Please Don't Take This Out On Me

I let out a small moan as Gerard ran his tongue down my bottom lip. Parting my lips slightly, I allowed his tongue to explore the insides of my mouth. I pulled him closer to me, not knowing exactly what I was doing but just wanting him.
Gerard's hand that was running through my hair tugged gently at the strands and I gasped and opened my mouth wider. Gerard smirked against my lips and I giggled. I decided to be braver and kiss him a little harder and more passionately, however it was then he decided to break away.
I let out a quiet squeak and tilted my chin up; lips trembling and wanting more. My heart was just going crazy and Gerard just cursed and sat back down in his chair with crossed arms. Uh oh, that was never a good sign. I felt my eyes fill with tears and looked down. Part of me hoped they wouldn't fall because that would be embarassing, but part of me wanted them to so Gerard could see the pain he was causing me.
Tears slipped slowly from my eyes and I burst out sobbing and curling up. All I wanted was for him to love me back and stop fucking with my emotions. All I wanted was for him to stop hurting me and make all the pain go away. Was it too much to ask for him to stop abusing me?
"Frank?" I refused to lift my head due to the roughness of his tone. Was he mad that I was crying? He's the reason behind these tears! "Frank?" he asked more gently. I whimpered and shook my head; curling up tighter. "Frankie?" I quivered slightly in place; just craving Gerard's arms around me again.
"Frankie?" Gerard asked in a tone so gentle I thought it would break my heart. I looked up into his hazel eyes and whimpered. Ugh if he wasn't so beautiful I'd punch him. Probably.
Once he reached his hand up and brushed a strand of my hair away from my eyes I knew it was impossible to stay mad at him. He was just too addictive. I needed him. "Frankie what's wrong?" I shrugged and looked down. Here we go again. More decisions and emotions and fighting.
"Come on don't give me that bullshit. Tell me." I bit my lip and Gerard quickly pulled it out from under my teeth with a 'pop' noise. I tilted my head in confusion. "Don't fucking do that," Gerard hissed. "Or I swear I'll kiss you so hard you'll pass out." I felt a glimmer of hope flicker through me, and slowly and hesitantly bit down on my bottom lip again.

Notes

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