Sing It Out

I came back that night in a mist of confusion and obsession. I needed to see him again, hear him, anything. We both had a new goal anyway, to gather a mini temporary band so that Gerard could sing again. Convincing Mr Bryar should be easy enough as he's always wanted to be in a band, but convincing Ray is going to be one hell of a task. I don't know what's happened to them in the past but hopefully they can both put it behind them. I decided to call Ray once again.
"Sorry I bailed man, I couldnt stand it, being there with him" Ray began.
"Well, you're going to be pissed, but Gerard has suggested to get a temporary band together so he can continue singing and he's invited me and now I'm inviting you."
"No I'm fucking not."
"Please Raymond?!"
"No."
"Why?"
"No."
"Don't be a prick."
"No."
"But it's an oppertunity!"
"No."
"I'll do what you want for a year."
"N- Wait, anything?" he queried.
"Fucking yes, seriously, let's go to school, get Mr Bryar, you, Gerard, his bass guitarist and myself together and try it out. You may even enjoy it!" I begged.
"Fine, once Frankie but if somethings going to happen, I'm so out."
"Rad, see you tomorrow dude." I finished and hung up. I flopped on my bed in victory and can imagine Ray falling on his bed in utter defeat. I can be convincing when I can. I decided to just forget about dinner, being as Mom was asleep, and climbed into bed. Tomorrow is going to be good, I can tell.

*Time lapse, music lesson, the next day*

"Sure Frank, but remember I'm still your teacher and I shouldn't really be doing this kind of thing but... Okay." Mr Bryar finalised. I punched my arm in the air in victory as my little plan was coming together. It's been hard convincing people to join being as we all don't really have any friends. Ray and I are unsociable, Bobs a teacher and Gerard doesn't fucking talk! What a group we make!

All the equipment was all set up and ready to go, my beloved Pansy was freshly cleaned and tuned, Rays guitar was sat on his lap as he stared lovingly at it, Bobs drums were just... There, and Gerard's microphone stood isolated in the centre of everything. This could be his chance to get recognised. People will see him as he really is, an incredible singer.

Just as I check Pansy's tuning, the doors open to the music room and there enters two people. One I know very well and the other rather similar.
"Hey Gerard." I say politely.
"Hi" he whispers incredibly quietly. Got to admit, cutest guy I've ever met.
"Who's this guy?" I ask
"Oh I'm Mikey! I'm Gerard's brother." He says with a smile. Well at least one of the Way brothers talks fluently. Jesus Christ I was going insane. I could see both the brothers looking at Ray, rather considerably, worriedly and also rather sadly. Something has happened between them but I really have no clue. Mikey just kept on looking between Ray and Gerard. Ray caught him at one point, but Mikey just have him a smile for which Ray returned with a scowl. What a sad bastard.
"Okay so, Gerard you got a song for us?"
"Yeah," he began quietly. He quickly handed out some sheet music to all of us for our designated instrument. Mikey then took over with the talking.
"This is a song Gerard made, wrote and wrote the sheet music to. I think were calling it 'Honey This Mirror Isn't Big Enough For The Two Of Us' long ass title but I think the songs pretty good. Gerard and I can do the first verse so you guys get the gist of it." He explained. He looked at Gerard and he nodded to him. It's like they moved in perfect harmony. What one does, the other must follow. It was like dancing to be honest. Beautiful and purposeful. Then they began playing.

'The amount of pills I'm taking, counteracts the booze I'm drinking
and this vanity I'm breaking, lets me live my life like this
and well I find it hard to stay, with the words you say
Oh baby let me in
Oh baby let me in
Well I'll choose the life I've taken, never mind the friends I'm making
and the beauty that I'm faking lets me live my life like this
And well I find it hard to stay, with the words you say
Oh baby let me in
Oh baby let me in'

Mikey played perfectly along with his bass guitar, staring at his instrument as if it was an extension of his own arm. Gerard almost came to life, he blossomed like a flower. The lyrics were meaningful as he looked at Ray for the most of it, which irritated him. They stopped playing and we all looked through the song.

"I think it's a great song, with practice, it would be fucking awesome." I commented.
"Yeah, I've been begging Gerard for years to do something about this song and now look, mini band, mini us!" Mikey joked
"Almost living the dream." Bob added. He was literally the best teacher ever. He didn't care that he just hung around with his students, it's better than just sitting in the staff lounge drinking shifty tea and bitching about the students.
"Gerard, what do you think?" I asked him. He simply returned a slight nod, why can't he talk of a sudden, fucking mute. I don't understand him, he can sing so perfectly and will talk to me for a bit on our own but when were around other people, he shuts up. Why? I must find the answer.

*after the practice*

"Oh. My. God. I love this, the music, you guys, everything I fucking love it, it's great!" Mikey exclaimed. Both Ray and Gerard haven't said a word and have only been playing their instrument... Or voice if it's Gerard. They really don't like each other at all, Jesus.
"Yeah same, it's sounds rad as hell. Always wanted to make music." I replied, we decided to call it a day and we left our equipment on the side. During this time, Gerard snook by me as we both walked out together.
"You okay Gerard?"
"No- I'm not o-fucking-kay. Ray's being a dick and I just want to explain"
"You need me to help?" I asked.
"Oh, yeah sure, I didn't think of that." He said with a smile. He looked away momentarily and took a deep breath.
"By the way, Mikey seems to really like you and , to be honest, you're the closest thing I have to a friend." He began. I like where this is going.
"I was wondering if you wanted to... Yanno.,. Stay over? Like, the night? I don't know, I sound so stupid.' His voice began sinking into it's all to familiar mute before I smiled at him.
"Yeah, sounds like fun!" I confirmed. I was only expecting a 'oh cool', but what I got was completely unexpected and unprepared.

His lips smashed onto mine and I can say now, I haven't felt more alive in that moment.

Notes

Sleepy time for me, night night.