gonna go play bingo with mikey