Please Don't Take This Out On Me

Gerard and I were left in Mrs Skybalt's office alone. Neither of us have said a word for the past half hour and the silence was killing me. I tried to speak several times, but the words sounded like whimpers and Gerard would shoot me a glare so I shut the hell up.
I sighed and started drumming my feet against the office chair; bored and scared of what Mrs Skybalt was going to come back and do to us. "Don't fucking do that," Gerard hissed and I squeaked and stopped. Well at least he said something...
"Why a-are you h-here?" I finally choked out. "W-what h-happened?" Gerard rolled his eyes. "I fought with Mikey about something, if you must know." "I-is he o-okay?" I asked; frightened for my best friend. "He's fine, jesus christ why are you so worried about him? We just had a fight." "H-he's my best f-friend," I stammered. "I h-have no one e-else." Gerard raised his head to look into my eyes and I was having trouble figuring out what emotion was in those gorgeous hazel eyes. Sadness? Pain? Loneliness? Is loneliness even an emotion?
"It seemed like you two were more than friends, getting all cuddly and shit." Gerard snorted and I trembled slightly. "N-no I d-don't like him like th-that." "Who do you like then?" Gerard was sitting in front of me in an instant. I blushed. "N-no one." "There must be someone," Gerard growled. "You just blushed for fuck's sake!" I squeaked and looked down. There was no way in hell I could tell him I had a crush on him. He was popular and beautiful and I was, well, me. Unpopular, hideous, and inexperienced with relationships.
When I finally looked up I jumped slightly. Gerard's face was inches from mine and his bright pink lips looked so tempting. "Who do you like?" He asked with a hint of desperateness in his voice. I just looked at his lips and licked my own. I want to kiss you, I thought. I like you.
I took a shaky breath and flickered my eyes up to his; hoping he'd somehow get my mental message. But he wasn't looking at me. He was looking at my lips. I whimpered and he started to lean in slowly and I started panicking. What do I do??? Do I keep my head still??? Lean in???
I stayed as still as possible as Gerard ran a hand through my hair gently and moved the other to cup my cheek. I whimpered again when he was just inches away and let my eyes flutter closed. My heart was pounding excitedly even though every other inch of me was screaming it was a bad idea to kiss him, so I pushed the negativity away. This was it.
The second his lips touched mine I whined nervously. Gerard, sensing I had no fucking clue what I was doing, slipped his hands into mine and wrapped them around his neck; urging my lips to dance with his. His mouth was so soft and moved so gently against mine I thought I was going to explode out of content. I was finally kissing him. Finally.

Notes

sooooo what were Gerard and Mikey fighting about? Who thinks they know? First person to comment the correct answer gets a shout out in the chapter where all is revealed :) Hope you all are well <3