Sing It Out

The kiss was rushed, hurried and messy. Yet still I got that tingle soar through my whole body as my hands trailed up his arm, his remaining stationary at his side. He pulled away first and locked his stunning, hazel shiny eyes onto my dull and lifeless ones.
"Ohmygod, I'm so sorry, I didn't- erm- I can't- I'm sorry- I"
"No don't be sorry! It's fine-" I started.
"No, fuck I-" I shut him up with my lips on his again, only quickly, but enough to prove that I didn't mind, not in the slightest. I pulled away as quick as I placed them on his delicate lips.
"Shut up, this will be the only time I tell you to shut up and that's when you talk bullshit, don't apologise please, ever again, when you kiss me. Don't ducking regret it either." I ordered. I felt like I was bossing him around a little bit too much as I could see the thoughts flying through his mind and regret flickering in his eyes. I visibly softened and hugged him tightly.
"Thanks Frankie." He said softly. God this boy, I don't know what it is, I've never felt love apart from my mother but that doesn't really count. I feel as if I have to protect this person from the rest of the world and be with him every day. Is this love?
"Now come on, there's only a little bit of time left before we finish school. Is it okay with your mom that you stay round mine?"
"Yeah, sure," she would understand.
"Nice, where should we go?" He asked. He still didn't really know the school really well and I was scared that if he walked somewhere he wasn't welcome, people would pile on him like a tonne of bricks.
"Yanno what? Let's just go and sit in Mr Bryar's room, just chill out." I decided. Gerard smiled in agreement as we began to walk in the direction of his room.

On the way to the classroom, Gerard's hand kept on brushing mine, not in a weird way, but in a cute way. How come he likes me all of a sudden? How did I deserve someone that talented and good looking? I shall never know. I shuffled closer to him and I could see a little grin at the side of his face. I decided that all this was just petty teasing and went in for my move. I took his hand and held it with my own. Blush immediately rose to his pale cheeks, but he did not refuse or object so we happily walked like this all the way to Bob- Mr Bryar's room.

As we opened the frail door leading into the music room, we found no teacher, no Mr Bryar, and it was only myself and Gerard. He looked at me and we locked eyes. I don't know what this boy is doing to me, but I think I like it. We sat down at our table, next to each other and began subtle conversation. Nothing weird, just talking about life in general. He reached for my hand again, and I didn't even think twice against if as we laid our hands in each other's on the table. Nobody can judge us in here, nobody knows were in here. Before I knew it was happening, Gerard leaned into me and our lips made contact once more. It sounds so cliché to say that there were 'sparks' but it really did feel like it. God I'm such a girl, fuck. I wanted more, I wanted more of him, almost like a drug or a cigarette, he's addictive. You have one and you have to continuously go back for more and more. I began to deepen the kiss as I started to believe that this was more than just a one off. But then something happened that I really didn't want to happen. The door opened.


It was Ray.

And he was mad as fuck.

He didn't even consider our little 'situation', he just strode his way to Gerard, covering the distance of the room in just a few strides and hit him, right in the face.
"Ray! What the fuck, get the fuck off him!" I cried. Nothing would help as he continued to hurt Gerard. Tears streamed down my cheek and I knew it was all my fault.
"RAY!" I tried, screaming his name as I pulled at him. He finally stopped hitting Gerard, leaving him in a broken mess in the corner and turned to me.
"You, fucking midget, I TOLD you to stay the FUCK away from him. Did you listen? NO! Do you know what he's done!? You don't know anything! You know what, I'm fucking done. I'm so out. Don't bother trying to contact me you little shits." He finished before storming out the door. I rushed to Gerard's side.
"Gee! I'm so sorry! What was that?!" I said between messy sobs.
"I'm a bad person Frank, you shouldn't be with me. I don't deserve you." He said weakly. I turned my head sharply as the door squeaked open once more. This time, his words were a lot more considerate.
"Gerard! Goddamnit, I knew this was going to happen. Here let me help." Said Mikey.
"Ray just- I don't know- help him please." I begged to him.
"Of course I am, I'm getting you both back to our place. Fuck everything else." Mikey decided. Both he and I helped Gerard up and slung his arm over our shoulders. The receptionist was actually shocked at Gerard's state and let us out a bit early to go home. Wow, the school is a little less shittier than I thought. We half ran- half dragged ourselves back to the Way's house where we were confronted with a very worried, very pissed off Mrs Way.
"Oh my baby! Gerard, if it's Ray I will kill him, look what he's done to you!" She cried. Now I know there's something that apparently everyone knows, but I don't! I don't mention anything about it though as we get Gerard up to his room and comfortable with the appropriate treatment to his beatings and marks.
Looks like I'm going to be finding something out about Ray that I never knew before. This could get interesting.

Notes

A bit mean but all will be explained with Ray and Gerard's past in the next chapter.
by the way, thanks for all the lovely comments, you guys are amazing and I'm just here like a potato. Anyways, hope y'all have a great day/ night or whatever.